@ElderGod-yellowqueen
Ariella did not like how far Dominic was digging. Asking her these questions, no one ever asked her these questions. Her brother had never bothered, her sisters couldn't care less, all the suitors had only asked questions a frog could answer. Emory had offered to teach her once and she had quickly shut him down, reminding him of what they were. He had dug too deep and she had shot up a wall between them. It had been but the beginning of the end of their relationship. She couldn't risk falling in love, especially not with a commoner. Not because she believed him unworthy but of what would become of him should her family find out about him. And love, well love made things complicated. Her life was complicated enough as it was. She didn't want to add anymore to it.
Must she be taught? Teaching her would only put her in his vicinity further and that was what she was trying to do. She was trying to wedge a wall between them and freeze her heart back over. But how could she do that? She wouldn't abandon him to his nightmares. Not when she could ease the terrors. She wasn't cruel. Well, she was, but he had begun to thaw her heart and she wouldn't leave him to that demise. But sleeping in his bed put her around him enough as it was. And they were sleeping most of the time. But Dominic teaching her to ride would mean they were conscious and actively speaking to one another. Or at least acknowledging each other. And what would she wear? She didn't own trousers. She didn't think she had ever worn a pair of trousers in her life. It had always been gowns. She loved her gowns. But she didn't think she could ride very well in a gown. At least not straddling a horse.
She didn't dare mention any of this. She didn't need him or anyone else thinking less of her. It was almost like she could feel all of their stares on her, feeling them judge her. She hated it. Ariella was so distracted with her own head that she didn't even realize they had stopped. It wasn't until Ansel was half dragging her off of Buttercup that she snapped back to the present with a small jolt. "Easy," Ansel murmured. "Don't take my head off, just helping you down."
She gave him a wisp of a smile and murmured a small thank you. She nodded her head at the stable hands that had come to collect and handle their horses. She gave Buttercup one last pet before stepping away from the stables. "We'll go the gallery first. After that, I would like to see what they have at the market." She turned to Dominic. "You don't have to follow us. If you have business to attend to, I won't delay you." She was praying he would say he had to go and then just leave,. She didn't think she could handle any more embarrassment today.