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Started January 17, 2019 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

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i would if i wasn't having a panic attack!(dont worry i'm talking with someone)

i would if i wasn't having a panic attack!(dont worry i'm talking with someone)

That's alright Ella sometimes sleep just doesn't come to you. Stressing about it probably won't help and you might want to get off Notebook since that's a device related thing. Sorry for sounding like such a mom haha.

So a-fucking-pparently my internet works but not my messaging app or other shit.
It's bull.

Five hours of sleep BAM

Yay!

Good news, shortly after that I managed to get a few tiny hours of sleep.

My sanity ended up slipping away so it gets less polite as you go. You don't have to read it, it's just my rant about tampons and pads being "luxury" items.

To the people that decide what qualifies as a luxury:
Being a girl, I've begun to notice something. As have other women and girls. Tampons, pads, and other sanitary products of the like are being counted as luxury items. As I assume most of you are male, I can see how you might think this. Allow me to clear the air. Sanitary items are not a luxury item. They are very much necessities. For example, you come across women in your daily lives so it stands to reason that you will meet a woman while she is on her period. You may not realize this, but period blood is smelly. Without proper items, it will ruin clothes, chairs, other seats, cars, and will stink up a room. Now congrats, the Starbucks you go to every morning smells like blood. Everything is stained. Women cannot "hold it in" until they get to a bathroom as one could hold in pee. We have no control over it. It is also extremely uncomfortable knowing that you're bleeding and not having anything to help. Think of, say, having a deep, constantly bleeding cut on your arm and no band aid or doctors to stop your bleeding. Everyone can see it. No one wants to be around it.
Now, imagine you're making minimum wage, barely supporting yourself. All of a sudden, your vagina starts bleeding. It will keep bleeding for a week. You have no money to buy tampons, due to the high price and excessive tax. What do you do? You can't skip work, you need the money, but you can't go in bloody clothes.
Or how about this scenario? You're married happily with a kid or two, maybe three, when a tornado hits your house and everything you had is gone. Most of your money needs to be spent on new clothes, rebuilding your house and life, while still paying for your kids to go to school. Not to mention that you need food. You could rely solely on "hygiene packs" given by relief volunteers. Soap, toothbrush, toothpaste, deodorant. Pads and tampons. Having put together many myself, do you know how many pads and tampons you would get in a pack like that? A few tampons, and maybe a pad, if you're lucky. Enough to last… A day? But wait….periods last more than a day. Now what do you do? You can't waste money buying more, and you can't get enough hygiene packs that it would last you until you're back on your feet.
You might suggest that we do what they did in the olden days– before tampons and pads were invented. Brilliant idea. I'm sure that we all have access to sheep wool or rags to shove in our underwear. With today's fashion trends and available clothing options, this would be impossible.
These are just a few examples of why tampons are necessary and shouldn't be taxed as luxury items.
Pickles out.

FUCKIN PREACH

AMEN

Yes, as YK says, fuckin' preach. That is not a 'luxury item' in the least. It is far from it and is, in fact, a necessity, and such things as tampons, pads, and the like, are literally needed. I really hope this classification of these products as 'luxury items' stops entirely

Yeah

Daaaaaaang…. amen to THAT.

A-THE FUCK-MEN.

So… Uh… Multiple people seem to have noticed that I've become less optimistic and much more self-deprecating over the past few months and… I mean, it's really comforting knowing people care enough about me to notice such a small thing and say something about it but at the same time, if people are really noticing then maybe I've gotten worse than I realize…

So… Uh… Multiple people seem to have noticed that I've become less optimistic and much more self-deprecating over the past few months and… I mean, it's really comforting knowing people care enough about me to notice such a small thing and say something about it but at the same time, if people are really noticing then maybe I've gotten worse than I realize…

Listen, sweetpea. We're gonna notice these things. and just like you said we are going to notice them because we care. We care a lot as a matter of fact. And I'm going to tell you a few things.

1. Is that if you feel this is getting too out of hand, you might want to suggest to your parents, seeing a therapist. Could be nothing, but it's best to be sure.
2. I think it's positively amazing that despite going through such a bad mood, you are still able to go out and make a difference on this site. This chat in particular is one of the cornerstones of Notebook.ai. I for one, couldn't imagine this site without it, or you around spreading positivity, and wholesomeness and all the good stuff you do! Ella, you've done a positively amazing job at what you set out to do and you are truly bringing good into this world. You may not feel the effects of it at the moment but we sure as heck do. And I personally would like to thank you for everything you've done.
3. Just because we notice these things doesn't mean that you are falling into a downward spiral or something. You seem to go through ups and downs, so I want to say that the best thing you can do is write out the downs, trying to distract yourself and live for the ups. Now as I said earlier I do recommend seeing a therapist if you really think this is getting bad for you. I wouldn't want a Priceless Jewel such as yourself to have to go through too much bad stuff at once. We love you.

Pickles out.

Just- just gonna awkwardly hop in here and say that I love this phrase so much.

Okay, Shuri, do you have some sort of magical superpower or something because you’re always able to make people smile, like I could be having the absolute worst day of my entire life and you’d still be able to cheer me up, what the heck

Okay, Shuri, do you have some sort of magical superpower or something because you’re always able to make people smile, like I could be having the absolute worst day of my entire life and you’d still be able to cheer me up, what the heck

You just said what I've been trying to figure out how to say

Yeah it’s really getting worse for me too. People will ask me randomly if I’m okay or if something happened. When I ask why they say I looked depressed. So far I only have diagnosed anxiety but I’m starting with a new therapist soon and I feel like we’re gonna add depression and insomnia to the list.

Yeah it’s really getting worse for me too. People will ask me randomly if I’m okay or if something happened. When I ask why they say I looked depressed. So far I only have diagnosed anxiety but I’m starting with a new therapist soon and I feel like we’re gonna add depression and insomnia to the list.

hey, that means you'll get to deal with your issues in a healthy way

Yeah it’s really getting worse for me too. People will ask me randomly if I’m okay or if something happened. When I ask why they say I looked depressed. So far I only have diagnosed anxiety but I’m starting with a new therapist soon and I feel like we’re gonna add depression and insomnia to the list.

hey, that means you'll get to deal with your issues in a healthy way

That's true! YK is very wise! See, now that you've been diagnosed you have all the resources to solve the problem!

Yeah it’s really getting worse for me too. People will ask me randomly if I’m okay or if something happened. When I ask why they say I looked depressed. So far I only have diagnosed anxiety but I’m starting with a new therapist soon and I feel like we’re gonna add depression and insomnia to the list.

hey, that means you'll get to deal with your issues in a healthy way

That's true! YK is very wise! See, now that you've been diagnosed you have all the resources to solve the problem!

Yeah I'm kinda hoping. Never had a therapist before. Kinda nervous.

That's natural, really! Hope you do well in life fren!

I have a therapist and she's AMAZING. She's really cool, I trust her a lot and feel safe telling her pretty much anything. It's totally worth it.