forum Schoolidoots (PRIVATE-ISH)

Started May 25, 2019 by @ShadeStar

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"You're hurting. It's instilled in us as humans to want to help others who are hurting."

Lloyd blinked away tears and looked away. "But I should be helping other people who are hurting… not making them help me."

"You're not making them help you. They're helping because they want to."

"But… other than the fact that I'm a complete mess, why would you want to expend your precious resources to keep someone who is ultimately unimportant alive?"

"Because life sucks and I want to make other people's lives suck as little as possible."

Lloyd quickly tried to brush away tears. "I… I-I…" He stuttered a bit, but couldn't come up with anything to say.

She smiled a little at him. "Relax, everything's okay. You can cry, emotions aren't something that you should suppress."

"B-But if I start crying, then I… t-then I won't be able to stop." Lloyd's voice wavered a bit. "I-I always just end up finding more things to cry about…"

"Well, we've got time and I've got patience so unleash the waterworks."

Lloyd drew in a shaky breath, a couple tears rolling down his pale cheeks. He sat down against the wall with his knees up to his chest, hiding his face as he'd done before.

She sat next to him, drawing him into her arms loosely. She didn't say anything, knowing it was better for him to just cry in silence.

Lloyd sobbed quietly, trembling slightly. I can't do this… I don't want to do this to her… but I can't move, and I can't stop, can I? He leaned against Belle quietly, trying and failing to stop himself.

She smiled a little. Lloyd had been like this since they were kids, never wanting to burden anyone else with his problems until she forced him to sit down and talk about them.

The tips of Lloyd's slack wings were visible through the bottom of his hoodie, but at this point, he didn't really care. He started holding his breath again since it occasionally helped him to either force himself to calm down or pass out, which was typically a win win situation.

"Lloyd, you are not going to make yourself pass out again. I know you want to but it's healthier to just let everything out, not hold it all in."

Lloyd hesitated before letting himself breathe, hiccuping a bit. His sobs were muffled because of the way his face was hidden, but they were still noticeable. "I-I'm sorry…"

"Shh, it's okay. There's nothing to be sorry for."

"You have to deal with my crap all the time… t-that's enough cause to be sorry." Lloyd said quietly.
(Lloyd doesn't like swearing lol)

"Lloyd, if I didn't like dealing with your crap, I wouldn't do it."

Lloyd bit his quivering lip, tears still streaming down his hidden face. "I… I really love you, Belle… in an entirely platonic way, of course, considering, you know…" I'm gay and stuff.

Lillian started wandering about the school. It was lunch and then she had a free period, thank god for that. She wanted to find Lloyd and Belle.

"Since you're gay, I know. But I still love you, ya dork."

Lloyd looked up at the sound of footsteps, moving closer to Belle. "W-What was that?"

"Probably Lillian coming to look for us. Relax, worrywart."

Lillian heard voices and turned a corner to find Lloyd and Belle. She let out a little sigh, "There you guys are. What was that back there?"