“If everything was fine, you wouldn’t have your hand like that,” He grunted. “What did you do to your hand? Don’t make this harder than it needs to be.” He’s clearly hiding something…. Daichi didn’t want to be awfully nosey, however, some things just couldn’t go unnoticed.
He tried to put off the moment further, “There’s nothing wrong,” Rigel meant to sound nonchalantly, but it came out more as a squeak. Please don’t look, please, please don’t see…
Daichi really didn’t want to be aggressive. “It’ll just be worse by the time you need to use your hand.”
Kohaku had her eyes closed, but she was still listening. “I…. I… b-burned your h-h-hand…. didn’t I….?”
“No, that’s not it,” Rigel said immediately after Kohaku spoke. He didn’t want her to feel like she was responsible for this, not in any way. This was his hurt to bear, and he was the one that caused it- he needed it.
Daichi was a bit irritated. “If you insist…” I really shouldn’t bug him about it if he doesn’t want to talk about it… He sighed, waiting for the elk to come back into the room, no matter where he was.
Kohaku let out a breath she was holding in. “Is… where’s everyone else??”
“You still need to get some more rest,” He knew she already asked, and he was afraid she was getting some kind of short-term memory loss. “Everyone is either still sleeping or probably out and about, I don’t know.”
(Nuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu, Daichi YOU MUST LOOK AT RIGEL”S HAANNNNNNNND
lol, do what u want)
“Don’t worry, Kohaku, food is on it’s way…” Rigel trailed off, pressing his hand flat against his abdomen. (so if someone cough cough were to reach out and grab it… cough lol)
(AAAaaaaaaaa i didn’t know what you wanted!!1 PANIKKKKKKK)
(Lol, ur good Biramisu, Rigel’s being difficult lol)
Daichi gave up on him being preserved and grabbed his hand. “….It’s no use in lying,” He grunted gruffly, staring at the burn. “When you get found out, things can get much worse…”
Kohaku nearly began to cry. “I… it’s my fault…. I… I should’ve…. told you I was getting hotter….”
(There. Jeez, Rigel…. ugh….)
Tears welled in Rigel’s eyes when Daichi looked at his hand. When the small cuts of self harm shown on his palm, open to their eyes. “I- I- I had t-to, it- it- it f-felt like when- like when he h-hurt me- I thought- I thought it was him,” Rigel explained through sobs that started to form. Because late last night when he closed his eyes, he thought he was back in Peter’s room, he thought that the burn was on fire. So he gave himself a different kind of pain.
“…I’m not understanding this,” Daichi uttered. “…Where on earth did those cuts come from?”
(I actually have no idea what just happened)
(You know how burns and cuts hurt differently? Burns throb more whereas cuts are more stinging. Rigel cut himself on his burnt hand because he thought the burn felt to much like the time Peter lit his skin on fire, so he wanted to make it hurt differently)
“I-I-I made them,” Rigel stuttered out, shoulders shaking with each sob that came out of him.
(Ok lol I was like dah fuq?)
Daichi was left with pure confusion still. “….But why?”
“Don’t… h… hurt yourself…..” Kohaku cried, tears bleeding from her closed eyes. “D… don’t…. I’m…. it’s my fault….” She began to choke up in an attempt to hold back her embarrassing whimpers.
“It’s not- it’s not y-your fault, it’s m-m-mine,” Rigel protested through his sobs, hand shaking at this point. “I-I thought I was back there, in the- the room,” Rigel got out, tears dripping down his face and onto his shirt.
“If I never would’ve burned you…..” Kohaku cried, her tears turning into steam on the stone slab. “You wouldn’t have hurt yourself….” She curled up more, feeling more and more helpless. It’s true.. it’s true…. it never would’ve happened…. it never……
Rigel couldn’t speak, the sobs overtaking him and the mere fact that he resorted to self harm brought more pain than it should have. He didn’t want to face those demons within him, he wanted to force all the bad memories away from him.
Daichi let go of Rigel’s hand. “I’m unsure what you want anymore….” He sighed, getting an idea that he wasn’t sure what to do with him at that point. I got two crying kids… I…. What do I do?… A dim lightbulb went off in his head, and he asked him, “…Would you like me to heal your hand…?”
Rigel nodded silently, completely ashamed, and he lifted his hand so Daichi could fix it. He wished everything could be fixed this easily. Rigel wished they had never seen it, so he wouldn’t have to answer to it. So he wouldn’t be viewed as unstable.
Daichi allowed the healing essence to smoke from his hand, the pads of his paw turning a faded green as he hovered it over the burn and series of cuts.
Within seconds, the redness of the feiry burn dissipated, and the blood red slits were completely gone— not even a scar remained. “There. All better,” He said with a satisfactory sigh.
Yet, Kohaku was still sobbing….
Rigel curled his arms around himself, his sobs slowly fading to sniffles, “It’s not you fault… it’s not your fault…” He mumbled, wiping at his eyes that continued to leak.
http://lyrics.wikia.com/wiki/My_Chemical_Romance:The_Sharpest_Lives
(Okay….)
Kohaku’s crying died down to a few coughs. “…. no….” She said, tears evaporating from her face instantaneously. “….no….”
(It’s a good song, just wanted to share lol)
“Don’t you see, it’s my fault, it’s not yours, it’s not your fault,” Rigel got out sadly, his eyes holding a darkness in them. He was haunted by his past, and he probably would be for as long as Peter was alive, maybe longer.
Kohaku wasn’t sure what to say— she knew that man was bad, but she never had the idea of how bad he really was. “…But… I… can’t help you….” She fell back asleep quickly, and she didn’t feel like being awake anymore. She couldn’t argue— he was right.
Rigel watched her for a second, eyes filled with sorrow before he looked away. (SHould the elk guy come in now?)
(Oh yeah I just wanted to give him some alone-ish time…. Lol I really need to give him a name, but I need something for that that I don’t have…)
“I have finally arrived…” The elk came through, ducking so his antlers wouldn’t scrape the doorway. “Unfortunately, this all I could find….” He set down a basket of three salmon fish. “With me being a fire weilder, it makes things five times tougher…. However, I did manage to convince the others to go out fishing as well.”
Daichi was a bit worrisome. “Do you know when they’ll come back?”
“That, I’m unsure of…”