forum Let's change it up - First Crush?
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@CrystalDior

My first crush was a pretty close friend of mine I had in the 5th grade. He had brown hair green eyes (I think) and wasn't that much taller than me which was a big deal to me considering as I was about four foot three at the time. He left my school after that year and I told him about my crush on him the next year. He had a crush on me too but I was uncomfortable with acting on my crush so we never dated or talked about the confession ever again. Now I´ve switched schools and see him sometimes and it can get really awkward when 5th grade is brought up.

@basil_

theres this kid named colin at my school and i joined the school in third grade and he had a crush on me and i was in third grade so I was like ummmmmm idk how to react to this. Then in fourth grade people were kind of like teasy and stuff and I was like 100% done with everybody. Then in fifth grade we kind of grew apart and then at the end of sixth grade I think he was kind of into me. And this year hes kind of like flirty and I kind of get mad when he like laughs with other girls which is kind of bitchy, i know but we are kind of friends. My friend jasmine ships us really hard and im terrible at this kind of stuff.

@Celestial-B

Frick, I don't even know. Every time I get a new kid in my class I think I start to like them, but In the end I realize that I just wanted to get to know them and be their friend so idk if I've ever even had a crush lol.

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Well, I'm going through my first big crush right now.
So, last summer at Fixing It For Christ, my youth group was working on my neighbor's house. I was a first year so I was shy as shit. During this stage of my life, I liked puns.
So, I was getting on top of the roof to re-shingle it with everyone else. I was having trouble carrying my water bottle up. And Gavin came up behind me and offered to hold my water bottle for me.
I wasn't strangers to him, I knew his family but, I've never talked with him. (Because I'm so shy.) And I had a small crush on his smaller brother.
Welp, I fell for him. Really bad!
(He's a dark ginger with glasses and freckles all over him. Extremely dark eyes, dimples. Cutest thing I've ever seen other than cats.)

My Dad is the Awana leader at my church and his Dad is a volunteer and well known to the church. Well, a few weeks ago the youth group went on a hike. Being the weeb I am I wore my Stranger Things 11 hoodie. During our snack break on the trail, I was eating jerky and his Dad goes, "Enjoying your jerky Ms.Eleven." I didn't know how to respond I just nodded.
Somehow that conversation turned into. "If you know the reference on my hoodie, you know the show."
And in stereo, I heard "Stranger things?!" And I learned that Gavin watches it.

I've been called Eleven by Gavin's dad ever since.

He knows I write and he's constantly asking if he can be in my story. He treats me like his kid, it's so weird.

And I pray to God that Gavin does not see this.
Because if he does,
I'm going to DIE.

I'm a very realistic and pessimistic person. I know there's a small chance that he'd ever like me back. I'm willing to let him live the life he wants. If I do confess and he rejects then that's his choice, it's his life.
If he were to accept, then great. If he were to leave me for another girl, then I'd let him go. I won't cling to him.

I feel weird having these complex feelings, fantasizing one moment then making the worst scenario in my head. Recently, I've been thinking once sentence over and over. "I don't deserve you."

I wonder sometimes if he really is the Mike to my Eleven or vice-versa.

@Alylistrates group

lol my first crush was this boy who lived across the street from me, and it was like SUPER BIG. I had a crush on him for soo long! It was pretty bad lol. After a while, it started to get weird because i started thinking of him more as a brother, and less as a crush. (He's not my actual brother dont worry lol.) Now we are super good friends and a ton of people ship us and it honestly makes me so uncomfortable bc he's sorta like my brother and it's weird haha. Now I have like 1 crush, but its never gonna happen lolol. ;)

@Masterkey

These are all great XD

And I know Meadow, I was gambling about whether or not to post mine… but the website is fairly new, and probably none of my friends are on it, so I was like "what the heck."

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@Masterkey
Lol. I really don't know anyone else who writes and my friend who does doesn't even have a computer and she already knows. But, there's always THAT ONE CHANCE.

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nods

And if there were to be someone else with the name "Gavin" reading this, they'd be so confused.
Wait, YOU made this thread! Wow, you knew the risks and you took it to hear people's funny and depressing crush stories.
YOU GO GIRL.

@AllyM

So… first crush. It took me until recently to realize that I had even ever had a crush, but it happened about three years ago. I was in seventh grade, and there was this boy in my choir class. The entire class "shipped" us, especially the eighth graders. The whole thing was really awkward and basically a mess.
I suppose we would have been cute together, the short little midgets we were. We always fought, and the older kids thought of us as an old married couple. He was always joking around, and I always laughed, but I would yell at him a lot too. I never really realized I had a crush on him, and never found out if he had one on me, although I don't think he did. Looking back it's a really cute story.
Or it would be, had he not started dating one of the sixth graders on the bus ride home from our field trip. Now I know why that hurt so much.
So based on that, I'm pretty sure he didn't like me, even if the whole choir thought he did.
(And if you think that's bad, my current crush is in love with one of my friends.)

