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Started January 17, 2019 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

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My mind after watching all 10 minutes and 16 seconds: there's a part 1

Ik but I feel like P2 is great

Yeah it is

I've been playing telephone tag with a potential employer literally all week. I was told yesterday that they would call me around 12. It's after 1 now and I'm still waiting :\ I really hate talking on the phone and just want to get it over with so that I can stop stressing out over it. Like please just call me back already so that I can enjoy the day instead of just anxiously waiting for hours on end.

Aww, what makes you relax or gives an outlet for stress? Try doing that or occupying yourself with an activity, that way you don't have to wait. Waiting with nothing to do usually just builds stress up. I hope you have good luck with the employer though!

Hey guys… I’m in a really bad mood today. Not even sure why, cause it’s been a decently fine day. I just feel like everything sucks. Anyone who has anything to cheer me up?

As a matter of fact I do!

Thanks @Shuri-the-wholesome-boi it kinda helped… still feel like everything sucks tho…

Does stuff actually suck or are you just feeling down?

They actually suck, sadly…

Aww, do you feel like ranting about it? We're all here to listen! If you don't want to that's totally fine.

Yeah, if it’s okay… I kinda feel like ranting

Alrighty my friend. You have the stage.

Hey guys… I’m in a really bad mood today. Not even sure why, cause it’s been a decently fine day. I just feel like everything sucks. Anyone who has anything to cheer me up?

As a matter of fact I do!

Thanks @Shuri-the-wholesome-boi it kinda helped… still feel like everything sucks tho…

Yo anytime! ^¬^
You seem to help lots of people out here! You're doing good work! It's been an honor!

Hey guys… I’m in a really bad mood today. Not even sure why, cause it’s been a decently fine day. I just feel like everything sucks. Anyone who has anything to cheer me up?

As a matter of fact I do!

Thanks @Shuri-the-wholesome-boi it kinda helped… still feel like everything sucks tho…

Yo anytime! ^¬^
You seem to help lots of people out here! You're doing good work! It's been an honor!

I could only say the same about you. I honestly don’t even understand how you can stay positive all the time…

Alrighty my friend. You have the stage.

Thanks…

The major sucky thing right now would be about my friends. I have four really close friends, and even though we can hang out with others as well, we mostly don’t. We have our own group, and that’s fine.
Buuut… I kinda feel like I’m replaceable in the group. This week we are going to compete in a cake competition as a team, and I invited this other girl in our class to join our team since her friends didn’t want to compete. So we are trying to decide what to bake, and I feel like all of the sudden they only listen to her. Like, they agree with her on everything and they kind of go against me and take her side even when her ideas are pretty dumb. She is not trying to be mean to me or anything, she just wants to convince the others to agree to her idea. She’s more popular than me, she’s prettier, she’s more social, she’s cooler, she’s nicer… and I feel like they are all replacing me with her. And it’s not the first time that happens, it happens every time someone new starts to hang out with us. I have no problem with them wanting to be more social with others and stuff like that, but it kinda feels like shit being excluded because of that. And they don’t actually need me; they are all social enough to make new friends on their own. But for me, it’s not that easy. I always end up saying the wrong things when talking to new people, they think that I’m annoying and that I either talk too much to them or are too shy. I can only be somewhat close to being myself when I’m with my friends or online, and they replace me. They are probably not even thinking about that they are, they are probably just trying to be friends with her. And I can’t blame them, cause she’s really nice…

Then there are some other sucky things as well. One of them is that the guy I like maybe love already has a girlfriend, and he doesn’t even know that I like him cause I am obviously too shy to tell him. And there’s also this other guy who I used to still have have a crush on for years and who I know liked me back. We were also really good friends, but now he doesn’t even say hi to me when I see him in the corridor. He doesn’t even look at me when I see him, and I miss him really, really much. We grew apart when we switched classes, and I just whish that we talked more often ~~ever~- cause he is literally one of the greatest people that I know. Now I only hear stuff about him from others. I really miss him, both in the ’potential-boyfriend-way’ and the ’friend-way’.

Also a close relative of mine died about a month ago, and my family has pretty much been a mess ever since. Except for that, I fight with my parents and my brother like all the time, and I’m really not looking foreward to having to spend the entire summer with them and not going to school. School is pretty much my escape when everything is messy at home. And my mom is super overprotective, so she basicly let’s me do nothing on my own.

And the thing about my friends. Some people might say that they aren’t real friends because of replacing me, but they really are. They are just totally oblivious to when they are hurting people or when people are feeling bad. They think that they know me, but they don’t. They only know the part of me that is happy and positive. Whenever I tell them about my problems I always exclude the really shitty parts, cause I don’t want to be a burden to them.

Oh, and then there’s my best guy friend who seems to have a really deep crush on me. I love him, but not in a romantic way. Only as a friend. And I’m really scared that he’ll confess his feelings, cause I don’t want to hurt him and I really don’t want to lose him. So… that sucks too.

This became such a long text, and those are only the major sucky things…

Hey guys… I’m in a really bad mood today. Not even sure why, cause it’s been a decently fine day. I just feel like everything sucks. Anyone who has anything to cheer me up?

As a matter of fact I do!

Thanks @Shuri-the-wholesome-boi it kinda helped… still feel like everything sucks tho…

Yo anytime! ^¬^
You seem to help lots of people out here! You're doing good work! It's been an honor!

I could only say the same about you. I honestly don’t even understand how you can stay positive all the time…

I'm not positive all the time. I'm actually a crybaby honestly, but I enjoy being wholesome!

Hey guys… I’m in a really bad mood today. Not even sure why, cause it’s been a decently fine day. I just feel like everything sucks. Anyone who has anything to cheer me up?

As a matter of fact I do!

Thanks @Shuri-the-wholesome-boi it kinda helped… still feel like everything sucks tho…

Yo anytime! ^¬^
You seem to help lots of people out here! You're doing good work! It's been an honor!

I could only say the same about you. I honestly don’t even understand how you can stay positive all the time…

I'm not positive all the time. I'm actually a crybaby honestly, but I enjoy being wholesome!

But as far as I’ve seen you always help people out and make them feel better about themselves, and that’s really amazing…

You too! Keep up the good work! It was nice to actually talk to you

Thanks! It was nice talking to you too, I feel like I see you around all the time but haven’t actually talked to you until now…

Thanks! It was nice talking to you too, I feel like I see you around all the time but haven’t actually talked to you until now…

Same! Thank you Dam-senpai

Thanks! It was nice talking to you too, I feel like I see you around all the time but haven’t actually talked to you until now…

Same! Thank you Dam-senpai

Interesting name lol… You can call me Alex if you want to

Cool!
Thanks

also what does senpai mean? I feel like it’s some kind of anime term, but I’m not sure…

It's like 'upper-classperson/mentor.'

Oooh I see
Well, I am honored then, Shuri-kohai
I feel like I probably used that wrong lol but whatever I tried

I use senpai wrong all the time lol

Okay lol I feel like I should probably just stick to english terms instead, so that I don’t say weird stuff haha