forum Angst o/o (closed)

Started May 25, 2021 by @Becfromthedead group

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"I'd like tha- Wait… are you sure? It was different when we were little. There could be rumors, especially since I-"
He paused briefly, especially flustered now that Adrien was in less clothes than he'd seen him in in a long time.
"If you're okay with that possibility, then sure. I just wouldn't want anything bad to come of it, even though there really is no harm."

Adrien nodded and slipped his long fingers onto the bottom of his tank top, tugging it off gently, his hair disarray and glowing in the soft lighting of that small chandelier above his bed.

"I'd enjoy that very much Sebastian" he said softly, his voice low as he threw on a robe, then slipped off his pants.

Sebastian looked away for a moment, trying to be respectful of Adrien. Yet, the other didn't seem to care all that much.
"Well, alright then. I'll stick around, I guess. Would you like me to make us some tea before bed?" He asked.

Adrien gave a soft, yet loving smile as he nodded gracefully, laying down in his king sized bed.

"yes please" he said throatily, all the tiredness hitting him all at one time, ugh how I hate my father for this he thought to himself, he hated fighting, hated war, yet here he was leading one of the worst war his kingdom had faced in a long time.

Sebastian gave a nod.
"I'll be right back. I'm going to go change and get the tea leaves," they said, "Could you get the fire started up for me, please?"
Sebastian made his way out the door and back to his quarters to change into his loungewear. He smiled a bit to himself, glad that the two of them were hanging 9ut again.
They glanced over their dresser, which was a mess. Littered with papers and love letters, a vase with a wilted rose, and their small tea collection sitting to the side.
Sebastian picked up a tin of herbal tea, which he often had a cup of before bed. He tucked it under his arm and started back towards Adrien's room.

Adrien had gotten up, lugging some small bit of wood into the fireplace and lighting it, creating a fire, he then took his spot on the couch, the spot right in front of where he hung his coat and dress shirt, he waited for Sebastian to get back patiently.

He had his hands folded together, and sitting on his lap, his face drawn into not the usual stern look, but a soft smile.

(Just random ones he's received over the years. They are very much not all from the same person lmao. Not to mention he can barely read them.)
Sebastian returned with the tin of tea in his hands. He put on a pot of water and sat by Adrien as they waited for it to boil.
"Miss me?" They joked.
Sebastian ran a hand through their hair, then set the tin of tea down the nearby table.

Adrien gave another soft smile, something he was keen to doing when Sebastian was around, his hands came unclenched from each other and sat loosely in his lap.

"Very much so" Adrien said, a smirk grazing his lips, and his head tilted upward a bit as he gave a soft laugh into the quarters lonely silence.

He quietly fiddled with the hem of his robe, his bare chest sort of visible, he got up and quickly slipped lounge pants on and a small tank top, then sat back down, exhaling sharply.

Sebastian laughed a little at the reply and leaned back into the couch.
"It's that chamomile and mint blend, by the way. I hope that's alright. It's one of my favorites to drink at night."
Again, Sebastian tried to avert their eyes, at least a little, just to be respectful while the other changed.

Adrien smiled at Sebastian and gave the boy a nod of approval, he then scooted closer, his knee touching Sebastian's, and his blond hair bouncing as he tilted his head upwards slightly, to look up at the taller boy.

"So tell me Sebastian" he said softly "whats life been like for you?, tell me anything I need to know" he added quietly, his fingers grazing the fabric of his lounge pants.

Sebastian shrugged.
"Well, relentless training. If things don't get resolved soon, you and I will have to go to battle one of these days. We may not be front lines, but it's terrifying nonetheless."
He let out a sigh.
"And when I'm not training, I'm patrolling and keeping an eye on things around here. And in my downtime, I have to kiss nobles' asses."
Sebastian smiled a bit.
"But I still have a little time for dating around, at least. That's always nice. Until they turn our to be a total snob, of course. How about you? Aside from trying to handle this war, I mean?"

Adrien gave a suppressing sigh

"I too, have to kiss asses, but not the noble's I must say gratefully; if I want the the general's help, I must kiss their asses, or else I'd be left to fight the entire war alone, and that" he said with the flip of his hand
"would not be good for Sunstasia, not good in the very least" he said, his fingers rubbing against the materials of his lounge pants.

"other than that I haven't had time for most things such as searching for romantic pleasure, but I must say, I had enough free time to be seduced by a rather insightly and handsome musician, thats sits by the town square's fountain strumming on his guitar on who was able to provide me a little sexual pleasure, but nothing romantic." He said quietly, his features seeming to glow in the light of the fire, swirls of orange and yellow dancing across his cheeks.

"It wouldn't," Sebastian agreed, "It's awful that you have to do that, but clearly you're doing something right, since the generals are still with us."
He laughed a little at the last bit.
"Oh, yes, I know the guy. At least you're getting a little release then, I suppose. If you don't have time for romance, you won't fully be able to take care of a partner. I say, with my awfully busy schedule and relationships that never last more than a couple of weeks. I could just sleep around, but gods, I'm such a romantic."

"me too" Adrien declared, his face tilted downwards, his elbow rested on his leg, and his cheek rested in his palm.

"perhaps it was the alcohol, perhaps it was just my craving for touch, but it didn't do quite what I wanted, and it took quite a toll on my mind." He added quietly, his mouth drawn into the same stern frown.

"I think being a romantic is a good thing" he said softly, his eyes casted towards the fire, his eyes glistening.

"Oh… that's… I'm sorry," Sebastian whispered, his brow furrowed, "He didn't hurt you, did he? Or take advantage of you at all? You said you were drunk?"
They shook their head.
"I wish I could just do things without feelings involved. I don't really have time for all this… feelings bullshit," they added with a chuckle, "You know what I mean? Especially not when I've been struggling to find other people who want more than money or prestige. Or those turn away when they know where I come from, or who I really am, or any of that shit."

Adrien gave sebastian a curt nod.

"yes I understand entirely, it can be hard to take care of someone, especially when you're so…busy" he said in agreement.

"Although… maybe it's for the best I haven't fallen hard for anyone yet," Sebastian said with a shrug, "After all, I always feel like someone is wanting to stab me in the back. Just waiting for the opportunity. It wouldn't be fair to a lover to constantly be in such danger. I just want to be there for them. And if I were to die in the line of duty- well, that just wouldn't do, now would it?"
They laughed softly.
"Maybe after this war is over things will work out. Or maybe I should forget about it entirely and focus on things that matter more, like my family, and, well, you…"

Adrien looked into the fire as a rosy blush filled his cheeks and spread to his ears, he had never been in someone's list for more important things to fo us on, well except to the castle's army, but that was all because he had to BE more important to them, they were his soldiers after all.

But he felt Sebastian meant it when he said it, and he turned and gave a slight nod, while saying "yes, though you're life is just as important to me as mine is to you, therefore you should have the ability to search for a partner… that is when you want to" Adrien said softly.

Sebastian smiled.
"I appreciate it," he replied, "I don't think it's wise to pursue right now, but it's always good to know you do give me autonomy, let me do what I want- within reason, of course."

Adrien gave a soft smile, and a nod. He crossed his arms and rested them on his stomach, something he had always done as far as he could remember, due to being self conscious about how skinny he was, which was very.

He then turned his head to look at Sebastian. He gave another smile and his eyes sparkled a little in the light of the fire. "Anytime, I would never treat anyone, especially you; like an unequal, as if im superior." He said softly, his eyes crinkling the skin around them as he smiled.