I'm in the mood for another apocalypse roleplay... (CLOSED for now, welcome to stalk)

Name/any nicknames: Beckett Randall, usually goes by Beck
Age: Late 18/early 19
Gender/pronouns: Male, he/him
Sexuality: Asexual
Personality: Beck is pretty closed off, usually focusing on talking about any subject besides himself. Not a big fan of small talk, he enjoys discussing things that matter. He tends to get a bit existential over things that most don't as well. Spends a lot of time alone. Struggles with feeling that he's both wise beyond his years yet also fully unprepared for adult life. He feels things very deeply, and therefore decides to try to feel nothing at all. Generally has a sense of unease to him, even when he's around people he trusts, an almost palpable tenseness. He tends to feel very lost, and that he doesn't have a path in life. He really doesn't know what to do. He's actually got a pretty decent sense of humor and cracks jokes a lot, but they always have a sense of unease to them as well, or are very esoteric literary references. God-awful at carrying on relationships. He's dealing with a lot of grief and trauma and suppresses it as to avoid confronting it head-on. Surprisingly good with kids; he understands what it's like to be talked down to and treated like you're just a dumb kid and so he tries not to do that to others. Very touch-adverse and a bit jumpy.
Appearance: Olive-tan skin with freckles. Average height and weight with a slender build, not much muscle mass. Dark brown eyes with long lashes. Dark brown hair, thick and wavy and usually poking out from under his battered grey hat, which he's rarely seen without. Often has a contemplative expression.
Background (doesn't have to be super in-depth): Born and raised in [wherever this takes place], Beckett and his younger sister Cora had a fairly normal life. Their mother died when Cora was only six, and so Beckett more or less helped to raise her. They're pretty close for siblings, and have always been. Beckett in particular feels as though his father failed the two of them by becoming more distant after their mother's death. His sister Cora died in [whatever apocalypse we go with], as did a lot of his family.
Outfits: Battered shoes, blue jeans, and a grey t-shirt, plus a red hoodie and one of those fleecy jean jackets. He also usually wears a grey knit hat.
Hobbies/talents: Used to play the drums and the guitar (not very well), reads a lot, going for walks and such in nature
Weaknesses: Very anti-authority to a point where it can endanger him, jumpy, a bit paranoid. While not reckless, he doesn't always consider the followthrough of his actions, especially when it comes to
Gear/weapons: A backpack with a first aid kit, extra clothes, rations and such, etc. (like those backpacks that us Midwestern people keep in case there's a tornado); a knife.
Open to shipping?: Nah
Other: He's travelling with his cousin Eloise. I'm not great with writing kids so uh…we'll see how that goes lol

Also there's an aspect of his backstory that would require a trigger warning but it doesn't need to be brought up directly in the roleplay if people are uncomfortable with it.

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