I didn't sleep that night. Didn't close my eyes for a single second, except to try (and inevitably fail) to block the tears from pouring down my face more than they already had.
Eventually, I'd run out of tears. It was four in the morning, my mouth was sucked dry of moisture, and my arm was festooned in bleeding, crescent-shaped marks from where I'd dug my nails into it to stop my hands from shaking.
And I was cold, so cold, that I'd pulled on a pair of leggings.
Romeo still hadn't replied, so I'd snuck down to the kitchen for a drink of water. The glass had slipped from my shaking hand and shattered against the floor. Fragments of clear crystal had scattered everywhere. From upstairs, I'd heard the sound of a door opening.
And I'd ran. Barely having the wits to grab my backpack and a pair of shoes, pure panic spurring me on, out the door, across the front lawn, down the street, all the way to Marina's house. I hadn't even realized where I was until I was hallway through her bedroom window, collapsing on her bed.
She hadn't asked a single question, only held me as tight as she could as I sobbed into her shoulder, my whole body trembling.
I was a mess.
By the time morning had come, she had cleaned me up as best she could, leant me a pair of her clothes, wiped up my face. She'd let me grip her arm as we walked to school, let me lead her the long way around so that we wouldn't go past my house. I'd given her only a few details about my father's beatings, my assignment, Paris, and the broken glass, and miraculously, she'd understood.
The whole night, I couldn't stop thinking about Romeo, about his cold, lifeless body on the floor of his bedroom. There was no telling where he'd gone after saying goodnight, but I knew. And it was all my fault.
So now, Marina was doing her best to make excuses to Tybalt as we sat with our backs to the exterior wall of the school. I was unmoving, unresponsive to anyone but her. Just sitting there, with my eyes firmly shut, my hands shoved deep into the front pocket of my hoodie.
There was nothing else left for me to do but wait.