Kaito eventually nodded in response. While that was not what he had in mind for their conversation, he couldn't really deny anything, either. He didn't want to start an argument with Kokichi, and he was just looking out for him to begin with, so it was completely unnecessary. It just took him a moment to continue their conversation since he was tempted to deny it at first,
I know, I know, but why the sudden concern about it…?
‘I always have concern shooting star, I just don't show it’
Kaito sighed softly. The explanation made sense, although he never meant to concern Kokichi, even if it was a natural and understandable response to almost everything that was going on at the time. At times, he wondered why be was so concerned.
I get that, Kokichi, but this was out of nowhere. We were just saying that we love each other, and then the sudden concern? What's up?
‘sorry.. I shouldn't have said anything..’ he said, shutting his feelings down again
Kaito shook his head. He didn't mind that Kokichi was worried about him, but he did wonder why it was something that needed to be brought up at the time. As he thought about what to say, he honestly felt like he gave his boyfriend the desire to close himself off. He didn't want to see that happen. He wanted Kokichi to trust him, to be honest with him.
It's not an issue, love… I just wanted to know what's on your mind. If you're concerned about my health, I'll listen to you. I just want you to be honest with me…
‘you just seem stressed out.. You're not sleeping again, I could feel you toss and turn while we slept together..’
Kaito nodded in response, as he knew that he couldn't deny the fact that he hadn't been sleeping much at night, if at all, and whenever he did sleep, it wasn't for very long. Even though he still appeared to be rather energetic, he had been incredibly stressed out for the past little while, which made it difficult for him to sleep, which resulted in the current issues.
I know I haven't been sleeping… It's just difficult to… I'm trying to sleep, but it's difficult…
‘I know, it's why I never said anything but I'm getting worried.’
Kaito nodded in response again. He completely understood why Kokichi was worried about him by that point, as it was definitely concerning that he wasn't getting much sleep. A lot of it was simply due to all of the stress from recent events as well.
I know you are, but I'm not sure what to do about it, so I'm not sure how to make you less worried. I don't know how to prevent you from worrying more, either.
‘shooting star..’
Kaito sighed softly. Whatever was going to follow likely wouldn't be good, but he was going to listen to his lover to try to ease his concern. He didn't want to see the person that he loved so worried about him, so he wondered what he could do to fix that. He hoped that he could make the other happy.
Yeah? What's wrong? You can tell me. I'll listen, I promise.
‘your going pale..’
Kaito sighed softly as he thought about the response that Kokichi had given him. At first, he wanted to deny it, but he was aware that he was definitely getting pale. For a moment, he was confused about it, but then he remembered that all of the stress that he had been dealing with lately was probably making his condition worse. He just hoped that things wouldn't get much worse.
Okay…I'll admit, that is concerning, but maybe it won't get much worse? I hope it won't.
‘maybe isn't reassuring shooting star’
Kaito nodded in response to the statement. He knew that it wasn't reassuring, but when it came to his boyfriend, he didn't want to lie to him just to provide reassurance. That would only cause an argument, which would cause more stress and cause more issues. He didn't want that to happen.
I know it isn't, but I'm not gonna lie to you and say that things are guaranteed to be fine, either. I don't wanna argue…
‘I'm sorry..’
Kaito shook his head. There was no reason for Kokichi to be apologizing about the situation, or at least in his mind. All he was doing was expressing his concern, which was a normal thing to do, so there wasn't a need for him to be sorry about anything.
No need to be sorry, Kokichi… It's alright… Even if my current state could easily get better or worse, just knowing me, I'll get through whatever happens. I always have, but it's alright to be concerned. I'm worried, too…
‘promise’
Kaito nodded in response. When it came to the situation, he could at least promise that he could get through it eventually, as he always had in the past. If he hadn't, well, he wouldn't even be alive, so it was pretty obvious that he had gotten through everything before. He just hoped that things wouldn't get too serious.
I promise. I just hope that things don't get much worse than this…
‘okay love, let's get laid down though’
Kaito nodded in response before laying Kokichi down on the bed. After a moment, he laid next to him and wrapped his arms around him. Even though he wasn't sure if he was going to sleep that night, he could at least try to sleep and cuddle with his boyfriend.
Kokichi yawned and pushed his back to Kaito's chest, laying his arm on top of the others
Kaito held Kokichi close to him, smiling softly at him. While he wasn't sure about what would happen to him, he was at least happy to hold his lover close to him. Hopefully they would both end up sleeping that night, too. They could both use it.
‘I love you’
Kaito continued to give Kokichi a small smile as he held him close. Knowing that the other loved him was a nice thought, and it helped prevent him from worrying too much about everything going on. It was a very comforting thought, that was for sure.
I love you, too. Now, please, get some sleep. I'll try to sleep, too.