@hopelessromantic

My first crush was also from Sunday School…

Okay, so there was this lanky short dude. His sister was considered the "cool/pretty/awesome" girl of the church. He was nerdy and stuff. Idk, why I even liked him! He was bland and had no personality, but my younger sister and I had a "crush" on him. We'd giggle EVERY. TIME. HE WAS NEAR! So so so so stupid. We also fought over him…ew.
That was my first "crush".
Now that I think about it, I don't believe I actually liked him. I was crushing on the idea of liking a boy, not the actual boy himself ha ha ha. I didn't even bet butterflies!! I'm so mortified at myself.

Okay, this is my actual first crush.
His name is Isaac. Lol, my name is Rebecca so I thought, "Oh! Isaac and Rebecca! Just like in the Bible and SHOCKER! we're meant to be!" (rolls eyes at stupid child self.)
This was also at Awana. (!! @MeadowOfSilence !! Woah!! What on earth??)
He was the popular kid along with these other few people. He was really cute (then! Now, not so much.) and he dressed nice, and was always "good". I had a HUGE crush on him! I had butterflies and all that stuff! Every girl had a crush on him and he knew that. There was an incident where I was introduced to these popular kids and I didn't say anything other than my name.
Needless to say, I was very awkward and shy. Ugh, I bet he knew that I liked him! I used every chance to be near him and look at him. I slowly saw that he wasn't that amazing and got over him. Nothing hurt so it was chill.

@Masterkey

Meadow HAhahaha thanks XD

@AllyM I've always wondered what it would be like to have a crush but not realize it… I was always the kid who mistook just liking a certain quality in a person for a full-on crush. :P

Rebecca, yeah, usually the shy kids you would THINK wouldn't give away their crushes and the confident ones would, but for some reason it seems like the other way around!

@HighPockets group

First male crush: Poe Dameron
First woman I found super pretty: Maria Reynolds (Jazzy Jones’s portrayal
First female crush: Rey
Current crushes: John Laurens, Alexander Hamilton, Kelly Marie Tran, Rey, Peggy Schuyler, Carswell Thorne, Cress Darnel, Winter Hayle-Blackburn, Scarlet Benoit, Linh Cinder and Jacin Clay.

@AllyM

@Masterkey It's pretty weird, actually. But I know what you mean by thinking you have a crush. That's happened to me a couple times, but I've realized it wasn't real within the week. I don't know how, but I just seemed to know.

@insertpunhere

I'm going to do my first I guess REAL crush- and current- cause the other ones are kinda boring…
She's a grade above me but in my math class (cause I'm special like that lol). She- well, where do I start? First of all, she has this beautiful hair like wow I really want to braid it! Her eyes are really pretty too…She's amazing at art and poetry (and lets me see it!) She's in a lot of my fandoms, which is cool. She plays flute and piano really well. She is really kind and open-minded and asdfghjkl just really awesome in general!
Uhh well let's see…I met her at the start of this school year. She sat at my table and we're kind of friends now I guess?? I've been smitten with her for months but never let on because I know who she has a crush on…yup!

@Monoceros

Well, I guess I could say that I have had several… small crushes? Yeah, I guess you could call them that. But I have had a couple of big crushes and sad stories I could talk about.

So I was in the 6th grade, I think, and we were having a Model United Nations on my school (you guys have/had those too right? 0.o). The point being, we were having a bunch of schools come over, and, well, I didn't really know a lot of people from other schools back then. So the delegates (students) start coming in right? And we are told to move over to the auditorium (everyone was on the patio at the entrance of the school). Then, I see a small group of girls who look incredibly confused and I think: "Hey, I should probably help them find their way around the school grounds." So I go and we start walking over to the auditorium and everything and I start talking with one of the girls that was a little farther behind. We found that we had a BUNCH of things in common, we kept on talking and talking about so many different fandoms and everything. So the MUN ends and we exchange contacts. An it all kinda went downhill from there.

We kept texting and texting, and talking on the phone too. And I eventually fell in love. One day I told her, but I already knew what she was going to say. We were what, 12 and lived each on completely different sides of the city, went to different schools. And she did say no. But she did say she liked me back. She said no because it was going to be hard, which I understand. I honestly don't know why it hit me so hard. I'm used to having crushes on gals completely out of my league. I was really rude the next couple of days. That's probably one of the things I most regret in my life. That was around a September, and it was until New Year's Eve on that year that we could make things right. We still talk 'n all, but it's not the same, you know? And we're talking about meeting each other again sometime soon (I haven't seen her since then).

This turned out longer than expected. Sorry if I ranted a little bit too much. Thank you for reading! Can't wait to hear some of your other stories! ^w^

@Monoceros

Also, I have to say, it feels extremely good and healthy to get that out of my chest. I haven't really been able to talk to anyone that much about these kinds of stuff. Thank you everyone!