Day 15
" What is something you wish you could experience? "
Requited love. Not to say I'm a sad sap because no one loves me back (I prefer it that way, mostly). I just kind of wonder what it'd be like to have someone love me romantically, and for me to love them the same way.
“What color would you describe yourself as, and why?”
Hmm I’d say periwinkle, it has just the right amount of blue and just the right amount of purple to describe the way I’ve been feeling lately. I can’t really explain why, but I think it’s due to having conflicting emotions.
Day 16
“ If you could restart your life, would you? And if so, why? “
Day 16
“ If you could restart your life, would you? And if so, why? “
I think I'm happy with what I have today. I've turned the corner, I have an ambitious goal and a rather stable life. no need to restart it. maybe if I was older, I could try to live once again, choose different paths. but now I'm not in a hurry.
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Day 16
“ If you could restart your life, would you? And if so, why? “
Absolutely not.
With my life circumstances, it's almost certain there's at least a few possible timelines where I grow up to be a horrible person. I already spent the first 3/4 or more of my life being someone that I absolutely despise now, and if I reworked everything, that change of heart may never come.
Day 17
“ Do you think crying is a sense of strength or weakness? “
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//TW
I’ll go ahead and answer this one. For me, I feel like it’s a sense of weakness. If I see someone else crying though, I won’t automatically think, “yikes, they’re so sensitive” because it happens.
In my case though, I feel weak and insignificant and powerless because the times that I have cried, it’s always been because I was being abused. So I can’t really associate crying with anything other than being weak. I was made to feel that way by the person who hurt me and as much as I want to say that I’ve been working on it, I just haven’t. I’m a bitter person who resents the people that did the things they did. I don’t forgive and I don’t forget. It’s one of my major flaws, I know this.
Day 17
“ Do you think crying is a sense of strength or weakness? “
man if someone could easily cry in public without shame or anything that'd be some of the bravest thing I'd ever see. I wouldn't mess with that person. they're too powerful.
Day 17
“ Do you think crying is a sense of strength or weakness? “
Neither. Crying just is.
I'm not brave for breaking down in public, or "making myself vulnerable" to others. Sometimes I can't help it. But it doesn't make me weak either.
On the other hand, I don't think much of people who rarely cry. They're not strong for holding it back. But they're not weak for not allowing themselves to confront emotions that might make them cry.
Crying is a physiological response to environmental stimuli at its core. And some people just happen to cry more than others.
Day 18
“ What’s one moment you want to relive? “