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Started January 17, 2019 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

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Thanks guys. I'll be sure to do square breathing. (I've already been trying to avoid her and her confrontations.)

I've never heard of square breathing, but that's helpful to know for me as well.

Basically what you do is you breathe in for four seconds, hold for 4 seconds, and breathe out for 4 seconds.

Shuri taught me square breathing.

Honestly everything I do causes me anxiety at this point so square breathing has been really helpful

I'm glad you got something good out of it. Love you AFT!

Honestly everything I do causes me anxiety at this point so square breathing has been really helpful

I'm here for you and I know there are plenty of other people by your side.

Okay I kinda feel guilty about something. So (and this is just me) when things get bad, I tend to push everyone and everything away. And that includes one of my favorite peoples in the world and one of my closest friends. So this person is amazing. She's 11/10 and my absolute favorite human. But things had gotten bad again in the past week. We went on a walk together, after not doing so in a long time, and she asked me whether I had someone to talk about the crappy things in life with. And I said that I had her. But she kinda was like "really? because i don't think you've talked to me about it in a while and i know that things have gotten bad again" and I feel guilty about it. I'm working on not pushing people who care away, and I just feel bad about this because I don't want to push her away

I know, I know what you're feeling, and I just want to say, but no matter what you think, letting people in is for the greater good.

I'll always be here for you AFT. It''s great that you're working towards letting people in your life. I want you to try and do that because that's what's best for you and I care about you.

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
I'm here for you too. <3

I wanted to confront the guy that got disproportionately mad at me about a text I sent, but then I talked to my dad and he said I sounded a little low key crazy bc I was trying to figure him out, and I was holding onto this, and plotting it out. So now I think that I definitely won’t do that. But I’m not sure. So maybe I’ll go to the councilor and talk to her about it, tell her all the details and see what she thinks.
I’m just second guessing everything I do when I think I’m being crazy. I have crazy all in my family, and I do not want to be crazy.

Okay.
Big mood overdone.
Very big mood.

Dude, I know. This is a wacky pack of a situation. Anyway, I gotta a crap ton of hw to do and I have an early matinee to do tomorrow 🙃 and I gotta get socks for tomorrow because all of my uniform socks are dirty and I haven’t had time to do laundry.

Oh. If you need help on HW PM me, OK?

Just finished a book and I'm Not Okay.

Oof Jynnie but also a mood

The epilogue wrecked me!!
It took place after the funeral for Padme in RotS and it was her best friend mourning her death and resolving to figure out what happened to her.

The epilogue wrecked me!!
It took place after the funeral for Padme in RotS and it was her best friend mourning her death and resolving to figure out what happened to her.

I love yet hate books like that. I'm addicted to them.

hi i hate the littles.

so i'm jacob, primary protector of the mezzo system. my job is basically making sure that nothing all that bad happens, preventing another split, etc. but the subtext of my job is apparently babysitter. they're making me watch two of our littles(alters under the age of 9) constantly when they're aren's responsiblity! i'm terrible with children, and often, when i'm watching the two, the other three dash over and want to play. so, when i'm trying my damn hardest to destress the body and plan ahead for things, i'm being pestered by children. how can i peg them back off to aren without being rude(xe's my brother…)?

Try playing a movie or giving them a device? When I watch my brothers I just hand them both an iPad and they don't pester me anymore.

hi i hate the littles.

so i'm jacob, primary protector of the mezzo system. my job is basically making sure that nothing all that bad happens, preventing another split, etc. but the subtext of my job is apparently babysitter. they're making me watch two of our littles(alters under the age of 9) constantly when they're aren's responsiblity! i'm terrible with children, and often, when i'm watching the two, the other three dash over and want to play. so, when i'm trying my damn hardest to destress the body and plan ahead for things, i'm being pestered by children. how can i peg them back off to aren without being rude(xe's my brother…)?

This is the most bizzare issue with small children that I have ever seen in my entire life……
Uhm….
Anyway I consider myself an expert on small chilldren due to the fact that I live with 5 of them and am often stuck being substitute mom. Uhm….
What do they like to do?
Can they be put to work without supervision?
Are they capable of helping you in a small way?
Can you convince someone else to care for them?

hi i hate the littles.

so i'm jacob, primary protector of the mezzo system. my job is basically making sure that nothing all that bad happens, preventing another split, etc. but the subtext of my job is apparently babysitter. they're making me watch two of our littles(alters under the age of 9) constantly when they're aren's responsiblity! i'm terrible with children, and often, when i'm watching the two, the other three dash over and want to play. so, when i'm trying my damn hardest to destress the body and plan ahead for things, i'm being pestered by children. how can i peg them back off to aren without being rude(xe's my brother…)?

This is the most bizzare issue with small children that I have ever seen in my entire life……
Uhm….
Anyway I consider myself an expert on small chilldren due to the fact that I live with 5 of them and am often stuck being substitute mom. Uhm….
What do they like to do?
Can they be put to work without supervision?
Are they capable of helping you in a small way?
Can you convince someone else to care for them?

They like to yell about things and be annoying in general. I don't have the time to get to know them. They can't do much without supervision(two of them have special needs and the others are 3), and they can't really help me. As i said, I'm trying to peg them off to Aren. Malachai often'll take care of the triplets.

Try playing a movie or giving them a device? When I watch my brothers I just hand them both an iPad and they don't pester me anymore.

They're in the headspace. We're a DID system.

Earlier I posted on how (on a different thread) there was a dying cancer patient who would most likely not make it to May. Godzilla comes out at the end of May. He wanted to hear Godzilla "roar one last time", so the Godzilla fandom set aside their differences, and contacted people working on the movie to get a private screening for him. It was confirmed that things were looking up to him getting a private screening to watch the movie.

Unfortunately, he passed away this morning. https://buffalonews.com/2019/03/07/george-root-iii-godzilla-fan-dies-before-last-wish-to-see-new-movie-can-be-granted/

This is really sad; I've been following the topic for a little bit now.

When I see the movie, I'm going to remember George.