forum Angst o/o (closed)

Started May 25, 2021 by @Becfromthedead group

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Adrien smiled and nodded, the heat of Sebastian's hand on top of his seeming to sink into his bones.
"Yes I suppose it would do a great deal for both of us, you would no longer have to fill yourself with worry and I on the other hand; could see your family, which is practically my family every day." He said cheerily.

He kept his hand still, but snuggled his head into the curve of Sebastian's neck.
He let the silence of the room; beside the crackling fire settle over himself before speaking again
"do you remember when my mother caught us snuggling once when we were children?" he asked quietly.
"We had just woken up, so we had no time to untangle from each other." He stated quietly.

Sebastian nodded.
"It'll be great. I mean, they're my family, and even I haven't seen them in a while."
He smiled a bit at the memory.
"Well, she could've reacted a lot worse, that's for sure."

Adrien nodded slowly, his mouth drawn into such a tight line, his lips were turning white around the edges.

"She told my father." He added as if that explained everything. "He was not happy, he forbid me from seeing you, I think that's the only time I ever stood up for myself when it came to him." He stated quietly.

"It's unfortunate that you had to. You deserved so much better. We were literally kids- I don't get what was wrong with it," Sebastian replied.
They shrugged a bit.
"You know they wouldn't have reacted the same, had I been a girl. And I mean… I get that a lot, too. I'm scared to death to tell my family I even like men. I don't know they would've liked to see us cuddling, either. I just- I don't know. It's really complicated, huh?"
He frowned.
"Every time I thought I might be torn away from you- it's really been unbearable."

Adrien smiled up at him and placed his head on Sebastian's shoulder.

He sat there for a few minutes, his breath low and deep.
When he finally lifted his head, he pulled his hand away from Sebastians cheek and placing it on his shoulder.
"I think you're the only person I've ever fought for." He states quietly, his eyes swirling with bright blue and greens.

"I should be flattered, but I think it makes me even happier that I can draw out strength you didn't know you had," Sebastian replied.
He gave a smile.
"Okay, maybe I'm a little flattered."

"Yes I suppose, considering that I deeply despise fighting and everything related to it." Adrien said quietly in response.

"i never had anything to fight for except you, and I fought with my father long and hard about you." He pressed on, his breathing deepening and his voice getting slow with sleep.

"You were the only thing— the only person who I ever felt pressed to fight for, y'know; at many points in my life you were the only thing keeping me sane, you were my lifeline. And in many ways you still are." He added quietly, resting his chin on Sebastian's other shoulder.

"I'm sorry," Sebastian whispered.
It must be horribly lonely, only having one person you'd be willing to fight for. Sebastian always had many. Maybe it was his harder fighting spirit. Maybe he was lucky to have so much love in his life. Maybe he was just reckless.
"I guess I should be grateful that you think me so important, but I can't help wishing that you had more than just me."

"I hate to disagree but I do, I think your the only friend I need." Adrien said slowly, closing his eyes slowly.

Adrien had loved Sebastian since they were children, though it was platonic at the moment, he knew if Sebastian asked he would do anything for them. Though Sebastian was more of a life source for him than anyone knew. He had made his life worth living, and enjoyable ever since they were small children. Adrien's entire life was spent looking forward to seeing Sebastian and not much else.

Sebastian was ready to protest. After all, one person did not make a support system. Yet, he would let Adrien have that for now. After all, he was used to being a big support for others. It was in his nature, and up to this point in his life, he did it out of necessity.
"Fair enough," they replied, "You may not think the same in ten, or even five years, but if I'm all you need for now, I'm more than happy to provide."

"yes, I suppose." Adrien mumbled in a slow, tired voice, then closed his eyes, his breathing switching to deep, sleeping ones.

Sebastian rested a hand over Adrien's heart, starting to become very sleepy himself as well. The other's warmth was very comforting, and helped him get to sleep even faster than normal.

(I went ahead and time skipped since they're both asleep)
Adrien awoke to the sound of birds chirping and lightly shining lightly through his velvet curtains.
He rubbed his eyes and sat up slowly, looking around as if he were in a foreign place. He got up, lifting the sheets off himself and stretching by putting his hands above his head, he walked over to the window quietly, looking out into the courtyard, then looked at Sebastian and smiled.

