forum To Love You, is to Go Through Heartbreak, But I Still Love You Anyways (Closed with Fenrir) (1/1) (MxM)

Started April 13, 2023 by @RhysTheFirebird group

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(Hope it was worth the wait)

Dustin huffs a soft laugh and shakes his head, closing his eyes for a long moment, "Well. . . and snuggles. I like touching." He casts a side smile towards Jas. This was true. Dustin was used to and raised to show affection with touches. His parents, who were high school sweethearts, had always spent their free time with each other cuddled together on the couch watching movies and eating popcorn. When Dustin had been born,he was added to that snuggle pile. His father would always ruffle his hair and his mother would shower him with kisses every morning while saying something like 'I love you so much, my baby boy!' It was embarrassing when she did it around his friends.

Meanwhile, his uncles on his dad's side would always play rough. Dustin could remember them rough housing with each other, and when Dustin was old enough, they let him join the fun. But his parents always put a stop to it before he got hurt. Eventually his uncles started to greet him with slaps on the back and playful shoves. He smiled slightly at the fond memories.

He blinks when Jas speaks again and then chuckles, rubbing the back of his neck, "It's nothing. Seriously. What is life without a few thrills anyways?"

Dustin blushes and thinks for a long moment, "My Little Guardian. Or, Guardian for short. I read somewhere the name Jasper means guardian of treasure or bearer of treasure or something." He smiles and then looks away, "Maybe, at some point I was doing a little research about you."

Dustin could feel his cheeks turning red and he covers his face with his hand. He then looks at Jasper's phone and smiles, "Maybe. . ." He grins, "Maybe its not, you'll never know."

(always worth the wait also awe this is so cute!)
Jas arched an eyebrow, deciding not to immediate blurt out the response that came to mind and instead decided to mull over his reaction. While Jas himself had never been a touchy person, neither liking to touch other people or to be touched by others, he could understand where Dustin was coming from. On the rare occasion he would allow for someone close to him touch him, whether that was a hug or hand holding, he had always found the experience pleasant. He had never really had a partner so most of the interactions came from family and friends. For a hug or something more personal to come from a partner wasn't soemthing he had ever considered as something that would be any sort of struggle for him to work through but it wasn't something he was necessarily apposed to either. He could easily picture them curled up in a chair Dustin in his lap or just the two of them holding hands as they took an evening stroll. it was a warm thought, butterflies and fuzzy feelings swirls within Jas. He glanced up and laughed as Dustin smiled at him, more out f being on the recieving end of the teasing and the sudden flustered-ness and his own ideas than anything else.
"you're not wrong. Life needs a bit of spice in it for it to be worth living." He agreed watching Dustin for a long moment before slowly reaching over and gently taking his hand, intertwining their fingers together.
If it was even possible, Jas blush even more. "Guardian?" He squeaked out, eyes widening even more when Dustin mentioned doing some research. "you have no idea how much I love that, Bun." He admitted, "So does that mean you're my treasure?" He asked with a smirk of his own, rolling his eyes playfully and adding more hearts, this time using any color he could find in the menu. "There, I don't think the character limit will let me add any more."

(Sorry, sorry, sorry-)

Dustin smiles when he feels Jasper take his hand. He took the physical contact as a reassurance, even if that might not be what it really meant. He looks at Jasper for a moment and then down to their hands before looking at Jaspers phone. “I know I’m not wrong. When am I ever wrong?” He chuckles softly, clearly joking. He wasn’t the most confident person in himself, but he was sure he was at least confident enough in himself.

“I mean, I can totally see someone wanting to live a bland life and not have anything exiting happen to them. Letting the exciting things happen usually means opening yourself up for pain.”

Dustin laughs softly, rubbing the back of his neck with his free hand. “It was just something to pass the time. I’m sure everyone does something weird when they’ve been crushing on someone, right?” He stares at Jasper’s phone screen, not wanting to look at his face for the moment.

He lets out a heavy, forlorn sigh, “I supoooosseee it’ll have to be good enough.” He teases.

(No worries!)
For a dreadful moment Jas was worried he had gone too far and overstepped. Dustin had admitted to liking physical contact but not specifically from Jas. Besides this was the first time they had talked in years, what made him think this sort of interaction was ok, even if they were now…dating? was that what this was? Were they official? Jas did have Dustin's number in his phone and was holding his hand and now feeling something towards the boy beside him….more than something but Jas didn't want to say it out loud just yet. He huffed a soft laugh and distractingly rubbed his thumb back and forth along Dustin's hand.
"really? you can? Seems like a pretty sad existence without some excitement and happiness in your life." He mused, his smirk growing. "I'm lucky then that you came into my life, no matter how rocky at first." He decided, gently squeezing their linked hands together.
Jas arched an eyebrow and leaned in close when Dustin shied away. "just to pass the time? Is that right?" Jas was loving this far too much, loving his effect on Dustin way too much. THe way the other blushed and grew increasingly flustered would be something Jas adored from here on out. Eventually he eased away far enough to give Dustin space to breath but still kept stroking his hand as a silent reminder that he was still there.
"I'll find a way to give you more hearts, don't worry, Bunny. This isn't all." He reassured with a wink, already devising a plan for their date and future dates.

Dustin smiles at the movement of Jas’ thumb on the back of his hand, enjoying the sensation. “Me? Oh, no, I could never live a plain life. I have to have something exciting happening. Whether it’s a huge party or someone dying. . . Though I don’t think the latter is very exciting. But I think you know what I mean. A better word would be *interesting. But someone dying isn’t always interesting, like if it’s your grandmother.” Dustin was rambling and he guessed he should probably shut the hel up before he said something offensive. He closed his mouth with a soft snapping sound, a sheepish look on his face.

Dustin smiles slightly, squeezing Jas’ hand back. “Yeah. . . Though. . . Maybe less so for me.” He jokes softly, flashing a quick grin.

Dustin’s face, if possible, went even more red, and his stuttering came out in full force, “W-Well. . . M-maybe it was-was a little mor-more than just to pass-pass the t-time. . .”

Dustin laughs softly, smiling at Jas through his red face.

Jas tipped his head in slight concern "I guess it can be interesting. definitely soemthing very different to the normal." He laughed softly, deciding to go along with the rambling and nodding in agrement. "Excitement all the time is well, exciting. But you don't like the days where you can relax and let your mind wander, not needing to worry about whats next or what happened before? Just living in the moment?" He asked, glancing up at the sky with a whistful smile. He glanced over at dustin, his smile faltering for a moment as a pang of guilt hit him. "I'm sorry. if I contributed to that regret. I…theres no excuse really, but I am sorry, Dustin." He looked away for a moment in shame, his hand loosening just a bit before Dustin squeezed back. He wasn't sure what was silently going on between them now, whether this was a test to see who would let go first or if this was really about reassuring each other, no matter how much they tried to deny they desperately needed that reassurancein the first place. But Jas had to admit it was nice, having someone he cared for this deeply, or at least the potential to love this deeply, and seemingly having someone care about him in the same way. It was noce not feeling like he needed to let go for once.
He looked up, his smile returning when Dustin began to adorably stutter. "oh? doing some research on your crush is more than a pass time, eh? Are your crushes usually a facination of yours?" he asked sweetly, toying with Dustin's hand and pressing a kiss to his fingertips. "Or am I really just that irresistable?" he teased, blushing slightly when he saw jsut how happy Dustin was.