Oof and Ella I don't wanna finish that
So it turns out the my maybe crush is really good at braiding hair do I'm making him braid mine tomorrow. He also lost his water bottle so he used mine for practice and uGH. I also had to tell him that I don't hate him. Because apparently that needed stating. And this was really specific so I'm glad he's not a writer and has like 0 chance of being on this site
My doctor: "Hey you've lost almost too much blood"
Also my doctor: "LeT's Do A bLoOd DrAw"
Outhouses 2020 calendar (picture to be added)
I found a radio frequency and it’s like a humming noise of various pitches (mostly lower) with occasional music playing in the background. It’s a bit static like as well.
websdr.ewi.utwente.nl:8901/m.html ((I know it looks like a dodgy link but trust me, completely safe. Frequency is 603.45))
Okay so, my curtain rod fell down while I was tucking my little sisters in their beds for the night, and I was having a bit of trouble putting it back up…
My precious baby sister just sat up, looked at me with her big shiny eyes, clutched her favorite dog plushie, and said “you can get it, Ella, I believe in you”…
I love her so much, she’s a pain to deal with but I love her
I guess I exist. I am working in an ice cream booth.
DONT PLAY WITH OUIJA BOARDS KIDS
I Need To Experience Affection Right Now Or I Might Die And That Is A Promise
I am working in an ice cream booth all week.
Alright, I know this is what I would call dead, but here it is, and this is for sure my post of the day:
To all those out there who think they can just harass others:
No matter the disability, no matter how smart or dumb you think you are, no matter what mental disability you may have, it is never okay to harass people, no matter the reason. Just like it's never okay to harass people just because they dress or act a certain way. If people politely ask you to stop, please stop. If you're given several chances to stop, then you should stop. You've already been given several chances that you don't deserve to stop. It is also not okay to lie, to try to steal things by lying. It is also not okay to call people names.
And to all those adults out there who are too afraid to stand up to the bullies who bully other children:
Pay attention, stop being absorbed in your stupid phones, and don't be a bystander. It's stupid, the school education system will give us that lesson, but what about you guys? Today at the beach, me and some friends were harrassed by this boy, no further details will be given. What happened? You adults, you were too afraid to stand up, we tried, we really did. But nothing we did got him to leave us alone. The adults didn't even pay attention to us, they either just watched, heard, absorbed in playing with kids, watching kids, or in your own stupid devices. In order to get him to stop we had to go get a lifeguard to help us. No, none of the many adults scattered around the beach even made an attempt to help us. They just sat there stupidly. Now, I know this doesn't apply to all adults, and many adults who are like those at the beach, will probably never read this, but it really feels good to let this out. Really.
Alright, I know this is what I would call dead, but here it is, and this is for sure my post of the day:
To all those out there who think they can just harass others:
No matter the disability, no matter how smart or dumb you think you are, no matter what mental disability you may have, it is never okay to harass people, no matter the reason. Just like it's never okay to harass people just because they dress or act a certain way. If people politely ask you to stop, please stop. If you're given several chances to stop, then you should stop. You've already been given several chances that you don't deserve to stop. It is also not okay to lie, to try to steal things by lying. It is also not okay to call people names.
And to all those adults out there who are too afraid to stand up to the bullies who bully other children:
Pay attention, stop being absorbed in your stupid phones, and don't be a bystander. It's stupid, the school education system will give us that lesson, but what about you guys? Today at the beach, me and some friends were harrassed by this boy, no further details will be given. What happened? You adults, you were too afraid to stand up, we tried, we really did. But nothing we did got him to leave us alone. The adults didn't even pay attention to us, they either just watched, heard, absorbed in playing with kids, watching kids, or in your own stupid devices. In order to get him to stop we had to go get a lifeguard to help us. No, none of the many adults scattered around the beach even made an attempt to help us. They just sat there stupidly. Now, I know this doesn't apply to all adults, and many adults who are like those at the beach, will probably never read this, but it really feels good to let this out. Really.
post of the day: YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES T H I S YES YES YES
Plants are friends, not food. Don't eat your veggies, eat cake
Plants are friends, not food. Don't eat your veggies, eat cake
But cake has plants in it???
