forum Your personal venting space.

Started January 17, 2019 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

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Believe me I totally agree wuth you Kylee. It hurts because I was in a situation like that once and it kinda is um… Yeah…

I hope everything works out for all of us.

Me too, kiddo!

I am invisible.

I am invisible.

Not to me! Unless you wanna be.

I am invisible.

Not to me! Unless you wanna be.

No, I don't want to. But just… at school. Like a ghost! It's fine, mostly. Until I actually want to talk to someone. Then it's just rubbish.

I am invisible.

Not to me! Unless you wanna be.

No, I don't want to. But just… at school. Like a ghost! It's fine, mostly. Until I actually want to talk to someone. Then it's just rubbish.

Well, if you'd like, I'd be happy to be your internet friend.

I am invisible.

Lol I was in the 6th grade, if I wasn’t someone was making fun of my appearance like the dicks they are still very upset
_{those fuckers deserve to die, just because I don’t wear make up makes me automatically the worst person on the planet}

I am invisible.

Lol I was in the 6th grade, if I wasn’t someone was making fun of my appearance like the dicks they are still very upset
_{those fuckers deserve to die, just because I don’t wear make up makes me automatically the worst person on the planet}

Well I frankly think you personally adorable, and anyway who cares what a few overblown jackasses think? Not going to lie I kind of got roasted pretty hard back when I was younger, but I managed to laugh it off and enjoy the joke with everyone else.

I am invisible.

Is that bad? You see, I wish I were invisible, but sometimes people mean that in a bad way.

I am invisible.

Is that bad? You see, I wish I were invisible, but sometimes people mean that in a bad way.

It's not all bad. Just when you want to talk to someone.

I am invisible.

Is that bad? You see, I wish I were invisible, but sometimes people mean that in a bad way.

It's not all bad. Just when you want to talk to someone.

Sometimes it’s good

That's awful, Connie. hugs

and I love being invisible lol bc i can eavesdrop on people's conversations

I don't mind being invisible especially since I'm used to it but then sometimes it makes me feel like no one ever notices me and when i need help, no one notices like on friday

I usually notice.

I kinda meant in real life, but yeah.

Oh.

I wish people wouldn't notice me.

I wish people wouldn't notice me.

Sometimes I wish some people did notice me to be honest. I’m basically ignored, and if not I’m either getting teased which I ignore most of the time and sometimes it makes me doubt myself even more or I’m talking to a friend. Drama sucks, I usually have no drama. I might be apart of it but no one seems to care… what are you going to spread? That I think Fortnite is trash and I never liked it, only when it had Thanos I was okay with it? Oh yeah I can see the triggered fanboys coming after me for not being a ‘true gamer’ To anyone who calls themselves a gamer when they only play one online free game, you aren’t. A gamer is someone who plays multiple, and at least tell people about it. Fortnite isn’t a real game to me, it’s just a cash grab with pointless updates.

I wish I could be noticed by people… But then again I’d probably embarrass myself. I just wish every day wasn’t so pancaking repetitive here…

I wish I could be noticed by people… But then again I’d probably embarrass myself. I just wish every day wasn’t so pancaking repetitive here…

I love you! I notice you!

I wish I could be noticed by people… But then again I’d probably embarrass myself. I just wish every day wasn’t so pancaking repetitive here…

Lol me.

But you know what else I wish? I wish I wasn’t so helpless, I wish I could actually do things myself and not have to rely on my parents constantly. (A lot of this rant is going to be religion related so if that triggers you or something ignore this) It’s not my fault that I haven’t been to confession in 3 months despite being in a possible state of mortal sin, it’s not my fault we’ve only been to church once within the past 5 weeks, it’s not my fault that I haven’t been eating healthy, it’s not my fault that every single pancaking day is completely unmemorable and exactly the same, It’s not my fault that I can’t パンケーキing do anything but sit around playing my phone until I’m at least 16,

Who’s fault is it? My parents because they never take me anywhere. I understand that they have busy schedules sometimes, but a lot of these things had planned out dates. Yet my mom completely ignored them, scheduled more things for those days, invited a friend over for coffee and left her child to rock back in forth in her room panicking that she’s going to die a painful death and burn in hell (I’m known for being a bit dramatic) because she wasn’t able to make up for her past awful behaviors and go to confession. And even on the days where we skipped church due to being snowed in, a few of those times we weren’t even that snowed in, one time my mom actually went out for lunch just an hour later and had no trouble driving, meaning we could’ve gone to church. Yet we didn’t.

I want to have even a slight bit of control over what happens in my life, right now the only things I can fully control are what games are on my phone, how much hot cocoa I drink per day, and what digital art tools/brushes/programs I use. I’m sick of it, I want to go places and do things for crying out loud, yet I’m stuck in this house counting the hours that go by until I’m finally old enough to drive far away from this place and live my own life. I’m sick of feeling like an awful freaking human being over things I can’t change, I’m sick of being stuck in an endless loop of the same things over and over again, and I’m sick of being unable to do anything about it.

There’s my vent for the day.

I'm sorry Ella. I know what that's like. Are you able to go on walks or bike rides by yourself?

Nope, I don't have a bike or anywhere to use it and the only place I can go for a walk is the hay field in my backyard, which is known for being full of spiders, wasps, and all things creepy crawly. It's usually too overgrown to walk through anyway… Not to mention it's snowing here.