"Mm…" Kalon shifted a bit to get more comfortable. "But… I should know better. I should put aside what I want for the sake of the general population. It's my job to govern the stars and bad things could happen to everyone if something were to happen to me. I really shouldn't risk going out, especially not on my own. I've been so stupid… forgive me, Phoebe."
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"Mm…" Kalon shifted a bit to get more comfortable. "But… I should know better. I should put aside what I want for the sake of the general population. It's my job to govern the stars and bad things could happen to everyone if something were to happen to me. I really shouldn't risk going out, especially not on my own. I've been so stupid… forgive me, Phoebe."
"What you want is just as important then what anyone else wants kalon."
She spoke firmly, knowing that he might not believe her, so she gave his hand a soft squeeze.
"As long as you are within my sights I can protect you, and I will keep you safe wherever you go. If you have the dream of exploring then explore we shall."
Kalon turned his eyes down to the bed, looking meek and crestfallen. The stars that normally twinkled brightly around their head were dim and didn't move or twirl like usual. "But… it's my duty to protect the people. I-I shouldn't mess around and play and explore so much. Surely the people don't respect a ruler with so little maturity and dignity…"
She frowned as she heard what he said, and turned him to face her.
"Kalon, you wonder about the the world with great curiosity because you seek great knowledge that others hardly think about in this day and age. I think you are much wiser then you give yourself credit for. You have much dignity and maturity…more then you think. Plus, everyone's allowed a mistake every once and a while and you truly meant no harm by it." She patted his head gently.
Kalon looked up at Phoebe tiredly, his eyes stinging with tears, which was very foreign and out of place to him. "But you got hurt because of me, Phoebe… I can't… I can't let something like that happen again. If it means giving up a little freedom to make sure nobody gets hurt by my actions again, so be it. It's my job to make sacrifices for others…"
"No. I will not allow you to give it just because I got a little hurt. I'm fine kalon..and I'm only going to be more upset if you give up what little freedom you have for me.'
"B-But I don't want you to get hurt due to my carelessness again…" Kalon argued weakly, pleading with Phoebe. "I hate seeing you trapped here like this because of something foolish I did. I don't want you or anyone else to get hurt again."
"Kalon..this is but a scratch on my wings. It will not stop me from keeping you safe. I want you to get as much of a chance as you can to explore the world." She put a hand on his cheek, smiling at him.
"Besides, I am already healing up quite quickly, so you needn't worry unnecessarily.'
She sighed softly. "Kalon…people will get hurt..but with you and me out in the world we can help stop that. I want to be near to you, and I cannot be if you stay cooped ho in your job all the time."
(Up*)
Kalon sighed as well and closed his eyes, leaning into Phoebe's touch. "I just… I can't help but feel responsible for your injuries. My insides feel like they're twisting in on themselves. My eyes burn… what's wrong with me, Phoebe? What's happening to me?" They asked weakly, looking up at her. What with his long life and carefree, joyful nature, he was unfamiliar with crying. Guilt was pretty foreign to them as well.
"Your eyes burn when you cry kalon..it's completely natural." He moved to wipe kalons eyes off and get rid of the tears.
"And I'm afraid what your feeling is guilt…though I assure you I'm okay and this wasn't your fault."
Kalon closed his eyes, hugging their stomach with their arms. He felt uneasy and sick, somehow, which was strange since he didn't really need to eat. They didn't exactly have a stomach like humans did, after all, so this feeling he was experiencing was very uncomfortable. "What am I supposed to do about it?"
"I'm sorry kalon..I'm not exactly sure what to do..when I feel guilty I just train harder and make sure it dosent happen again but I don't want you upset, or getting hurt."
She frowned softly as she thought.
Kalon shrugged and looked up at Phoebe again. "How do I make sure that I don't make foolish mistakes again? I just want everyone to be safe and… and happy. Is there any way to make the bad people stop trying to kill me? They seem to be generally making everyone feel worse."
"I'm not sure kalon..I'm not very good at diplomacy. I'm just here to make sure you stay safe and sound, I think..the bad people however have a lot of hate inside of them…and they want other people to be miserable like them."
Kalon sighed, staring at the ceiling. "Am I a poor ruler? Have I done something to make them dislike me?" He asked softly. "If I've done something wrong, I'm more than happy to apologize for it. I don't want any of the people to have any ill will or grudges against me that affect everything else negatively."
She thought for a moment, "I doubt you've done anything wrong…some people are just spiteful of what opportunities are given to what people that isn't them."
She spoke slowly but surely of her words. "Thel coming after you like this..it isn't your fault."
"I suppose… I just can't help but feel like there may have been something that warranted such a violent reaction…" Kalon closed his eyes again, looking uneasy and feeling guilty. He hadn't done anything, of course, but they thought that they had. "What should I do about it? Is there anything I can do?"
"Maybe some of them lost people to actions caused by the overarching rulers?" She tilted her head a little bit as she thought about the idea of what she had proposed.
"I don't see how it should be pointed back to you though."
She sighed as she heard his question. ,
"I don't want you getting hurt.."
Kalon sighed and shrugged. "I know you don't, but it's my job to remedy issues like this if it's in my power to do so. Even if it isn't, it's my responsibility to try. I just… don't know where to start. This is a big issue."
"I don't want you to get hurt kalon..but if this is what you want to do then I support you. Perhaps we could brainstorm some ways to reach out to the people?"
"Yes, perhaps… do you have any ideas of what might be effective?" Kalon asked. "This has been an issue before, but not near as serious. The problem was solved simply by me outliving them."