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(Romance season is back for me again~ this time though— for a special someone.)
Just in case.
Just in case you love me.
Don’t.
I won’t be able to change myself to the perfectness you want.
I won’t be able to make myself believe that everything you say about me is true and that you’re not saying it… just to make me stay.
I won’t be able to give you as much as I take, not because I don’t want to, but because I know that whatever I give to you… won’t be enough to show how much you really mean to me.
I won’t be able to correct you and your mistakes because I’ll just forgive you endlessly for three hundred and sixty five days a year with no exception…
I won’t be able to stop myself from longing for you whenever you’re not around… and I’m just scared that you might not appreciate my company as much as I appreciate yours.
I won’t be able to convince myself that I’m enough and that there’s nothing wrong.
I won’t be able to not feel jealous whenever you’re talking with someone else… and… this jealousness takes my mind… way, way, deeper than it should.
I won’t be able to stop myself from imagining the future that it’s just you, me, and our daughter running around in the backyard with her friends… falling in love with one of them… the way we did.
I won’t be able to make myself upset or even fake an angry expression, even during a fight, just because I don’t want to lose you, the one who means so much to me.
I won’t be able to forget our anniversaries or the special days we made up just for the hell of it.
I won’t be able to stop myself from thinking of you whenever I hear love songs playing on the radio during my way to school everyday. Sometimes I would sing along with them.
I won’t be able to spend every moment of my life with you, and that’s only because I’m self conscious and need some space every now and then…
I won’t be able to stop myself from launching myself at you after a period of self doubt because… you make me feel like those feelings don’t matter… because you’re there…
…
I won’t be able to stop myself from falling in love with you three hundred and sixty five days a year, every year from now on.
…
So…
Just in case you still love me under all these complicated circumstances…
Just remember…
I love you too.