forum I Just Want A Cute Romance RP That Won't Die In A Week IS THAT SO MUCH TO ASK FOR??

Started February 26, 2019 by @Elder-God-Jacks347

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"I would've been fine. I know my limits." She realized how strange it was to say that. How strange it was to know exactly how many cuts would land her in the hospital.

"What would've happened if I hadn't come to check on you?" Asked Rio quietly, relizing what he could've found had he not arrived when he did.

"I would've stayed here on the floor until I found the strength or motivation to move, which would've taken probably until lunch. Then I'd get up and eat and then return to the floor and lay here until I either bled out or fell asleep."

Rio looked at her, stunned. "I don't know whether to laugh or tell you off…." he said quietly.

She shrugged slightly. "Do both, I don't care. Not like it won't be anything I haven't heard a thousand times before."

Rio carefully put an arm around her, "Why are you doing this…." he asked, "It doesn't make sense…"

"It makes perfect sense. It's a coping mechanism that's destructive of my skin but constructive of my mental state. And even if it's destructive of both, it keeps the depression at bay when the pills won't or can't." She shrugged again.

Rio sighed, his head felt fuzzy and his skin was dry again, "If it helps you in the long run I won't stop you… but please… don't let yourself bleed out on the floor…"

"No promises. Sometimes it feels like bleeding out is the only thing that can stop the pain. Although I'm sure my therapist would say otherwise."

"Surely there are other things" said Rio gently, "Something a little less dangerous….."

She laughed but it was hollow and empty. "Yeah, sure, right. Like my suicidal mindset would allow for an actual healthy way to manage my depression."

"There are other ways just as unhealthy and a lot less life threatening." said Rio. "Like weapons training."

"Yeah, as a demigoddess of light, that's not exactly my thing. Fire training, on the other hand, definitely."

"Ever tried it against a water elemental?" asked Rio, flicking a little water around his fingers. "You're not the only demigod around"

"I have, in fact. My brother is a water elemental." Her entire aura dropped and her slight smile that she'd managed to gain dropped. "Sorry, sorry, was. I keep forgetting that."

Rio's face softened, "I take it something happened?" he asked carefully, "You don't have to answer that…"

"No no, it's fine." She waved his concern off. "He…He died. In an accident when I was younger. Car accident. Died on impact." She could feel herself getting choked up, tears filling her eyes. She missed her brother so much it hurt. Even just talking about him made her heart hurt.

Rio's breath caught, instinctively he pulled her into a hug. "I'm sorry….. I shouldn't have asked…"

She forced her tears back but some leaked out. She wiped them away quickly although it hurt to do seeing as she was severely weakened from laying on the floor slowly bleeding out.

Rio wrapped his arms around her, "hey… if it were my brother I'd be crying too…."

"I'm fine, it happened years ago, I'm over it. At least that's what every medical professional I've seen says." She muttered the last sentence under her breath. She hated it when people told her that she was over it considering it still hurt so much.

"I'm no therapist but anyone with sense can see you're not…" said Rio, "And in your place I'd doubt the chances of ever getting over it fully."

She forced her tears back. "I'm fine, it's fine. Don't worry about me." I don't want you to know me because I'm scared if you do, you'll be scared of me and leave me.

"Hey, do you wanna go for a walk?" asked Rio, "Get some air?"

"I-I don't even know if I have the strength to stand." Her voice was even weaker, scared and nervous.