forum Let's change it up - First Crush?

Started January 29, 2018 by @Masterkey

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OKAY GUYS I love these stories. Even if they're depressing sometimes…

So, who was your first crush? Or maybe not your first, but your first BIG crush? What did they look and act like? Did they like you back? Did you ever tell them about it, or did you just like them from afar? Did you suspect they liked you back, or did you not know for sure? Or maybe you were sure they didn't like you at all…? Any stories to tell?

I promise this has to do with writing too, I just love incorporating these real experiences into the relationships of my characters. But I also wanted to read your stories anyway. ;)

Mine is below:

When I was 13 I met this "new" boy in Sunday school class (lol Sunday school). He'd already been there for awhile and had friends and stuff, but I'd never seen him before. He had this weird Southern-ish accent that threw me off (he lost it after a year or so). He was blonde and blue-eyed and liked goofing off with the rest of the boys, so I was like "eh, nothing special, beneath me in intelligence like all boys" (I know I was stuck up). My best friend and I had gone outside to fill paper cups with honey suckles that we could eat during class, and when we sat behind the "new" boy, he turned right around and looked at me with this deadpan expression and said, "You know honey suckles are poisonous, right." Then he turned to his friends and said, "I live in the country, I know these things." I was kind of speechless at first, thinking "could he be serious…?" And I started to think I was about to debate him and said "I eat them all the time, I ate some last week, blah blah blah" taking him absolutely seriously. Then he said, "Gotcha" and turned back around. I tried to play it off by going "oh haha" but I felt like I'd been played by sarcasm for the first time. All the other boys I knew made stupid jokes, and this was one of the first ones my age that was sarcastic, actually funny, ALL THE TIME, and good at it.

He quickly became my "rival" in Sunday school class too, since he would always try to raise his hand to answer questions faster than I could. I used to be the one that got everything right, read the Bible aloud, and memorized all the verses. Finally a challenger appeared. XD

I just saw him as superior to all the other boys I knew in every way, and I was crushing hard in a matter of weeks. :P (Later I found out so was he, and we had this episode of texting like every day for a year when we were 15.) We're still friends (we're 18 now), but our lives kind of grew apart. I still think about it though. XD

So there you go.

I also met my first crush in Sunday School! His name was Nolan and he had blond hair, blue eyes, and the cutest butt chin. Nolan happened to be my cousins' neighbor and we ended up playing a lot of manhunt together, cause that's what children do (I still do and I haven't really been a child in years). I was super shy back then, so I never actually talked to him. For whatever reason, he ended up liking me back. He confessed this to my cousin Jordan because they were close friends. Later he and his family moved away to another state and I never got to tell him I had feelings for him too (I was in the fourth grade, so feelings were still pretty gross to me).

Unfortunately, I discovered cancer took him before he graduated high school. This kind of leaves me wondering what life would have been like if I had actually talked to him and kept in touch when he moved away.

I've never had a crush. Back in elementary school everyone was like "who's your crush, Alice?" and I was like "uuuuuuh" because I didn't have one. Apparently if you didn't have a crush you were lying an then they'd pressure you and guess the names of a thousand different random boys and pester you endlessly and it was quite….irritating. So I ended up just telling the name of one of my male friends. And thus, in their eyes, I've had "crushes" on two of my best friends. They still bug me about it sometimes and I'm like "guys, that was years ago" and they're like "uh-huh" and I kind of feel like smacking my head against a wall repeatedly.

Aw that's cute (lol Sunday school for the win).

But it's sad about what happened to him, I'm sorry. :( I often find myself wondering the same things. Like with the boy I had a crush on, it really seemed like we'd be like best friends forever. And then we just… weren't.

Hahaha Alice that's great XD

I'll explain in a second. But first, a list of people and descriptions I mention.
Neve: Male. My current boyfriend. Hazel eyes, and long, light brown hair that reaches just bellow his shoulders. He refuses to get a haircut, but I don't mind. He can be a jerk at times, and his opinions on people are pretty terrible. But, I love him.
Tam: Male. Very tall. Short black hair. I think he has blue eyes; I haven't really looked at them. He's kind of hot headed. He also seems like a complete and total stupid jerk, unless you're friends with him. Even then, he finds fun in messing with you. I think, I'm the only one he doesn't mess with as much, but I have known him since elementary school.
Rose: Female, but identifies as a male (that being said, she's not super picky about what pronouns are used). Short blond hair that is longer on one side. The shorter side of her hair is often pulled to the back in a small ponytail. I believe her eyes
are also blue. She wheres black, square framed glasses. She's silly, and I swear her catch phrase is "That's kinky." It doesn't matter what you're talking about. That's her response.
Kale: Male, but identifies as female (he also isn't picky about pronouns). This is my friend and Rose's boyfriend. He's also friends with Neve. Hes got poofy, curly, short, brown hair. I believe he has blue-green eyes. He wears the same kind of frames as Rose. He's artsy and chill.

