forum In Fair Verona // Modern Romeo and Juliet // Private RP - CLOSED

Started February 05, 2019 by @blue_topaz

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Instantly, my body went rigid. I squeezed my eyes shut, clenching my teeth to prevent an answer from slipping out. My hands clenched around his, beginning to tremble.

“Pazza, hey, you don’t have to think about it.” I flinched at how hard she was squeezing my hand, but gave her a feeble squeeze in return. All I could feel was guilt. She was supposed to be having a good time, and I managed to let my own stupid insecurities ruin everything. “I’m right here. I— I love you, okay?”

My eyes snapped open.

I stared at him, wide-eyed as my breaths slowly calmed and my vision focused. "You—You do?"

Fuck. So much for playing hard to get. “Yeah… Yeah, I do. I don’t feel like how I usually do with girls. I want to—er… protect you. Although, I know you don’t need me to. And I want to talk to you all the time. And uh… and I just, I think I’m a little lovestruck for you.” I stammered out, my cheeks a flaming red.

Slowly, my shoulders sank into a more relaxed position, a blush making its way across my cheeks.

"O-Oh," I stammered, struggling to keep my heartbeat from racing out of control. "Oh. I—That's good with me. And, for the record—maybe I do need a bit of protecting…"

“I’m sorry— I was hoping to save that for a more romantic time…” I mumbled, taking deep breaths to steady my heart rate.

"Don't be," I whispered, hating how awkward I felt. But at the same time… I could already feel his words taking over, trickling through my bloodstream like a drug. "This was the perfect moment."

“Do you… you know?” I watched her, anxiously squeezing her hand.

"Do I—Do I love you back?" I asked nervously, licking my dry lips. Why was I so parched all of a sudden?

“You don’t have to answer that.” I shook my head quickly. “I’ve been a real douche to you a couple times in the past few days already. It wouldn’t make sense for you to— not right now, that’d be…. that’d be crazy.” I looked away quickly, desperately searching for a distraction.

I swallowed the lump in my throat, forcing my eyes to move from his and fix themselves to the ground. "I—I don't know if I do yet. I'm sorry. But–But I really like you. I promise."

“I can handle that…” I smiled shakily, taking a sharp breath. “We’re taking things slow. I’m pretty terrified of how I feel right now anyways. Im not good with this stuff.”

I'm sorry…

Swallowing a lump of guilt and shame, I gave a tiny nod. "That's–That's understandable."

“Do you want to ask me another question?” I asked quietly, trying to lighten the mood.

"Yeah," I answered hastily, wracking my brain. "Uh—dream job?"

“It’s not super interesting, but I’d love to be a writer.” I twirled a leaf in my spare hand. “You?”

“Of course that’s interesting,” I answered with a smile, “What kind of things would you write? And honestly, I don’t know. Something that has to do with music?”

“I have a thing for uh… fantasy magic type stuff.” I paused, expecting to get made fun of.

My eyes practically lit up. “Like what? Have you written any stories yet? Can I read them?”

“You want to read stuff I wrote?” I considered this for a moment. “Are you Sure. It’s not very good. I write a lot of short stories…”

“I’m sure it’s amazing,” I rushed to reassure him, more earnest than I wanted to admit. “Can I? Please?”

“I guess, I don’t see why not.” I was both excited and mortified that she wanted to see my writing. “I’ll give you my notebook soon and you can take a look.”

Grinning like an idiot, I popped a cream puff into my mouth and gave him two thumbs up.

“You’re adorable.” The smile on my face grew stronger as I watched her shove a cream puff into her mouth.