actually I need to rant real quick it might be oversharing but yeah I might not be on much because my mom spilled water all over my laptop "looking for something" and I don't really think she did it on purpose but she isn't really sorry and she's trying to blame me for it because I left MY water on MY desk so yeah if I'm not on that's why :))))
I hope things get better ;)
I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL, like one time I put a glass of soda on the counter and my mom bumped into it, spilling the soda so she blamed it on me.
UGGGHGHHGH (guys be prepared I have been holding this in forever) I HAVE A CRUSH ON MY BEST FRIEND BUT SHE'S A GIRL AND I'M A GIRL(sometimes) AND SHE'S STRAIGHT AND SHE KNOWS I'M LESBIAN BIROMANTIC BUT SHE DOESN'T KNOW I LIKE HER AND I'M GENDERFLUID AND SHE THINKS THAT'S WEIRD AND I CAN'T TELL MY PARENTS I'M NOT HETERONORMATIVE BC THEY'RE RELIGIOUS AND IT'S A SIN TO BE THE WAY I AM AND NOBODY UNDERSTANDS AND ALL THE KIDS AT MY SCHOOL ARE ANNOYING BUT I DON'T KNOW WHO KNOWS MY SECRET (about being biromantic) BC THE FRIEND I HAVE A CRUSH ON TOLD HER BFF WHO'S REALLY POPULAR AND APPARENTLY SHE TOLD OTHER PEOPLE AND GURUURURUGUGFUHGUSGHSADgjkbkasdlhkjkbds g
Anywho thank you for ignoring this if you have any questions feel free to clarify bc that probably made no sense I shall probably rant again later
Honestly I am on the brink of suicide bc I feel like everyone hates me and food makes me feel sick and getting up in the morning is just so hard and everyone hates me and my anxiety keeps me from doing anything and I'm just so useless and I shouldn't be complaining bc there are people in the world having a harder time than me but here I am being selfish and complaining
Hey bruh I feel crappy sometimes too but you gotta keep pushing forward and trying. At this point I'm just trying to get revenge on life itself……so I hope you make it through.
I want to help but i really have nothing helpful rn and i feel like a crappy person.
What helps is to find reasons not to……like I personally want to go suicide, but I can't because I want to talk to you guys.
YES!!!! Find something to look forward to everyday. even if it's just your school having a bake sale, or some tv show you love, or because no one else will feed your pet. Nothing is to petty to stay alive for!
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Guilting yourself because other people "have it worse" is no way to think. It hurts even more. Your issues are valid, and they are awful to you. Don't let anyone tell you you shouldn't complain. If you're legitimately considering suicide, you should really get help. There are hotlines out there, and if you have friends you think you can depend on, or an adult who might be able to help, please say something to them. You can get past troubles in your life, but once you're gone, there's no taking it back.
^^amen
What if you can't talk to anyone because they won't understand or take it seriously?
Talk to the people on here and we'll try to help you as best we can, right guys?
That's what hotlines are for. I've never used one, but from what I understand, it's basically talking to someone you don't know who will understand and will take you seriously.
Thank you guys so much! It makes me happy to know that there are people, whether they are strangers or not that care. I don't know of any hotlines, though
Me neither….
Okay, so I follow a mental health blog and they post a lot of stuff like this, so I'm going to try my best. I've only got US based ones here. I don't have the numbers, but you can look them up. There's one called National Suicide Prevention Lifeline, another called the Crisis Textline (this one is text-based so you don't actually have to talk), and for LGBTQ+ youth, there's something called the Trevor Project, which has a text option I think. (Again, this is based on research, not experience. I've never used any of these, but I know at least the first one is reputable)
Thank you! I'll have to search them up
No problem
Hi guys I’m sorry but I need to rant again
Similar to last time but it happened again today and I’m BuRnInG with anger
Okay so my brother lies a lot. Like every three sentences. And my mom doesn’t really care. The minute I ‘lie’ or ‘omit the truth’ or whatever, she metaphorically pounces on me and makes me apologize and i lose my phone and whatever. Idc about the phone but the fact that she doesnt give a crap about my brother’s untruthfulness just hurts. And today, my brother lied again. And I (without really thinking about it) called him out on it. Gently. Considerately. Well my brother is a freaking drama QUEEN and so he starts sobbing, “but i dont lie, I never lie, only sometimes, you hurt my feelings,” etc. My mom just turns to me and goes, “This is why I didn’t want you to get involved! Nobody trusts you when you lie like this!” And it took everything I had not to just yell at her. I’m not the one lying, I never lie, okay? And I ca’t just say that, because no matter what I say, its ‘sass’ or ‘sarcasm’ or whatever when I’m actually just trying to clarify something or add my input to a conversation! And i love my mom and stuff but nobody understands me anymore and I feel like I’m dying from the inside out.
I’m at school rn and holding back tears and I abslutely hate feeling like this.
Thank you, just needed to get that off my chest.
[ignore this, just need to get it off my chest]
So one of my really close friends recently got together with the guy she liked. And I was so happy for her, you know? Like they were so cute and just aaaah
But now it's like I only exist when he's not around. I don't know how many times it's happened that I'm talking to her, he walks up, and suddenly the conversation is done. Or I'm waiting at her locker so we can walk to class together and he comes and they leave together and I'm just left standing there like okay that's fine too I guess. And I've gently talked to her about it and she said she would definitely work on it and stuff but nothing changed. Like they have this magic superpower where they can make a room full of people feel like third wheels, and they don't even notice.
And like they have extenuating circumstances and stuff and it's not like I want them to break up, I just want my friend back! And it makes me so angry at him because I feel like she tries but he just follows her around like some oversized puppy, but then his friends are all angry at her so it has to be mutual. And I'm trying really hard not to hate him because he's a genuinely nice guy but it's getting increasingly hard not to when he's the reason I can barely talk to my friend anymore.
And since my friend and I are graduating and moving to different countries, it just makes me so angry that our last weeks together are like this. Like yes, the two of them have limited time together, but guess what, my time is also limited?? And I'm statistically more likely to be on speaking terms with her next year? So it's kind of dumb that I can only speak to her when he happens to not be around and he spends like 98% of his time around her?? UGH
Anyway
So that was a thing
Cool beans * finger guns *
I can relate I am the third wheel to my two bffs who started dating
Ugh! One of my close friends has a girlfriend, and she doesn’t like me. Like, I was talking to him and he had to go get something, and she didn’t talk to me at all when he was gone. I told that, and I asked him if he could talk to her about it, and he said that she’s scared of me. I said that wasn’t true, because I was in the same mock trial class as her, and he just shrugged it off. He also has to drag her into every single conversation. Like, he was complimenting a friend of mine in her performance at a school concert and immediately said that his girlfriend can hit a higher note with less falsetto-y ness.
I have AP exams two days in a row, and I have "graduation practice" immediately before it both days. It's driving me nuts because the lady in charge of the practices is rude and wastes all of our time, and it just drains me emotionally, right before these tests. My school treats academics as if they aren't important sometimes, and it drives me insane. It's the last week of school, and they're making things just terrible. Not to mention, the teacher who teaches the subject of the exam I'm taking tomorrow does not teach, and he uses participation grades to cover up the fact we do nothing in class. It's economics, which is a subject I've always hated, so I'm just hoping I do well enough that I don't have to take it again in college. And for the next day's exam, I've been doing well all year, but within the past few weeks, I've been falling behind because you know… I thought I had everything down, so I focused on apparently more urgent matters, and then this all happened.