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Started May 29, 2019 by Deleted user

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Lucas planned on staying in his room for quite some time to cool off. He was still shaking uncontrollably from the fight, and he kept his face hidden. He hated confrontation, but it had been happening a lot more lately.

After being unable to get into what she was practicing, Carter started to go over her many notes on her performance that she had written herself.

Should I go and apologize? No, I meant everything I said, and she needed to hear it… Lucas turned the volume up again. Maybe I'll apologize later for my tone, but not for what I said.

Carter was unable to get into the zone again, so she resorted to going over the travel and rehearsal plans on her laptop. She knew that Lucas had the volume up all the way: he always did when he was angry. But it was all for nothing: she could barely hear anything from the studio.

Lucas held his hands over his headphones and glanced up at the wall. It was blank, as usual, although that's where the orders for commissions were supposed to be pinned up. As much as he hated to admit it, he had no steady course of income coming in at all at the moment.

Carter put through a few applications, sending back information for people asking about it. She continued to do it as she received a call from her friend Spencer.

Just stop thinking… you'll only feel better if you forget and numb yourself… Lucas gently pulled up his hoodie sleeves to look at the bandages underneath. He sighed quietly, but didn't necessarily regret doing it.

"Hey, I'm outside you're apartment," Spencer said.
"I'll let you in," She replied, getting out of the studio. She knocked hard on Lucas' door, yelling "Turn your music down!" She then went to open the door.

Lucas couldn't really hear Carter, but something inside him figured she would be coming back. His mind was distant as he stared blankly at the bits of red seeping through his bandages. Carter still doesn't know about this, does she? He thought to himself with a hint of bitterness.

"Hey, what's up?" Carter asked Lucas as she opened the door. He walked inside and she closed it after him.
"Well, I just wanted to go over the travel and rehearsal plans for New York."

Lucas lifted up one side of his headphones long enough to determine that someone was there before continuing what he was doing. He gently tugged at one bandage to see the cuts underneath.

"Nothing's changed, we had a meeting yesterday…?" Carter replied, confused. "Look, I know that this is a big thing. It's amazing. You're nervous, I can tell."
"Well, I'm kinda Jasmine. You know, the prince?"
"And I'm the Genie. Our roles are equally important."

I hate these bindings being here… I deserve this anyway. Lucas tore off his bandages and watched the cuts begin to bleed. Maybe I should get food. He got up and pulled his sleeves down, not noticing that he was bleeding through the fabric. He was wearing a light blue hoodie as well, so it was noticeable. He went downstairs and grabbed an apple.

When Spencer spotted Lucas, a huge smile grew on his face. He was an only child, and Lucas was basically his little brother. "Hey, Lucas," He said as he turned to face him. Spencer then saw the blood seeping through Lucas' jumper. "Hey, Lucas? You know you're bleeding, right?"

"Hmm?" Lucas looked down at his arms before quickly holding them over his stomach to hide them. Shit, I forgot about that… "It's n-nothing…"

"That doesn't look like nothing, buddy," He said, staring at the patch still growing.

"I-I…" Lucas was frozen in place, but his mind was screaming at him to run. There was a heavy fear and guilt in his eyes, and all he could do was draw his arms tighter around himself.

"You can tell me, I'm not gonna do anything to you," Spencer chuckled softly. Carter sat and watched.

Lucas hesitated for a few seconds before finally looking away, blinking away tears. Well, this wasn't exactly how I planned on her finding out… He tentatively tugged up one of his sleeves with trembling hands, avoiding eye contact.

Spencer was still confused as to why Lucas was worried, but Carter slowly started to figure it out. She walked towards her brother and wrapped him in a hug, not caring if blood got onto her clothes.

Lucas was noticeably trembling at this point and seemed surprised that Carter cared, especially right after a fight. Just don't cry… you can cry later, when you're alone. He hugged Carter tightly, trying to avoid getting blood on her.

"I know that a sorry and a hug doesn't mean much, but I'm giving them to you anyway."

"I-I'm sorry it came to this… and that I didn't tell you sooner…" It was getting harder for Lucas to keep himself from crying, but he'd managed thus far. It hurts so much… but useless people like me deserve pain.

Carter could feel some warm tears starting to make their way down her cheeks. "I'm sorry about dad. I never asked for him to like me more, or for my mum to die. But Vivian is basically a mum to me."

(Rip Spencer lmao)
Lucas tried to prevent his own tears from falling, but failed. "I-I'm sorry… I really shouldn't be bothering you when you're busy…" He made an attempt to run back to his room so the others wouldn't see him cry, but Carter had hold of his wrist. He flinched when this happened, since his wrists hurt quite a bit.