Well, my love is kind of overflowing, but at the same time I'm oblivious. So, while I was low-key crushing on my boyfriend, Neve, I thought I was crushing on one of my best friends, Tam. I never found out for sure, but I'm pretty sure Tam knew I had a crush on Neve before I knew. I think, Tam also knew the I was "crushing" on him. He sort of family-zoned me. (like friend-zoning, only closer) It hurt, but then he started subtly talking about me hanging out with Neve a lot. At one point, another friend, Rose, was jokingly making fun of Neve, but I'm a special cookie and took it kind of seriously. So, I was standing up for Neve, listing a bunch of good things about him, and Rose was just slowly starting to smirk. That's when I went quiet and face planted into the table in embarrassment. Then, a school dance came along. Tam wanted me to go meet his girlfriend (at this point, I'm basically a sister who he looks to for approval), but I didn't want to be a third wheel. So, Tam casually said to make Neve go with me. It was a girl ask guy dance, and I was kind of trying to build up the nerve to ask him. Then, one night, I was comforting my friend Kale about his recent-at-the-time ex, and he found out about my crush. So, by this time, these main friends (and many others) were shipping me and Neve together. We got so used to our ship name, that we would both look when it was called. I started being painfully obvious about my crush, but, lucky me, Neve is an oblivious cookie too. I started hanging out with Neve and Kale at a comic book store. And, one day while we were all packing up to go home, Kale said I should just ask Neve. And, Neve said he probably wouldn't say no at this point, since I was joking about making him go anyways. That was when we officially started dating. We did have a cute moment the next day where he awkward tried to confirm that we had started dating. I'll never forget the moment my teasing confidence faded when he asked, "You know how everyone sort of ships us and says we should be a thing? It's kind of annoying now… Do you think they would stop if we were actually a thing?" And, I've been with Neve ever since.

Isabel that's kind of adorable.

@Masterkey thanks XD

@alice Thanks. (>//w\<) Oh, I meant to mention that Rose and Kale got together the day after me and Neve. They are also still together.

I love that whole story Isabel, quality stuff.

@Masterkey Thank chu. (>//w\<)

@isabel I can't believe they got together the day after you and Neve! That's so cute. :)

My first crush was tall, dark and handsome (well, I suspected he was Greek, which made sense). Two flaws in my plan, I would never run in J's circle of friends since he was a grade older than me and his twin sister was on to me. So, to combat those I figured out he played in the band, great! I joined band until I had to quit - that's another story. I figured out he needed a book from my library, and I got it and slipped a note inside! … He left it on the same page when he returned the book and didn't mention it. J joined sports! … you get the picture. I did learn a few lessons after everything, I was really good at singing, I started writing pretty decent poetry and stories and no matter how much you try to hide your crush in high school someone is going to find out. Well, he graduated and I thought that was the end of that after everything. Oh well.
Two years after I graduated college (and had since long gotten over him, I had other things to worry about!) I had coffee with his cousin and she told me that J and his boyfriend just bought their first condo together out in California… so there is my first story!

@Duckie oh no XD

When I was in 8th grade i had a fake crush on a guy who played the same instrument on me. This spiraled into my friends setting us up and us "dating" for three years. I say it in quotes because I forgot about it almost immediately until he broke up with me just last year. My first real crush though, happened about the time he broke up with me, on a girl I met at the school d&d group. We're dating now :)

Aww, I'm glad that worked out between you and your crush! <3

@LiaAron good for you!

When I was in 8th grade, I had convinced myself that I was truly in love with someone online. It was kind of silly, looking back, but even now I remember how exactly it affected me entirely. I was going through an identity complex, as I was discovering who I wanted to be. and what I wanted to surround myself with. In that year of vulnerability, I made the mistake of committing myself to this person entirely– and I ended up confessing to them. At the time that I confessed, that person had earlier undergone a break up. They accepted the relationship, whilst not ever really contacting me. They remained somber, and almost unemotional throughout the beginning- and I assumed it to be because they themselves had been very infatuated. They insisted that they were over their "other"– and I suppose that I believed them. I also believed that I could make them happier, which in turn never actually happened.
After a couple of months, I noticed a complete change in them; I went a week or two without seeing them, without hearing a single word, and I soon grew very worried. The conversations we had when we met were brief, and even blander than before. It turned out at that point, that they were cheating on me. I was so ashamed of it happening, nobody remotely close to me knows that it happened.

It was devastating, but I'm glad it happened.

Today, I find myself in a similar position(Simply infatuated), except that this person is existent in my everyday life. As in, an animate object. I've grown up with their younger brother, as being too shy to really approach them, I haven't really gotten to know them. They are by far the coolest person I know, and growing up, that's what I thought. I hadn't realized that I had feelings for them until about a half of a year ago. Once more, I find myself between a rock and a hard place. I don't want to like them, by any means, due to the fact that they'll be far away soon… and that they are currently in a long-term relationship as well. Relating back to the previous story, I know that it's not in my power, at all, to "Steal" them away. To cause anyone the same pain that I underwent, would be completely unethical to me, and again, I suffer in silence. In a year, they plan to move away, and I plan to remain here. I've fallen in and out of infatuation with them, all self-inflicted, which amazes me when I look at it from afar… oh well.

Makala that's so sad!

It'll be okay though, I have Sherlock season 5 to comfort me in the supposed near future >:00000

Yay Sherlock! I'm looking forward to it too. :)

I forgot to mention my crush on Benedict Cumberbatch…

We first met on finals week. His deducing skills seduced me into forgetting my studies, and instead focusing on cramming a season a day… we were meant to be. <3

@Mere Daaamn. I know it was probably a while ago, but still: internet hugs for you.

Yes! Many many of the internet hugs! <3

I'll join in those hugs. Hugs for all the sad cookies! We must make them smile!