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I need to scream
I need to get it out.
Out
Out
Out
I'll fucking cut it out
I'll claw it out of my own fuckibg chest.
I'll rip out my still beathing heart
Even then it won't be enough.
I need to scream
I need to get it out.
Out
Out
Out
I'll fucking cut it out
I'll claw it out of my own fuckibg chest.
I'll rip out my still beathing heart
Even then it won't be enough.
I want to scream at him
I want to yell
I want to hurt him
I need to hurt him
I need him to feel
How I do.
I want to tell him how I feel
"I love you"
"I hate you"
"I hope your happy"
"I hope he fucking breaks your heart"
Knowing God Damm well I only half mean it
But I don't.
I Silently stew
Bottling up resentment
And rage
Just incase
He loves me too.
Cus I know the second
He comes back
I'll welcome him
With open arms.
I have a friend
One who means so much to me, and everyone they talk to
They may not see it but they've helped so many people
Without them, I don't know what I'd do
I have a friend
who never fails to bring a smile to my face
They know just how to make me laugh
And here is where they have a place
I have a friend
Who will never know the good they have done
Who has given me so many memories without seeing each other
And its sad. Because they don't know they are enough
//TW// sh mention\
I want to go back
I want to go back
To a time
A place
Where he held me
As i sobbed into him
I want to go back
To a time
Where he let me
Run my fingers
Along the rough skin along
His forearm
I want to go back
To a time
When he was as broken
As me
Where we cried to each other
Thinking that the other understood
Perfectly
I want to go back
To a time
That doesn't exist.
A time dreamed up
By my sick brain
Longing for the real thing.
//tw// sa, rape, gore\\
I feel my chest
Fall and rise
Fall and rise
Like some sick
Heartbeat
Nobody can know
I wont tell
But will you?
Dear reader
Will you?
Tell of the atrocity
Befallen my family
The horrors
Happen to my sister
Will you tell them?
Or shall you hide?
Shall you hide my notebook
And like me
Hide aswell?
Or shall you be brave
And regale the world
The tail of on sick
Sick man
On a wretched sunday?
Dear reader.
You need not continue to read
I understand, however
If your curiosity is too great
For the story is horrid
And i feel sorry for my poor sister
I do.
But i cannot keep it contained
I must write
Alone on the island
Where nobody can hear me.
Crouched in a dark corner
Lit by candlelight
Alone
Alone and so quiet
Hear me regale
This atrocity
To my dear sister
Hear how her life is ruined!
Hear how he is free!
Hear the rage of a girl.
A girl who could have stopped it
But she didnt know how.
When i heard the wet sounds
I didnt know what they were
I was too small
I was too young to understand
So for years and years
I listened to the wet sucking sound
As it grew
It grew into thuds
And it grew into yelling
And pounding
Yes my dear reader!
I heard the moans
I heard the “No!”s
I heard them all
But i never thought.
Not to her.
Shes so strong
Not from him
The pastors so pure
Only acting on gods will
I was wrong!
I was wrong.
One night i come into the story
Yes dear reader,
I got involved.
One night he comes into my room
As i sleep.
He was staying with us
A neighbor with a house ruined in the fire
And how were we to say no
to the poor reverend.
He did horrible things to me that night
That night
I couldnt yell
I tried so hard to fight
Through the chains
But my sister.
She was awake in the next room.
She knew better.
She wouldnt sleep in a house with him.
She heard his voice
Telling me all these things
About my brain
About my body.
She heard him.
And she waited.
She waited till his sleeping body
Laid next to mine.
She waited till he was done with me
She waited till I closed my eyes
She waited till i stopped crying.
She waited till she thought i was asleep
My dear reader.
My sister is an angel.
She knew with all id been through
I neednt see what happened next
She dragged his heavy body out back
Behind my window.
You see
My dear reader
My father is a carpenter
So we had all kinds of tools in the shed
Where he cut wood in half.
So my sister visteted the shead.
And got an axe.
And my sister
My sweet strong sister
Swong the axe down the middle of his skull.
Twack, twack, twack
Mimicking the sounds i heard
Coming from his office when
She had “private lessons of prayer”
God.
My dear reader.
It was beautiful.
The blood blossoming from his skull.
His brains looked like flowers.
She demanded i never tell a soul
So i didnt.
I’m good at not telling anybody
What i see.
Or hear.
(i was feeling edgar allen poe core!!)
(I'm going to make up a poem on the spot for you guys. It'll be a bit but it'll happen.)
(And yes, it will likely make no real sense at all.)
(Also, none of your guy's poems are shit. Trust me, it's better than what most could do with considerable effort.)
Possible TW? Some may find it troubling if they understand what it means in all aspects at least.
Scarlet lights,
A desperate fight
To cling to a vestige of love,
As it flies away on the wings of a dove
Stained black;
Please take it back,
I have found a lack
Of warmth,
Of light,
Of my final wish to rise.
Yet once upon a time,
Sometimes,
I found a burning want,
For a single hunt
Of what made me live;
Yet found no sliver,
No recourse,
No sign of remorse
That which makes a person
Truly human.
In the end,
No bend,
No breaks,
No high stakes;
Just a shattered hollow,
Left to wallow
And to rot,
In her own want,
In her own sinking boat,
Which was sunk for her long ago.
(omfg the talent here- dies)
(Also, none of your guy's poems are shit. Trust me, it's better than what most could do with considerable effort.)
(the main reason this is for shitty poets is cus my stuff is like all so I'm 14 and this is deep.)
