forum Let's summon demons (closed)

Started August 15, 2019 by Deleted user

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Bryn reached up to smooth down his hair, sitting up a little so he could get Sebastian settled in his lap. "Have you thought about her death much after… after the funeral and grieving period?"

Sebastian thought for a moment, nodding his head slowly, then shaking it. Yes, he had, but not about… Not about her actually dying. He'd always focused on what she had been line when she was alive. Not… Not this.

"You're giving me mixed signals, Sebastian." His voice was soft, completely devoid of teasing or judgment. "I'm guessing you've thought about her, but not about her death. Is that right?"

Sebastian nodded quietly. He pressed his lips, opening his mouth to try to speak, but closing it again.

Bryn nodded encouragingly when it looked like Sebastian was about to talk and then kissed his forehead gently when he didn't. "Think you could manage a yes or a no for me?"

"Ah… Yeah," Sebastian said quietly. He stayed huddled close to Bryn, closing his eyes for a moment before opening them again.

"That's really good, Sebastian." Bryn pulled him closer, nuzzling the top of his head protectively. "It's nice to hear you speak, do you think you can manage full sentences?"

"…N-no," he said quietly. Not yet. Soon, though. Hopefully. His mind was reaching, but Bryn was helping.

"Okay, that's fine." Bryn petted his hair gently. "I think I know why this is happening, do you?"

"No," Sebastian said again, voice a touch more confident. Nothing, nothing like this had ever happened to him. He'd never been so… Trapped by his memories.

"I think you've been… avoiding thinking about your mom's death." Bryn tucked his head on top of Sebastian's. "And now, because you've never really processed it, the grief is starting to overwhelm you. You've never really had to go through something like this before. Your mind's getting flooded with emotions, and you don't know how to stay afloat."

Sebastian listened quietly, realizing Bryn was probably right. He let out a little breath, pushing his head up lightly against the underside of Bryn's jaw.
"I…"

Bryn looked down at him. "You what, Sebastian? You don't have to be insightful or profound, I just want you to talk."

Sebastian could feel the memories slowly losing their hold as they continued, closing his eyes.
"I miss her."

Bryn sighed softly and pulled Sebastian closer. "Of course you do Sebastian, she was your mom and you loved her. It's okay to be upset, it's an upsetting situation and you never really grieved over the worst part of it."

Sebastian took a deep breath, letting Bryn's words sink in. He tucked his head under Bryn's again, not responding. He just wanted this to be over.

Bryn curled up around him, pulling him closer protectively. "Grieving takes a long time sweetheart, and you don't have to do it if you don't want to. But… it'll get better with time. I can promise you that much."

Sebastian just nodded. By now, he was fully back in the present. He just didn't have anything to say. He kissed Bryn's chest, closing his eyes.

Bryn kissed the top of his head, stifling a yawn against his hand. He was getting sleepy, but he didn't want to doze off just in case Sebastian was still struggling. "I love you," he mumbled. "I'll always be here for you, for whatever you need."

"I love you too," Sebastian mumbled. He himself was already falling asleep, energy drained.

Bryn nodded, pulling Sebastian as close as he could as he slowly lost the fight to stay awake and slipped off to sleep.

Sebastian awoke later, still snuggled flush against a sleeping Bryn. He smiled softly, resting his head against Bryn's chest again, letting out a tiny breath. This was nice.

Bryn had Sebastian squished between one of the walls of the nest and his body, an attempt to keep him protected on all sides. He was still dozing quietly, head tucked securely on top of Sebastian's and arms wrapped protectively around his waist.

Sebastian rubbed Bryn's back lightly, eyes half-closed again. He felt warm, and safe.

Bryn hummed softly, nuzzling Sebastian's hair as he stirred.