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Started January 06, 2020 by @Fraust

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"I'm real," Halm promised softly. "I'm real." He held Cas similarly to how he had in the dream. "Why are you sorry?" he whispered quietly.

"B-Because I'm worrying you…" Cas hugged Halm a little tighter, hiccuping.

"I'm always gonna worry about you," Halm said gently. He pulled Cas closer, careful of Nix. "I care too much about you not to."

"B… B-But I don't wanna worry you…" He stammered weakly. "I want… I want you to be h-happy…"

"Cas," he said gently, his head against Cas's, "I am happy. Especially when I'm with you. I worry about you, but you make me happy too."

Cas drew in a couple quick, shaky breaths, more tears rolling down his pale cheeks. "B-But you… would be… h-happier if I was g… gone…" He sobbed.

"I'd never be happier," Halm said quickly. "You mean so much to me," he said softly. "I never want you to leave." He held Cas tightly, wiping his tears away.

Cas hiccuped again and kept his face hidden, shaking. "I d… I don't wanna be a burden to you…"

"You're never going to be a burden, Cas," Halm said softly. He curled up around Cas, just wanting to tell him how much he care for, how much he loved Cas. "Never." He held Cas tightly, both of them pressed together.

"B-But I am… I'm… I'm sobbing over some stupid dream and you have to take time out of your day to deal with my useless ass…"

"Cas, I want to take care of you. I want to help you with this." Halm pulled away from Cas slightly, cupping his face in both hands.
"You're not useless, Cas," he said softly.

Cas continued sobbing quietly, closing his eyes and letting Halm support his head. "I am, though… I-I can't do anything…"

"Cas, you did something no one else could have," Halm said gently. He rubbed Cas's cheek gently.
"You were nice to me," he said softly, "And… and that means the world to me."

"B-But you're nice…" Cas hiccuped again. "I… I just don't understand why other people don't see that…"

"That's okay," Halm said gently. "It doesn't matter anymore, because you saw it." Halm pulled Cas into another hug.
"Thank you. "

He rubbed at his teary eyes and exhaled shakily. "N… No problem…" He mumbled. "You're nice… they're all stupid…"

Halm chuckled softly, but it was a little sad. He hated seeing Cas crying like this, he wanted to make it all go away.
"Thank you," he said again softly. He pressed his head lightly to Cas's, holding him close.

Cas pushed himself onto his knees so he could gently kiss Halm's cheek before resting his head on the other's shoulder, still struggling to calm his breathing.

Halm was more than surprised by the kiss. Still, he wrapped his arms around Cas again to help him stay up like he was, one hand so very lightly running through his hair. He hesitated for a hot minute, then turned his head and kissing Cas's forehead. Halm held Cas so, so lovingly…

Cas blushed a bit, but didn't pull away. He allowed Halm to support him again since he knew he wouldn't be able to keep himself up much longer. He wanted to say something, but he figured it would be best to keep quiet for now.

Halm stayed quiet too, because he had no idea what he could say in this moment. He leaned back against the headboard, Cas laying on his chest. He kept running his fingers through Cas's hair, wanting to help him calm down. He would have started to hum, but he was afraid of Cas falling asleep right now.

Cas relaxed a little more with the petting and closed his eyes, though he was too uneasy to sleep. Since Halm didn't, Cas began humming a soft song of his own.

Halm heard Cas humming, listening a moment to catch the tone before humming a low harmony. Halm's voice paired nicely to Cas's. He held onto Cas, cuddling with him and helping relax.

Cas took several more minutes, but finally relaxed. "Thanks, Halm…" He murmured softly.

"You're welcome," he said gently. He turned his head, resting it against Cas's. He was so glad Cas was doing better.