
@Tired-but-passionate
The claws around her hips seemed to loosen, if only for a moment. At first, Jimin did not answer. After a moment or two, her eyes flickered open again as she registered her lover’s question.
“Hm?” Then, like a crashing wave, a million thoughts flooded her mind. She felt her brow knot together with anxiety. When she got back to her quarters, she would need to take care of some things. Not only that, the prospect of retiring for the night reminded her that tomorrow would come after. She would face the queen again. Her mind scrambled until she remembered that she would tell Her Majesty that Kangdae did not know where the journals were, but what else would she say?
Their conversation from this morning came back to her. All that Jimin had promised, all the lies she had told. Rather impulsively, she took Kangdae’s hand that rubbed against her head. Once again, the question rose up in her. How long could she keep this up? How long until they were discovered? Her breathing turned shaky as she remembered the footsteps from earlier. How fragile must they be? She was made of glass. If she shattered, even his strong marble will crumble.
Tears stung her eyes. She was tired, she reminded herself. It is not good to think like this at this hour. Taking Kangdae’s hand and squeezing it a little, she placed it over her chest. Gradually, her breathing relaxed. She would figure it out. She would take care of things.
“Yes,” she whispered. “You may carry me back.” Her voice cracked a little, but she tried to lighten herself up by continuing, “And let’s not forget my binyeo this time.”