forum Can I get a hug?
Started by @ElderGod-Carrots
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@The-N-U-T-Cracker

My future was never bright anyway…

I remember saying that to myself… I may have mentioned many times that I'm actually happy with my life and not depressed, but it hasn't always been that way. I had a time in my life where I looked at myself like I was some worthless piece of junk, it was mostly regarding my artwork and my "lack of talent", but it eventually spread to other things, such as my appearance and personality. And then to pile more on top of it, my great grandma, AKA the one person who always cared about me, passed away. That hit me hard. So I went through all of 2017 and most of 2018 in this depressing thought that the one person who cared was gone and that I was a pointless, talentless, annoying human being, and I eventually just stopped drawing because everything I did made me hate myself even more. It was only these past few months when I started getting my life back together. Fast forward to today and now I realize that, while I may not be as great as the artists on YouTube, I'm doing better than I was before. And while I may not be the prettiest girl alive, I'm pretty in my own way. And while I'm definitely not the greatest human alive, there are people in this world who are happier because of me, including my great grandma. I'm a very happy person now, I started drawing again, I've been socializing more, and I've been a lot more religious (Those are all things that I enjoy, you don't actually need to socialize or doodle eyeballs on every piece of paper you own to be happy). So don't ever say that you're worthless, don't ever say that you have no talent, and don't ever say your future isn't bright. You have no idea what will come to you over time, and if you just die you'll be inflicting that sorrow on everyone you know. Think happy thoughts.

(sorry about any grammar/spelling errors, Grammarly isn't working right now for some reason and I'm too lazy to refresh the page)

@The-N-U-T-Cracker

Kinda reminds me of this one Doctor Who episode, I don't remember what it was called or much about it (Fellow Whovians, help me) but I do remember that there were these robots that spoke in emojis and killed anyone who was feeling grief, because they saw it as negative and thought it was best to put them out of their misery. Just one problem, by killing more people they put others into that grief, and it just kept spreading as they slowly killed anyone who wasn't smiling. Let's just imagine that in real life; if everyone who felt grief or loss committed suicide, they'd be putting more people into that same grief, pushing others to suicide until the whole population dies out. It may not seem like your life matters but it truly does.

@The-N-U-T-Cracker

I want everything to go back to how it was…
When I wasn’t like this.
Or maybe I don’t…
Maybe this is what I deserve…

Things will go back, you’ll be happy again, you have to make it through the hard times to get to the good

@ElderGod-Carrots

I dont care about my future. I’m not going to amount to anything anyway.
And the ones I love don’t care about me…
They gave up on me trying to get better so they’d get over it.