Day 11
" What do you see yourself doing in 10 years? "
no don't do this to me I'm so bad at imagining the future
I hope I'll be a happy writer with a dog on my lap writing another book and I'll have enough money to buy what I would consider useful. that's it. I don't have high expectations.
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Day 11
" What do you see yourself doing in 10 years? "
I dont know honestly, hopefully doing something I enjoy, and being with people that love me for who I am, I want to have some fun though, due to my parents taking away that chance, everytime they can. So I hope I go to some parties and stuff, so yeah theres that.
Day 12
" If you had to choose one beautiful thing about life what would it be? "
Day 12
" If you had to choose one beautiful thing about life what would it be? "
seeing the weather change. from a cloudless night to a hazy evening. from rain to sun and then to snow. watching the outlines of clouds moving slowly on the gray sky. dense mists, strong winds, the hot sun. I admire the weather. its indifference toward humans. it rules by its own laws, and doesn't care if it destroys something. it lives only for itself. the weather will always be beautiful, even if sometimes dangerous and deadly.
Day 12
" If you had to choose one beautiful thing about life what would it be? "
I would say watching people change, watching a child laugh or someone rid of their old ways, its a great process to watch, it can be a long process, but a magic one.
Day 13
" What's something you could do forever and never get bored of it? "
Day 13
" What's something you could do forever and never get bored of it? "
hugging with my dog. he's so fluffy and soft and warm and I could spend the rest of my life with him. and if I could do it forever I think that the time would stop and we would stay like this for eternity and neither of us would die. that would be perfect.
Day 13
" What's something you could do forever and never get bored of it? "
I think I would say, imagine, either myself in a show/movie/fandom ,scenery from a book or my own worlds, I love imagining anything I can.
Day 14
" If you could visit the past or the future where would you want to go? "
Day 14
" If you could visit the past or the future where would you want to go? "
I honestly don't know. I have no intent to relive my old cringey memories, and I don't want to see the future before it comes - if I knew what unpleasant things will come, I'd live the rest of my life in fear. but if I could go back in time just for a day or two, and then wake up here, in the present, I'd like to return to one memorable summer, and sing once more.
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Day 14
" If you could visit the past or the future where would you want to go? "
I would visit the future. That is, assuming the future is merely a reflection of current trajectory and not some inescapable fate.
The past was kinda sucky. I haven't always been a good person, or a happy person. Some of my experiences growing up have damaged me. But they have brought me to where I am today, and I'm pretty happy with that now.
I would also like to know what the future looks like if I continue my current path. Do I need to change something? Where do I risk going wrong?
Day 14
" If you could visit the past or the future where would you want to go? "
I think I would visit the future, to see how my life is once I've moved out, to answer all the questions I have such as
am I happy? can I finally be myself? and what not, I think it would be wonderful to see myself thrive as a person once im out of my household.
Day 12 " If you had to choose one beautiful thing about life what would it be? "
Nontoxic fandoms where fandom piblings (gender-neutral form of aunts and uncles, compare 'nibling' for niece or nephew—although now I'm thinking "aunticle" or "untcle" is more sonorous) challenge and encourage new fanfiction writers to focus on writing something positive rather than least-favorite-character-bashing, and bringing peace and (more importantly) respect between fans engaged in shipper wars…which actually doesn't correct as much injustice in the world as it usually feels like. And there's respect for different approaches and headcanons of fictional characters without taking somebody else's relationship to something in a fictional work as a personal offense or personal threat.
Day 13 " What's something you could do forever and never get bored of it? "
Eternity is a long time and I get distressed when I'm bored (even when I can find routines very comforting), so probably nothing. Maybe the time between getting out of a swimming pool and eating a frozen chocolate pudding bar while wrapped in a towel…but, then my anxiety made me think a shark was in the pool even when I knew there wasn't and I still wanted to swim and enjoyed swimming. But before that kicked in and ruined my enjoying life in a way nobody could really do anything about, it's a fond childhood memory I have.
Day 14 " If you could visit the past or the future where would you want to go? "
I'd set up a new home base in the 1990s between the end of the Cold War and the start of the Afghanistan Wars, because that's a generally happy time, and from there probably travel to prehistoric societies all over the world. I'll do my best not to violate the temporal equivalent of the Prime Directive while I do.
As for the future beyond 2021, I don't know enough about that to mark anything over there as a must-see.
Day 15
" What is something you wish you could experience? "
Day 15
" What is something you wish you could experience? "
most definitely pride. My parents are homophobic and think being queer is a trend nowadays, though me being out to them brings me homophobic jokes, making fun of me for being masculine (little do they know i'm also genderfluid >:) hehe) and just overall personal attacks related to my queer identity.
I had/have always seen pictures taken at big pride events, and everyone looks like they're genuinely enjoying themselves, and I just really want to know what that feels like, to be with people like you, who accept you, and love you for who you are, even though you're a complete stranger. Its just something I crave to do once in my life.
Day 15
" What is something you wish you could experience? "
Requited love. Not to say I'm a sad sap because no one loves me back (I prefer it that way, mostly). I just kind of wonder what it'd be like to have someone love me romantically, and for me to love them the same way.
“What color would you describe yourself as, and why?”
Hmm I’d say periwinkle, it has just the right amount of blue and just the right amount of purple to describe the way I’ve been feeling lately. I can’t really explain why, but I think it’s due to having conflicting emotions.
Day 16
“ If you could restart your life, would you? And if so, why? “
Day 16
“ If you could restart your life, would you? And if so, why? “
I think I'm happy with what I have today. I've turned the corner, I have an ambitious goal and a rather stable life. no need to restart it. maybe if I was older, I could try to live once again, choose different paths. but now I'm not in a hurry.
Day 16
“ If you could restart your life, would you? And if so, why? “
Absolutely not.
With my life circumstances, it's almost certain there's at least a few possible timelines where I grow up to be a horrible person. I already spent the first 3/4 or more of my life being someone that I absolutely despise now, and if I reworked everything, that change of heart may never come.
Day 17
“ Do you think crying is a sense of strength or weakness? “
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//TW
I’ll go ahead and answer this one. For me, I feel like it’s a sense of weakness. If I see someone else crying though, I won’t automatically think, “yikes, they’re so sensitive” because it happens.
In my case though, I feel weak and insignificant and powerless because the times that I have cried, it’s always been because I was being abused. So I can’t really associate crying with anything other than being weak. I was made to feel that way by the person who hurt me and as much as I want to say that I’ve been working on it, I just haven’t. I’m a bitter person who resents the people that did the things they did. I don’t forgive and I don’t forget. It’s one of my major flaws, I know this.
Day 17
“ Do you think crying is a sense of strength or weakness? “
man if someone could easily cry in public without shame or anything that'd be some of the bravest thing I'd ever see. I wouldn't mess with that person. they're too powerful.
Day 17
“ Do you think crying is a sense of strength or weakness? “
Neither. Crying just is.
I'm not brave for breaking down in public, or "making myself vulnerable" to others. Sometimes I can't help it. But it doesn't make me weak either.
On the other hand, I don't think much of people who rarely cry. They're not strong for holding it back. But they're not weak for not allowing themselves to confront emotions that might make them cry.
Crying is a physiological response to environmental stimuli at its core. And some people just happen to cry more than others.
Day 18
“ What’s one moment you want to relive? “