(Eh. . . personally, you all have done a much better job than that. It's just basically a ramble from the top of my head.)
(Also, none of your guy's poems are shit. Trust me, it's better than what most could do with considerable effort.)
(the main reason this is for shitty poets is cus my stuff is like all so I'm 14 and this is deep.)
(True enough, but even monkeys can throw rocks instead of shit sometimes, you know? Basically, even an animal has a degree of intelligence to learn and adapt, and so too do 14 year old poets.)
(Also, none of your guy's poems are shit. Trust me, it's better than what most could do with considerable effort.)
(the main reason this is for shitty poets is cus my stuff is like all so I'm 14 and this is deep.)
(True enough, but even monkeys can throw rocks instead of shit sometimes, you know? Basically, even an animal has a degree of intelligence to learn and adapt, and so too do 14 year old poets.)
(I'm almost 15 :3!!! )
(Well see? You're already getting there friend.)
(Yea in a little over a month :3. mainly my poems are bursts of energy)
(That's very fair. Honestly if you ever want inspiration, you can talk to me. If for any reason you find poem writing energy with no topic to write a poem about.)
(okies)
//tw//sh//
The feelings are bubbling up again
Rage and hate
Seeping through my skin
Shove them down
Down
Down
Down
Down.
Then see him
Or hear him
And it all comes bubbling back up
Into my gut
Into my throat
Into my head
And because pushing didn't work.
I expell it other ways.
Vomit.
And blood.
Both thick with rage.
Temporary relief
Only for it to come flooding back
Pressing up against my skin
Straining to get out
Buzzing in my blood
Fueling my words
Driving my actions
It wants out
It wants out
It wants out
It wants out.
I want out.
(Surprisingly no trigger warnings for this one!)
I know now.
What I want.
From her.
I know I hurt her
I know I was horrible
I know
I know.
But I said sorry
I said sorry again
And again.
I apologized
After every argument
After every fight.
She never did
And I think
I'll be able to let go
If she says it too.
Im sorry
I think im really in love with her
When she sings I look at her
Like she's the only thing in the world
My perfect beautiful girl
When she sings I stop to listen
The melody and harmony like candy
The sweetest thing I'll ever hear
All because it came from her.
I wait in the mornings
For her sweet greetings
Because before then I'm asleep
And when she says hi I'm wide awake
The only bad thing about her
Is that she dosent love me too
And I know she won't
Because she's not gay
But it dosent hurt to hope
that maybe one day
SHITTY SONNET FOR CLASS YAY
The love of girls is something I’ll always crave
With pretty hair and sweet smells
sappho said it first I'm not to blame
Nice and kind with voices like bells
the love i feel for women i do not hide
To me they are not simply women
In the beauty of their form i confide
But beings of beauty to adore sing and revel
however I know they’d never look my way
Like a moth drawn to flame
Most girls I know aren’t even gay
the girls I praise don't even know my name
And yet I love them so intensely
To all girls, I love you immensely
Death I guess. Suicide idealization
I'm tired.
Im tired of being angry.
Im tired of feeling the rage bubble up
Beneath My skin
In my heart
I'm tired of being sick.
Of coughing
Of crying
Of wishing for things ill never have
I'm tired of being sad.
Crying untill my eyes hurt
Not wanting to do anything
Just wanting to lie there and die
I'm tired of being in love.
knowing they'll never love me too
Knowing it's a waist of energy
Because it's never real
I'm tired of living
And feeling
And wanting to stick a knife in my chest
Wanting to look on the outside how I feel
I'm so tired of it all.
Fucking shit
I thought I got through it
But it's back
And eating me up
Apathy, hate.
Wanting him back…
Missing having somone who knew me
My body
My mind.
Me.
But fuck.
I'll never get that back
I'll never get anything back.
I never do.
The summertime air
Reminds me of her
The gentle chill of the night
And the smell of damp grass
Make me think
Of a better time
With a sweet girl
I no longer talk to
Her name is still sweet on my tounge
Even if I never use it to talk to her
Because, during a dark time
I had my sweet Valorie
Idk what this is. It's a poem coming from that place in your brain that exists only in the black between night and day.
Truth, truth
I wish I saw
Why others might deign to stand in awe
Of a higher power they never saw
Power, power
I wish I knew
Why are others like me and you
Looking at these concepts, not so new
Strength, strength
It is a true shame
Nobody is spared the flame
Eternal hell, our true aim
Silence, silence
Toll the bell
Buried deep 'neath the well
An innocent yet very true hell
Coward, coward
Who are we
Always in need
Never freed
Terror, terror
You don't exist
You were only ever on the list
Of people who dared shake their fist
Fade, fade
Your last breath
An unremembered unmarked death
Eternal silence, final rest
Little guy, you’re finally here, I was scared you’d be taken from me.
You’re bristly and I can’t hold you and you won’t even eat from my hand, but I’m still your friend.
You don’t have a name, not a thought passes through your head, but you’re my little guy.
Your blood may run cold, and your scales are sharp. You may be odd and you cage, covered by a tarp, but I’ll spend every second and every penny to see that you’re happy, my little guy.
Love sick
I feel like I'm gonna vomit
The butterflies flapping around in my stomach
Fighting to get out
For me to say how I really feel
When I look at her
And can't help but smile
When I hear her
and can't help but sing along
When I want any excuse to hold her
And cherish her
And love her
And not want to die
Because she's beautiful
And kind
And wonderful
And when we fight like friends do
I can't help but giggle
And flirt a little too
Because I love her
The kind of love that makes me sick
For you.
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