forum Running Scared

Started July 03, 2020 by @Star_Girls_puppers_was_attacked

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"Oh surely you can't wish that," Quincy said softly. She was trying to comfort the young girl though maybe not taking the best approach to it.

" I hate this I hate vampires I hate anything supernatural I wanted to have kids and die now I won't get that" she said

"You can still do both of those things," Quincy told her gently, "The death part may take a bit longer and be a little bit more painful, but nothing worse than what you were going to die from two days ago."

" I'm here how am I going to have kids and no disrespectful I don't want your brother to be the father of my children" she said

"None taken," Quincy responded calmly, "I know James can be a bit of an… Arse at times and generally uncaring towards, well, anyone."

" so you see I can't have any children" she said closing her bedroom door

"I never said that, I only said that my brother can be a horrible person," Quincy told her, "Our parents were horrible people too, but that didn't make me or James horrible people. It influenced our actions, yes, but it was his actions that made him horrible. Just like my actions make me not a horrible person."

" I can't be married to someone and give birth to someone else's kids I'm not that kind of person" she said sadly

"I know, and I understand," Quincy said before sighing, "What I'm trying to say is that there are ways you can have kids, with my brother, and probably have everything turn out fine. Lord that felt strange to say."

" yeah trust me if I could kill myself I would" she said laying back on her bed with a sigh

"I would hope you wouldn't, you seem like a lovely girl Rebecca," Quincy told her sitting down on the bed next to Becca.

" i had friends and I used to have a family now I've got nothing" she said

"I'm sorry about everything you've lost," Quincy said softly, "But I can be your friend if you want."

She looked at her with sad tear filled eyes " really?!" She asked

"Yes, really," Quincy told her smiling softly.

She smiled softly " uh what did you come here for?" She asked hoping she didn't sound rude

"To see how you were doing," Quincy told her honestly, "I figured finding out about, that, you would need someone with emotional intelligence to talk to."

" I don't want to be a vampire and Im not going to feed on blood" she pointed out

"You'll have to eventually, but for now, you can eat your human food," Quincy told her carefully, "I regret having to turn you, but it was that or let you die."

" I'm going to die anyway because I'm not feeding on blood" she said closing her eyes " and Even if I do I'm going to live like a normal person I'm not going to use my speed it anything" she said

"I'll tell you right now it's hard," Quincy said softly. She was speaking from experience that came from a much younger, much more rebellious, "Deny your body the very thing it needs and your instincts will take over causing you to do horrible, horrible things. The same goes for your powers if you don't use them they become harder to control. You still have weeks until you'll begin to truly turn, but once you do you need to learn control and acceptance."

"No I'll never do that I want to die I refuse to be this gosh I wish you would've let me die do you understand what you've taken from me?" She asked " I was ready for it I wanted it more than anything I wanted to be free now I have to live an eternity with guilt I have to live knowing what I've done" she said

"You've done nothing wrong Rebecca," Quincy told her once more, "And you shouldn't want to die. Is there something we need to talk about?"

" no just some things I'd like to keep to myself" she said with sigh

"Of course, we all have those," Quincy replied quietly.