Thousand Cranes is up!!!!!!!!!
also post of the day:
Shigatsu Wa Kimi no Uso AKA Your Lie In April is literally the saddest Japanese movie/show I've watched ever (also the only sad one I've ever watched but that doesn't matter does it)
also post of the day:
Shigatsu Wa Kimi no Uso AKA Your Lie In April is literally the saddest Japanese movie/show I've watched ever (also the only sad one I've ever watched but that doesn't matter does it)
You should watch True Tears
It is now officially tomorrow… I can post this. Warning, this is a spoiler for Your Lie In April, but I read it before I watched the movie, so if you choose to read it it is not a big deal, and no I did not write it but I feel it is worthy of being posted here:
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Dear Arima Kousei,
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It feels weird writing a letter to someone you were just with… You’re the worst. Indecisive. Gullible. Twit. The first time I ever saw you perform, I was 5 years old. It was at a recital for the piano school I was going to. This awkward, clumsy kid came onto the stage and accidentally hit the piano stool with his butt. It was too funny. He turned to the piano that was way too big for him and the moment he played that first note, I was drawn in. The sound was beautiful, like a 24-colour palette. The melodies danced. The girl next to me started crying. I wasn’t expecting that at all. And even so, you gave up the piano. Even though it totally changed other people’s lives. You’re the worst. Indecisive. Gullible. Twit.
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-Cut to Kaori as a kid, telling her parents she’s giving up piano for violin because she wants Kousei to play again-
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When I found out we were in the same middle school, I was ecstatic. But how would I ever come to talk to you? Maybe I’d hang out at the lunch concession. Instead, I just watched you from afar. I mean, after all, you all seemed to get along so well. There wasn’t really any space in there for someone like me. When I was a kid, I had to have an operation and I started having to be at the hospital for regular check-ups. In the first year of middle school, I collapsed and I was admitted over and over. With every visit, I was there for longer and longer. Really, I didn’t get to class much in middle school, I spent more time at the hospital. And I knew something was wrong with my body. One night, I saw my parents crying in the waiting room and I knew that my time was running out. That’s when I ran away.
I didn’t want to bring my regrets with me to heaven, so I stopped holding back from what the things I always wanted to do. I wasn’t scared anymore to get contact lenses. I ate what I wanted instead of always worrying about my weight. And I took the music with all its high and mighty directives and played it the way I wanted. And then I told a lie. Just one. I lied and said that I, Miyazono Kaori, liked Watari Ryouta. And that lie brought you to me. Please apologize to Watari for me… though I’m sure he’s forgotten me by now I think I need someone more wholehearted and earnest than him. I think we’d be fine as friends though. And please apologize to Tsubaki for me too. I want for there to be no hard feelings. And there was one thing I could never ask of her, to ask her directly to introduce the two of us. I don’t think she would’ve had an answer for me. After all, she was in love with you. We all knew that. I think the only people who didn’t know were you and her. That underhanded lie brought me to you didn’t work out the way I had imagined. It was darker. And meaner. And denser. And more stubborn. And more perverted. And softer. And more masculine. And sweet. Remember that bridge we jumped off? The water was so cool and refreshing. Racing each other alongside the train. I really thought I could win. The moon was saw from the music room that night, like a delicious-looking bun. Singing Twinkle Twinkle Little Star with you as we rode on that bike together. Then falling out time. We’re awful singers. At the school at night. I’m still sure there was something there. The falling snow, just like cherry blossoms. It’s strange to be a musician, but then to have your heart so filled by something that comes from off-stage. They’re unforgettable scenes to me. But they’re such little things. It’s weird, isn’t it? What do you think? Do you think I made it into anyone’s heart like that? I wonder if I made it into yours. I wonder if you’ll still remember me. If you forget me, I’ll just come back and. No, I don’t want to start over Please don’t forget me. Promise me you won’t forget me. I’m glad it was you.
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I hope this reaches you, Arima Kousei. I love you. I love you. I love you. I’m sorry we couldn’t eat all those canelés. I’m sorry I hit you so much. I’m sorry I was so selfish. I’m so, so, so, so sorry.
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Thank you for everything.
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Miyazono Kaori