forum Ignore

Started February 07, 2018 by @remarkab.le

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But you are special to me? So why should I hide that, and subsequently hide what a nice, kind, and beautifully handsome person you are? Don't let anyone else tell you otherwise too. I will fight them.

I appreciate it, but my mind had been conditioned to truly believe that letting people appreciate me or that wanting love from other people is selfish. I was taught to only give and not receive.

Well that's freaking stupid and that's also a sign of emotional abuse my dude. You can always change I know, but never forget what you're first conditioned to think. I mean I'm still struggling with that, but not as much as I was before.

The first thing you think is what you've been conditioned to think.
The second thing you think is what you actually think and grow as a person.

I'm also getting more and more tempted just to take you and never return you back but that's kinda illegal. Sorry.

I'd love that but you'd get in a lot of trouble lol. Also I went through a time when I seriously considered emancipating myself but I'd die within two days of being on my own lol

Lol nah. I wouldn't let you die like that. If you're gonna die, you're gonna die an awesome way. We even discussed this yesterday too.

…we did? when?????

You're an anti-hero. You're gonna die via fighting a school shooter or maybe wrestling a god-damn bear.

oh yeah lol

how did you forget that?

idk

So I just now realized that I've never had a real crush, but my fair share of squishes.

That's perfectly okay, crushes suck ass anyway

Much anxiety with crushes. Much less anxiety with squishes. Unless they think it's romantic, then back to the angst.

Huh. Well I have a squish on someone I know irl. We aren't friends or anything and we sometimes talk out martial arts and dragons. I'm not sure if he likes me back, but I don't really care that much. I also have a squish on a few kpop idols that don't even know I exist. (Does that even count?)

I would think so yeah? Really intense desire to befriend and hang out, then yeah?

I used to have a squish on Josh Dun

Well of course you would. It TOP for crying out loud that's like you're most favorite band besides the musical BMC.

I would think so yeah? Really intense desire to befriend and hang out, then yeah?

Yeah. I only have an intense desire to hang out all the time.

Whenever y'all say squish I think about that scene from nemo with dory and the jellyfish and now i can't get that scene out of my head…its just replaying over and over and over

ok i'm gone for one day and almost an entire page is added…

i am both impressed and confused

Lol squishes

What if my emotions towards a person shift between a squish and a crush?!

Then it's probably a crush???

Well, he's my best guy friend. I never get to see him outside of school, but even then we only share two classes. Sometimes I just really want to hang out with him one-on-one. I get to do that with my best gal friend, but never with him. Other times I can't help but think of what it would be to hang out with him in a more-than-platonic way. What I know for sure is that I want to stay his friend no matter what. He's very dear to me. Although the teasing I get from my other friends doesn't help me figure out where I stand it this.

I don't even know why I'm typing this. This is probably the least of my problems right now.