So, in short, I'm leaving. I'm committing suicide. But before I go, I want the following message to go to two people:
There have been two people who have saved me from committing suicide far earlier on. People who have plucked me out of depression when it was needed. People who have made me laugh and had fun. People who have made the world a far better place and made life worth living. People who have pulled over 50,000 people like me out of depression. There is no work greater than theirs: Saving people. Making people laugh. Making the world a happy place.
These two people are Daniel Howell and Phil Lester. My name is Fern T.
I think that both of them should keep doing what they're doing. Please. It's amazing, it's helped so many people, and without you, I'd already be dead. It's my last wish that those two people get that message and make a video reading it so that more people will be aware of what's happening to us and that Dan and Phil can keep inspiring and saving all of those people. I'm so immensely grateful and thankful for the both of them.
That's the mission. To get that message to them. Goodbye, angels.
http://ibpf.org/resource/list-international-suicide-hotlines
Please, please, please, call your national hotline right now!
Hey please don't go. We need you here
I DO NOT NEED THIS TODAY
Great. More things to feel awful about. Just what I needed…
I'm sorry, I'm not trying to be rude, but maybe that's not the most helpful response in this situation.
FERN PLEASE WHATEVER YOU DO DON'T LEAVE…
but we should try to get that message to Dan and Phil, they're great YouTubers
Oh my God. Don’t. I don’t know you, but please don’t do this. Things will get better. Sometimes it gets harder but things will get better!
Fern, please. I realize that I don't actually know you, but we want you here. Please come back
Wait who was this? Which user? I can alert andrew (Our Supreme Lord and Overseer) and he can contact them!
Hi, I don't think we've met. I'm Sarah and I'm delighted to meet you. I want you to know that although we've just met, the thought of you dying makes the world seem so much grayer and so much darker. And we've only just met. Imagine the people who you've touched with your smile, with your laugh, with your light. Imagine how much darker their world will be if you were to leave.
You may be thinking no one cares. But they do. They always do, even if they don't show it. They'll always miss you, and it will always hurt. They will always blame themselves for not seeing that you were hurting. They will always wonder what they could've done to get a different outcome.
And think of all the people you are going to help. You might be thinking that you can't help anyone, but sometimes even just a smile or a kind word can impact people in a big way. And you're capable of that, everyone is. You also have unique talent, ability, and personality. There is no one exactly like you who can help people in the exact way you can.
You're made of stardust and God breathed life into you. (Sorry if you're not religious, I'm not on most days either.) Your existence is a miracle. You deserve to live, you deserve happiness, and someday you'll get it. Please don't use a permanent 'solution' to temporary problems. Think of all the reasons you want to live. Phil is not on fire –a new one comes out every year, doesn't it?? You'd be missing that. Do you have pets? They'll never understand where you've gone. Favorite movies? TV shows? Friends who you'd like to chat with?
Find reasons, however small, to stay alive. Please, please stay alive.
I don't know, but I'm going to try to get that message to Dan and Phil except I don't have social media. If anyone has Twitter or Facebook please PLEASE give them this message! Danel Howell and Phil Lester, everyone!
they deleted their account.
i don't know what to say.
i was too late.
is there anything else we can do??????????????
Also CW that was a hecking GOOD pep talk
i think all we can do is get the message to Dan and Phil at this point.
No, it's only been a few minutes. That's the least of our concerns. We need to try and contact andrew (Our Supreme Lord and Overseer) –he might be able to send paramedics over to OP's house.
Please don't. Please. I'm begging you! Pm me! I've been there before and there are things worth living for!
That would only put more stress on Fern, trust me, I've been in her situation
shit I just saw this
is it possible to PM andrew (Our Supreme Lord and Overseer)??
I can email him in case of emergency.
Do you all want his emIl?
IS ANYONE TRYING TO GET THE MESSAGE TO DAN AND PHIL THROUGH TWITTER OR SOMETHING???
That would only put more stress on Fern, trust me, I've been in her situation
stress is better than being dead… what's her user? Do you know her?
