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Started May 16, 2020 by @ElderGodSwimwithGamers group

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"Ah. That makes sense." Halm smiled a bit, kissing Nix's forehead. "I'm glad we've been able to settle down a bit more."

"Yeah, clearly." Nix laughed, gesturing to himself in the dress. "Especially considering what we just did uh… however long ago. I dunno how long I've been asleep."

"Just a little over half an hour ago," Halm clarified. "And about that…" Halm trailed off a bit. How to explain this?

Nix looked up at Halm, confused. "What about it?" He asked, cocking his head to the side a bit with his tail flicking back and forth.

"Well… Did you know that it… It does count as a form of sex." Halm looked away a moment, knowing how Nix felt about sex.

Nix paled a bit, his heart fluttering. "U-Um… are you sure?" He asked nervously. "I-I mean… you didn't… um… you didn't put anything in me…" He replied, his voice very quiet.

Halm nodded a little. He felt horrible now for not explaining it before they had done it.
"Sex doesn't…" Halm shook his head a little. "I was… Pleasuring you, but touching you there. It counts too. I… I'm so sorry I didn't explain, Nix…"

Nix turned his ears back and looked away, struggling to process. Sex was bad, right? It had always upset Cas so much, but… if it was bad, then why did it feel good? Why did it help?

Halm refused to look at Nix now. He just felt so guilty. Did… Did this count as rape? Had he… He closed his eyes a moment. Oh god, he hated the thought that he might have hurt Nix like that.
"I… I'm so sorry," he said again softly. "I know how you feel about sex…"

"B-But… isn't… isn't sex bad…?" Nix asked weakly. He shifted around a bit, clearly uncomfortable. "I… I think I need a minute…" He hesitated a second before slipping out of Halm's lap and heading into the bedroom, trying to hide the tears stinging his eyes.

Halm watched Nix go, curling up a bit into himself. Oh god, this was horrible. He thought about following him, but stopped himself. He closed his eyes, trying to keep from crying.

Nix at down on the bed and drew his knees up to his chest, covering his mouth with one hand as he cried softly. He felt horribly guilty to the point of nausea, and he wasn't sure how to feel. It was his fault for being turned on, right? But Halm was the one who'd done it, and Halm was the one who had given him a handjob knowing that it was sex and knowing how Nix felt about it. He rubbed at his teary eyes and started rooting through Halm's drawers to try and find tissues, but he paled at what he found instead. He ran into the bathroom to throw up, shaking violently.

Halm looked up when Nix ran to the bathroom, paling a bit when he heard him throw up. He rushed to the bathroom, standing in the doorway.
"What happened?" He asked, forcing his tears away with his hand, concern etched in his face. "Are you okay, Nix?"

Nix pressed himself up against the wall, shaking violently. His face was ghostly pale and he was staring up at Halm, wide eyes with terror. "Y-You're trying to rape me…" He whispered, a couple tears rolling down his cheeks.

Halm froze. What?! He fell to his knees, shaking his head quicky.
"I-I would n-never hurt yo-u like tha-at, N-ix…" Halm curled in on himself, looking so small. He could never…

"Then why do you have those things in your drawer if you're not trying to have sex with me?!" Nix sobbed quietly, his breathing harsh and shaky. "Y-You know I don't want to have sex and you still did that to me! You knew that I didn't know what you were doing! I d… I d-don't know how to feel, b— b-because it felt good, but sex is bad and you know that I feel that way!"

"I- I'm sorry, Nix! I- I thought-" Halm took a shaky breath, especially over that first part.
"I-I don't have those there because of you, Nix!" Halm said, voice rising. "I- They were for her…" He looked away a moment. "Sex isn't bad! Rape is! And I would- I would never hurt you like that, Nix!"

"B-But didn't you already? You… you did that to me knowing that I didn't know it was sex! Just… j-just leave me alone!" He got to his feet unsteadily and bolted out of the bathroom, still sobbing. He ran into Cas and Zachary's room and locked the door, which he then slid down to the floor against. "N-Nix? What happened? Are you okay?" Cas asked worriedly. He'd never seen Nix like this before. "No! I… I-I think H-Halm raped me…" He sobbed, shaking violently. "He did what?! Shh, shh, come here… we'll get him for you…" Cas carefully pulled Nix over to the bed and hugged him tightly.

Halm sat there, in the bathroom. He leaned against the wall, sobbing quietly.
Zachary jumped a bit when Nix came bursting into the room. He started shaking a bit, but from fear or anger it was unclear. He wrapped his arms around Cas and Nix, holding them close.

Nix buried his face in Cas's shoulder, shaking violently. "He… H-He gave me a handjob earlier, but he didn't tell me it was sex until now… he knows how I feel about sex, and he knew that I didn't know, and h-he still did it… and… and I found c-condoms in his drawer…" Nix whispered shakily. "I think he… I think he wants to have sex with me, but he knows I don't want to…" Cas held tightly to Nix, gently petting him to try and calm him down. "Shhh… it's not your fault, Nix. It's his fault. He never should have done that to you. We'll… talk with him." Cas looked over at Zachary, clearly furious. Not with Zachary, of course, but with Halm.

Zachary nodded. Of course they would. No one would get away with this. Not after Nix and Halm killed someone for doing it to Cas. He… Well, knew knew why the condoms were there, but he had thought Nix had known. But… Halm hadn't told him. Oh, fuck no. There was no getting away with that.

Nix hiccuped weakly, his ears flattened back on his head. "I-I just… I thought I could trust him…" He sobbed, curling his tail tightly around himself. "What we had was so great, b-but I can't… I c-can't look at him the same way anymore…" Cas held Nix close, still gently petting him. "That's totally understandable, Nix… we're not going to let him get away with this. I promise he'll regret this if he doesn't already."

Zachary wanted to give Nix some words of comfort, even if he wasn't the biggest fan of the cat, but he couldn't. Because of Halm. He held both Cas and Nix close, rubbing Cas's back gently.
Halm would regret this. Even if Zachary couldn't do anything in this state, he knew Cas would.

"We care about you, okay? You mean so much. He has no right to treat you that way. You're not just a pet now. You're a person. Your feelings and your emotions are all totally valid and you deserve to feel better." Cas murmured, scratching behind Nix's ears to calm him down. Nix continued sobbing quietly until he inevitably passed out in Cas's arms.

Zachary kept quiet as Cas comforted Nix. When the cat passed out, he motioned with one arm for Cas to lay him down. No matter how much he wanted to see Halm beaten, Cas would need to go alone. Zachary needed to stay back and watch over Nix.