Me: hmm I wonder why I haven't had any big backfires. Isn't something supposed to go wrong eventually? I should be messing up at some point. It's part of the process.
watches two videos about trickster spirits and reading into omens too much and realizing I very much have been messing up
Me: Ah ok.
We're making oaths in class today and I take that so seriously now I don't want to bind myself to something I can't keep. But it also needs to be serious and fancy enough to get a good grade.
take an oath to being gay and doing crime
lmao I wish
I just did it about drinking water everyday
Me: I wonder if I should download tinder or something
Idk, probably a spirit guide: sends a dream about how very much not over my ex I am
The cards: you're too broke for a relationship dumbass
Me: :(
Aww take some time for yourself to recover! Make sure you're ready for another relationship before hopping into another! Good luck <3
I can send a picture of my altar (work in progress) and the cover of my BoS for those who are interested!
I apologize for the terrible quality, especially on the BoS pic. I can take better pictures later on and when my altar is finished
AhHh I wish I could see! I'm on a school computer :/
Can you breifly describe it?
UUHHHHH my altar is on top of a large antique dresser and it has a black cloth over it that has gold moons and suns. Its decorated with crystals, candles, dried flowers, waterfall incense and potion bottles I bought from hobby lobby that I filled with dried herbs. Also some boxes that are disguised as witchcraft books. Black flowers are in my pencil holder along with a plastic knife I used for Halloween XD. (there's a creepy porcelain doll head too lol)
And a resin planchet and ouija board.
It looks really good in person but shitty in the pic cuz my camera sucks oof
So I have been noticing that my altar doesn't feel.. right? I don't know if it's necessarily bad energy (it sure feels like it though) it just feels off and makes me kind of sad and insecure to be around it. It's like when you find something from your childhood that was part of a really bad memory and you don't want to be around it.
Also bought a shit ton of Amethyst and they give me the same vibes.
(I originally thought it was the dragon's blood I was burning since smoke and strong smells make me sick, but it hasn't gone away)
Rip. I would try either smoke cleansing with a different incense or using a different method of cleansing. Also grounding yourself if you haven't done that in a while. For me when I need to ground, it feels like everything else has bad energy
Does anyone know if there's a website that you can put all the signs you're getting and it'll give you a list of deities to look into or something? Because that would be really useful. I mean maybe I'm just being lazy but going through each sign and trying to find a commonality is a lot of work
My parents are here and coming up to my room and I hid my spices and herbs but I forgot about all the other witchy things
Fingers crossed they just think I have a candle surrounded by red and black crystals and a plate with dried mac and cheese and a peppermint is just there because I thought it was pretty
Not sure what they'll think if they see my sigils and very witchy spell bottles
My parents are here and coming up to my room and I hid my spices and herbs but I forgot about all the other witchy things
Fingers crossed they just think I have a candle surrounded by red and black crystals and a plate with dried mac and cheese and a peppermint is just there because I thought it was pretty
Not sure what they'll think if they see my sigils and very witchy spell bottles
Oof. My family is Christian but they don't really care what I do as long as it isn't in their presence or in their space. My mom's the only one that knows I'm into that stuff, doesn't necessarily know I practice it, and everyone else just thinks I'm doing early Halloween decoration.
The cards are not predicting good things for me today
The only thing they noticed was that the name on my door isn't my deadname and they dropped it after I said "I like it better"
So I have been noticing that my altar doesn't feel.. right? I don't know if it's necessarily bad energy (it sure feels like it though) it just feels off and makes me kind of sad and insecure to be around it. It's like when you find something from your childhood that was part of a really bad memory and you don't want to be around it.
Also bought a shit ton of Amethyst and they give me the same vibes.
(I originally thought it was the dragon's blood I was burning since smoke and strong smells make me sick, but it hasn't gone away)
You're altar sounds really pretty! But it sounds like it needs a cleansing. I like taking a cloth and dipping it in my favorite water (moon water, infused water, or just regular water with the intention of cleansing) then cleaning every crack and surface with the intention of brushing off and scrubbing away all the yuck energy.
So at work, I use flattop carts to move stuff around. I grab a flattop today, and on the top of it in sharpie is something that looks almost exactly like one of my protection sigils
I'm gonna take it as a sign that I need to do more to protect myself
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So I looked it up and 911 is supposed to be an angel number and it doesn't mean anything bad but it's fucking weird and creepy to be seeing it everywhere
So turns out my brother in law is a witch and he said he has sent blessings and done a protection spell for my dad… which is like super sweet. Like idk, it feels really nice to have someone not Christian give blessings/prayers/etc.
Anyway I think I've been doing a bit better. It's been 4 days. Obviously it's going to take a long time for me to recover, but I think I'm finally starting to process everything that happened.
I've returned with more knowledge and some attempts to be covertly witchy while living with a father who recently admitted to once being pagan and knows everything
I have been unable to try anything since.
I've also become slightly more okay with the idea of working with deities at some point, but right now I have way too much healing to do with how my Christianity has messed with my relationship with any sort of deity worship, so that's still something far into the future for me. There's truly not much I can do at this point but research and try to keep learning
So turns out my brother in law is a witch and he said he has sent blessings and done a protection spell for my dad… which is like super sweet. Like idk, it feels really nice to have someone not Christian give blessings/prayers/etc.
Anyway I think I've been doing a bit better. It's been 4 days. Obviously it's going to take a long time for me to recover, but I think I'm finally starting to process everything that happened.
I'm sorry for your loss Bec, and I hope you get the time you need to take care of yourself and process. I'll pray for you too.
I've returned with more knowledge and some attempts to be covertly witchy while living with a father who recently admitted to once being pagan and knows everything
I have been unable to try anything since.
I've also become slightly more okay with the idea of working with deities at some point, but right now I have way too much healing to do with how my Christianity has messed with my relationship with any sort of deity worship, so that's still something far into the future for me. There's truly not much I can do at this point but research and try to keep learning
Good on you for doing what you wanna do m8
If you wanna research something but don't have the time/resources, you could ask this chat and I'm sure someone has the random knowledge you want to acquire lol
I haven't been worshipping or anythign lately, but I keep seeing the signs I saw when Aphrodite was trying to signal me like "hey, come work with me"
is this a sign to go back to working with her you think?