nir

21

ambiguously nonbinary trans person (they/them pronouns)

norbinary, nir, nerd, gogo, estragon, That One They Call Nir, tato

it's me, ya boi. i've not felt like a main character, more of a side or background character - but i am more and more just feeling myself to be a protagonist apart of some main cast, in the before-years of a story in the future!

i haven't measured myself since forever, and the last time i did it i had my shoes on - but it said 170 cm - but i might not be, and i also might have.. grown since then..? it's a mystery.

it's up there

it's not really noticeable as in - Oh Shit Look, There's Nir, Them With The This Bodytype, but still weird: my legs are short and my torso is long, but i don't necessarily have long arms. everyone in my family is like this. except my dog. he's a good boy.
am known to posses a "constant sad/mad face". i am not, necessarily, always, sad and or mad, but the fact still remains,
one really nice flower tattoo

white, pale, but somehow not at the same time, idk

caucasian human

grey

the odd hair there and there, and wonky big eyebrows

short haired masc-leaning but gay look

right now it's my original colour, one i've not seen for years. brown?ish? but i'm getting tired of it, aah, how many colours have i had

i mean, there certainly is a body there. it functions,,,, okaaaaay..... i guess,,,???

i am unsure if i have any talents?

straight forward, open, sometimes talks too much (and regrets it)
caring, tries to be nice, kind and understanding
but can sometimes be too impulsive, which can lead to bad things
sorta bad at socializing due to partial isolation, but getting better

does fingerguns, thumbs up, and waves a lot. prefers not to be touched, especially by random people at random.
does goofy things, is prone to embarrass friends. fidgets

motivated by creativity. has creative dreams and goals i'm trying to achieve. it's hard, as i have a lot of problems with it due to my health and executive dysfunction-y stuffs, but it's getting better - cause i am getting better!
and also i'm also a lazy procrastinator at times - gotta work on my disciplin.
friends motivate me. good people motivate me. i am to be good and do good, and help others out if i can. solidarity's the best word i know.

kind of dumb, to be honest?
impulsive
because of my differing anxieties i've had troubles doing the most basic types of tasks, which has been really limiting, and annoying to people around me (and myself) - but i've gotten a lot better! i'm able to try to live with the anxiety, and push myself through things. i'm doing better now!
kind of weak, and a bit weak-willed, as well as having dreams upon dreams that makes it hard to know what exactly to do!
kinda lazy and procrastinates too much
bad memory, and bad at planning and structure, but it's getting better
and then there's the depression, anxiety and other things - but those aren't really character flaws but more like, life flaws!
and also have self-criticized and self-depreciated a lot, but am trying to get past that.

everyone has a bit of prejudices in them, sadly. this is something one must try to change. it is a constant thing one will have to think about through ones whole life, and learn about. i try to keep vigilant in my perceptions, and my actions and stuff i say, so to not be prejudiced, or hurt anyone through it. and try to change privileged people around me's perceptions too. which is a bit difficult with my bad memory, with me forgetting things to say to explain why people should change + combined with being sort of bad with words, and stuff like that.

theater, writing, music, music making, art, drawing + painting, playing games, nature, birds, space, dnd, plants and gardening, baking, astrology, trying to get into dancing and working out

my so called gay necklace. it was a part gift my best friend, and from my mom. an amethyst chunk, and a trans symbol, on a chain. whenever i wear it i feel more confident and happy. idk, it's nice.
it's gotten an addition - now even more gay! i got a rainbow d4 keychain from my sibling, but it broke of, so i put it on the necklace instead!

none

intersectional feminist
solidarity
punk
anarchistic (but that goes without saying with punk, rly)
black lives matter (that goes together with intersectional feministing)
fix the health system, esp the mental health system - for fucks sake
school system is pretty shitty too.
disability/differently abled rights are important too and should be more thought about and included
anti any type of bigoted ists/isms - they're just bad
fascists needs to perish
anti capitalist
animal rights are important

can't work or study right now cause i'm sick - but i am working towards it, and it's gotten a bit better!

purple, the Gay(TM) colour

all kinds of pasta, pizza, cake, fruit, donuts

magic is my fave thing, but swords are pretty cool too. but i am not so strong, so i gotta train to be able to use em! throwing knives would be cool too, and ooh ooh spears and poles are nice! and also, martial arts r real cool

birds, dogs, bats (bird puppies), rats, cats, but all animals are good and great, rly - but some are still on the shit list:
dolphins, seals, utters (i see u u non consentious fucks)

flunked hs p bad, tried for another year but woops, failed that one too. ech, it was fun for what i got out of it. theater knowledge and a best bud - who i've got dreams together with! we're still good friends.
and i am interested in taking my grade up again, and studying all kinds of creative work, and programming and engineering and game design as well - it might take a whole life to learn all this but i'm excited for it!

too close to christmas, cold and a bit sad, frankly ):

Sad Childs Growin' Up To Be Less Sad Adults!

my big black lab. he's the best, and one my best friends. then he has a sister who we take care of often - she is my child aswell, and extremely sweet. and then he has two extra siblings, two cats my sibling's adopted. good children they are!

i thought this was a fun thing to make and share on the forums - as a person in the discussions thought up
hehe the photo of me was from a play i was in, i played renowned mathematician/physicist mobeus 's young child. what a role.