He went to his desk, pulling out crisp paper and a quill, he dipped the quill in the ink sitting atop his desk, he sat in the chair and began writing the letter to Sebastian family that he promised.
"𝖉𝖊𝖆𝖗𝖊𝖘𝖙 𝕷𝖊𝖛𝖎𝖈𝖐𝖘,

𝕴 𝖍𝖔𝖕𝖊 𝖞𝖔𝖚 𝖜𝖎𝖑𝖑 𝖆𝖌𝖗𝖊𝖊 𝖙𝖔 𝖏𝖔𝖎𝖓 𝖒𝖊 𝖆𝖙 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖈𝖆𝖘𝖙𝖑𝖊, 𝖙𝖍𝖎𝖘 𝖑𝖊𝖙𝖙𝖊𝖗 𝖎𝖘 𝖕𝖗𝖊𝖘𝖊𝖓𝖙𝖊𝖉 𝖙𝖔 𝖞𝖔𝖚𝖗 𝖋𝖆𝖒𝖎𝖑𝖞 𝖙𝖔 𝖎𝖓𝖖𝖚𝖎𝖗𝖊 𝖞𝖔𝖚𝖗 𝖓𝖊𝖊𝖉𝖘 𝖎𝖓 𝖕𝖔𝖘𝖎𝖙𝖎𝖔𝖓𝖘 𝖆𝖙 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖈𝖆𝖘𝖙𝖑𝖊. 𝕴 𝖜𝖎𝖑𝖑 𝖔𝖋𝖋𝖊𝖗 𝖘𝖑𝖊𝖊𝖕𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖖𝖚𝖆𝖗𝖙𝖊𝖗𝖘 𝖆𝖘 𝖜𝖊𝖑𝖑 𝖆𝖘 𝖋𝖔𝖔𝖉 𝖆𝖓𝖉 𝖔𝖙𝖍𝖊𝖗 𝖇𝖆𝖘𝖎𝖈 𝖓𝖊𝖈𝖊𝖘𝖘𝖎𝖙𝖎𝖊𝖘 𝖎𝖓 𝖗𝖊𝖙𝖚𝖗𝖓 𝖋𝖔𝖗 𝖞𝖔𝖚𝖗 𝖍𝖔𝖓𝖊𝖘𝖙 𝖆𝖓𝖉 𝖍𝖆𝖗𝖉 𝖜𝖔𝖗𝖐 𝖎𝖓 𝖙𝖍𝖊𝖘𝖊 𝖏𝖔𝖇𝖘. 𝕿𝖍𝖊 𝖏𝖔𝖇𝖘 𝕴 𝖍𝖆𝖛𝖊 𝖆𝖘𝖘𝖎𝖌𝖓𝖊𝖉 𝖆𝖗𝖊 𝖑𝖎𝖘𝖙𝖊𝖉 𝖇𝖊𝖑𝖔𝖜:
𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊: 𝖙𝖔 𝖆𝖙𝖙𝖊𝖓𝖉 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖈𝖆𝖘𝖙𝖑𝖊 𝖙𝖔 𝖑𝖊𝖙 𝖍𝖊𝖗 𝖙𝖊𝖆𝖈𝖍 𝖒𝖊 𝖙𝖔 𝖜𝖍𝖎𝖘𝖙𝖑𝖊.
𝕷𝖆𝖛𝖊𝖓𝖟𝖆: 𝕿𝖔 𝖙𝖊𝖆𝖈𝖍 𝖒𝖊 𝖍𝖔𝖜 𝖙𝖔 𝖇𝖊𝖙𝖙𝖊𝖗 𝖒𝖞 𝖜𝖗𝖎𝖙𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖆𝖓𝖉 𝖕𝖔𝖑𝖎𝖙𝖎𝖈𝖆𝖑 𝖘𝖐𝖎𝖑𝖑𝖘.
𝕸𝖔𝖙𝖍𝖊𝖗 𝖉𝖊𝖆𝖗𝖊𝖘𝖙: 𝕿𝖔 𝖇𝖊 𝖒𝖞 𝖕𝖊𝖗𝖘𝖔𝖓𝖆𝖑 𝖈𝖍𝖊𝖋 (𝖉𝖔𝖓'𝖙 𝖋𝖗𝖊𝖙, 𝖞𝖔𝖚 𝖌𝖊𝖙 𝖙𝖔 𝖈𝖔𝖓𝖘𝖚𝖒𝖊 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖋𝖔𝖔𝖉 𝖞𝖔𝖚 𝖊𝖆𝖙 𝖆𝖘 𝖜𝖊𝖑𝖑, 𝖆𝖓𝖉 𝖋𝖊𝖊𝖑 𝖋𝖗𝖊𝖊 𝖙𝖔 𝖚𝖘𝖊 𝖆𝖓𝖞 𝖗𝖊𝖘𝖔𝖚𝖗𝖈𝖊𝖘 𝖎𝖓 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖐𝖎𝖙𝖈𝖍𝖊𝖓 𝖙𝖔 𝖕𝖗𝖔𝖛𝖎𝖉𝖊 𝖞𝖔𝖚𝖗 𝖋𝖆𝖒𝖎𝖑𝖞 𝖜𝖎𝖙𝖍 𝖒𝖊𝖆𝖑𝖘)
𝕱𝖆𝖙𝖍𝖊𝖗 𝖉𝖊𝖆𝖗𝖊𝖘𝖙: 𝕿𝖔 𝖇𝖊 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖍𝖊𝖆𝖉 𝖌𝖗𝖔𝖚𝖓𝖉𝖘𝖐𝖊𝖊𝖕𝖊𝖗 𝖆𝖓𝖉 𝖐𝖊𝖊𝖕 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖈𝖔𝖚𝖗𝖙𝖞𝖆𝖗𝖉 𝖓𝖊𝖆𝖙 𝖆𝖓𝖉 𝖐𝖊𝖕𝖙.

