Looks like you've got some explaining to do once you get here… I mean, it makes sense that it would be cancer, but he never even told me…! Just…explain when you get here…! I can't handle this right now…!
His message conveyed his worried and frantic tone well. He was close to panicking the more that he thought about everything that could happen. Shuichi was dying, he was possibly dying, too, and it was all becoming too much. All he wanted to do was live a happy life with his boyfriend, free of the worries that came with his condition, but now there was even more to worry about.
Rantaro rushed to get to the hospital i
Once Kaito saw Rantaro, he rushed over to him. "Okay, explain!" he requested. His tone was almost pleading. "Just tell me what's been going on with my lover! Why'd he hide this from me? He knew about my condition and lied about his? Why? I'd be able to handle it! Now he's dying and I feel like it's my fault because I didn't do anything sooner!"
“He didn't tell you because he was supposed to die at five. Not eighteen..” he said softly “shuichi has a rare blood cancer “
"I…?! I, um, just…" Kaito stammered. He didn't know how to process all of that. "You know what…?! I…I dunno… He's dying, I'm probably dying, and it's all fucking over I guess…! I thought we could have a happy life together, but nope, it's all fucking over…! Just let me see him…! If he's dying, I need to be with him…!"
“Kaito, make it happy while you are with him..” rantaro mumbled,
Shuichi was hooked up to a bunch of machines. A breathing tube down his throat
"I already planned on it! Just come with me! I figured that he'd want to see you one last time, too!" Kaito exclaimed as he rushed to Shuichi's room. His heart sank when he saw his boyfriend's condition, but he quickly went to the other's side and held his hand. "Hey, hey, I'm here now! You're gonna be alright somehow! I promise! I love you! I always will!"
Shuichi squeezed kaitos hand gently
Kaito held Shuichi's hand and gave him a reassuring smile. He had to make these moments happy, although he was finding it difficult. From the concern about his lover to his own issues, he wasn't sure how long he could remain happy. As he started to feel a bit of chest pain, he knew that his own condition was going to act up again, but he kept a smile through it all. Despite how he felt, he had to smile. He had to make his final moments with Shuichi happy ones. If one of them were to die that day, then things needed to end on a happy note. Kaito didn't care. Nothing would stop him from smiling.
Shuichi's heart monitor dropped, flatlining quickly
"Shu…!" Kaito exclaimed before sighing softly. Now wasn't the time to get upset. Maybe he could be saved? "Just…hang in there. You'll be alright, promise! I love you so much,shining star…"
Rantaro watched with caught breath before he rushed out to grab a nurse “help!”
Once it was clear what was going on, Kaito and Rantaro were taken out of the room. Shuichi was likely going to die, but there was still a small chance that he'd survive. Kaito held onto that possibility as he looked at Rantaro, waiting for an update.
"Maybe…maybe we'll die together…" he admitted. It was out of nowhere, but he was thinking that he may die that day.
“Kaito!”
Rantsro yelped “don't think like that!”
Kaito sighed softly. That was a strange comment coming from him, especially in that context. Rantaro knew that he had been fine for a while, so it was sudden for him to suggest that he would die that day. Adding in the possibility that Shuichi would die as well turned it into something almost completely out of character for him. He knew that, so he had to do something.
"Sorry, the stress got to me for a moment," he explained before giving Rantaro an optimistic grin. In a matter of seconds, his optimism returned. "He'll be alright! And sorry if you questioned what I said. I'm fine, too, don't worry!"
“No sunshine your not, and I'm here..” he said before taking kaito in his arms
Kaito seemed to be a bit surprised when Rantaro took him in his arms. "I…am fine, though? Shuichi's gonna be fine, so I'm fine, too!"
“No.. No your not..” rantaro on the other hand wasn't either.. The feelings for kaito he hid for years begged to burst out as he said the other falling apart
"Huh? Why are you so convinced that I'm not…?" Kaito asked him softly. He was aware of his own issues, but nothing was seriously wrong at the time, so he was sure that he was fine. "Rantaro, really, I'm fine… And what? Are you okay…?"
“I'm fine, I can just tell you're close to breaking down”
"No, no, your expression is showing a lot of concern, so I'm worried about you…" Kaito sighed softly. "And no, I'm alright…"
Rantaro sighed, “ I'm just worried for you.” he said, I mean, he wasn't lying
Kaito nodded. He understood that the other was worried about him, but he wished that he wasn't. There was nothing majorly wrong with him at the time. He was a bit of a mess mentally and physically, but he had been worse in the past. He didn't want anyone to be concerned about him. In his own mind, he was fine.
"I know, but I'm fine, I promise," he attempted to assure him. "Why are you still insisting that something's wrong?"
Kaito shook his head. He hadn't even noticed that he was shaking. "I'm not…?"