𝕴 𝖉𝖔 𝖍𝖔𝖕𝖊 𝖞𝖔𝖚 𝖏𝖔𝖎𝖓 𝖒𝖊 𝖍𝖊𝖗𝖊 𝖎𝖓 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖈𝖆𝖘𝖙𝖑𝖊.

                              𝖘𝖎𝖓𝖈𝖊𝖗𝖊𝖑𝖞 𝕬𝖉𝖗𝖎𝖊𝖓."

The letter read, he slipped it into a cream colored envelope, then melted some wax and stamped the envelope shut with a orange and red colored stamp that had a sun in the middle.

(Yeah, that's good)
Sebastian was still half-asleep as Adrien worked at his desk. But he stirred awake as Adrien finished the letter. He grasped at empty blankets next to him, and eyes still blurry from having just woken up, he rolled over to find Adrien.
"Oh, you're writing the letter," Sebastian murmured.
They sat upright and rubbed their eyes a bit.

"yes, I promised I would and I dont break promises." He said quietly, his eyes scanning Sebastian quickly.
"I was hoping you would deliver it with me." He suggested with a small smile.

He looked out the window, his eyes gleaming in the sun slightly, he smiled to himself as the birds chirped quietly, the sound stifled by the glass panes of the windows.

"I know you don't," Sebastian said softly, "You just made quick on that promise is all."
He looked down slightly and to the side.
"You don't think it'll put a target on their backs, do you?"

Adrien drew his lips into a tight line.
"I hope not, though them being in the castle should be evidently safer, I could have guards put with them for extra security" he said quietly.

"Though I suspect they'll be happy to see you, even if they reject the offer, we could stay a bit for you to see them" he added quickly.

"I'm not worried about them being targeted by common folk. It's lords, it's the rich folk who think we're infiltrating. But it's better than seeing them suffer year after year," Sebastian said.
They smiled slightly.
"It has been a while since I visited. They'll definitely like to see us both."

Adrien smiled up at Sebastian then stood up abruptly.
"Must we be getting ready to make our departure?" He asked with a bright smile, clapping his hands together.

"I must say, I am most excited to see your family" He added quickly, with a giggle.

"Yes, of course," Sebastian replied, also standing, "I need to go get some proper clothes, and we can be off."
He glanced back at Adrien.
"Guess it's been even longer for you, huh? They adore you. It'll be a welcome surprise. I'm sure all of this will be."

Adrien gave a grateful smile to Sebastian.
"Thank you, Im glad your family will be happy to see me, they're more family than my very own" he said sweetly.
"I will change and we will meet in here once we are finished?" He asked, standing up and planting a hand on the person's shoulder.