(sorry for the wait, I've been busy!)
Edward stilled faintly when Sabbas rested his head on his shoulder, blinking at the Spaniard for a moment. "I…yes." he replied faintly. "You…you seem quite good at turning my world upside down." he leaned his head against Sabbas's, closing his eyes for a moment as he relaxed in the Spaniard's presence.
(It's all good! :D )
Sabbas laughed quietly. "I am good at many things, you see. That is why I am here with you now." The feeling of Edward's head against him was calming. He closed his eyes, enjoying the silence and being in Edward's presence. His heartbeat slowed. If it wasn't daytime, he probably would fall alseep. He opened his eyes, breifly taking a glance up at Edward. As softly as he could, he whispered, "You are heavenly."
(:D)
Edward smiled a little bit at Sabbas's words, humming faintly. "Thank you." he said softly. "And you, darling ambassador, are wonderful." he stayed still, head still resting against the ambassador's. This moment was everything. It was…it just simply was. He knew that when he went to bed, he would be replaying this time through his head, thinking about it until sleep claimed him.
"Why thank you, my dear Edward." Laughing once again, he closed his eyes. "A heavenly king and his darling ambassador." Just the two of them together. He wondered, "Would you want to be together like this soon?" This moment, he loves it. He won't ever forget this. In fact, the memories of this will have him distracted for the rest of the week. The memories of Edward, his heavenly dear.
"What do you mean?" he asked, a touch confused on what Sabbas was asking him. "I, ah, I'm afraid that I don't really understand." he stayed still, snuggled close to Sabbas. He slowly wrapped an arm around the ambassador's shoulders, hand resting lightly on Sabbas's shoulder.
"Oh, I am sorry." Did he get his words mixed up again? Frowning at himself, he bit the inside of his cheek. But as the self-frustration was about to settle, he felt Edward wrapping his arm around him. He tensed up, not really familiar with this, yet soon, his body naturally relaxed, cuddling against Edward. "What I meant was…as Edward and Sabbas together as lovers…like how we are now…close together…Uh…Will we be able to do something like this again?" He hoped his question makes more sense. "Like may we…in secret at a time you wish…may we meet and be together again, like the way we are now?"
He hummed a little, processing Sabbas's stammering. "Yes, that makes sense." he responded. "And…I would like that, Sabbas." his mouth pulled into a soft, gentle little smile. "I really, really would. It sounds lovely." if they could only find the time for it. Edward's schedule was not always forgiving.
Sabbas shut his eyes briefly. He breathed a sigh of relief. Thank God. Sometimes he does not make sense to himself. Opening his eyes, he gazed up at Edward. His heart leaped with excitement. It jumped around with glee. "Ah good, good." He slightly nodded. "I am sure we will find time to. I know you are a busy man, a busy king. Even if time is being temperamental, I believe we will be able to have moments like this."
He smiled a little bit, looking at Sabbas with a soft, sweet fondness in his eyes. "We will find time for these moments." he confirmed contentedly, closing his eyes for a moment and leaning his head against Sabbas's again, basking in the Spaniard's presence. In the touch and speech of another, someone who did not hold expectations on him, who would not begin speaking of scripture and the Lord's expectations.
Tension in his mind withered into ease. It's okay, Sabbas thought to himself, everything is alright. He was not sure how he came to know of this, yet the expression in Edward's eyes told him so. An expression that he never had come to see with any other person he'd involved himself with, even the ones where he thought there was affection. This is different. Sabbas smiled back before looking down at the floor. His hand rested on Edward's chest. He closed his eyes.
(sorry for the wait!!)
Edward sighed very quietly, soft and relaxed and calm, here in Sabbas's arms. It was so…easy. Soft and calm here together and god, he knew he shouldn't enjoy it the way he did. But he did, and what could he do but let it be? He shifted faintly, but did not let go of the Spaniard in his arms.
Underneath his hand, he felt Edward's heart beating. Its rhythm soothing him. Every little detail assured he will be alright, that they will be alright. Sabbas was unsure of how he would describe what he is feeling being in the English king's arms or this feeling about being with him that lays in his heart. "Do you enjoy this?" He whispered. The side of his thumb brushed above the soft heartbeats. Sabbas hummed faintly.
Edward's breath left him in a slow, soft exhale, and he nodded slightly. "I do." he replied in a soft tone. His skin burned beneath his clothes where Sabbas's thumb brushed against his chest, a tingle racing along him as he processed all that had happened that day. It felt like so much, and yet, was it really?
Sabbas smiled. He removed his thumb, only to kiss the pad of his thumb. It returned to the king's chest, gently rubbing to the rhythm of Edward's heartbeats. If he listened to them more, he would only be putting himself to sleep. As if he wasn't in a dream already. "Eduardo, mi amor." Sabbas slightly tilted his head, just enough to look up at Edward. "Do you enjoy my presence? Me?"
(read "Eduardo", went "who tf is eduardo" and then remembered that it's just the Spanish version of Edward lmao)
"Did I not just answer this question?" Edward asked in a soft, slightly amused tone, looking down at Sabbas through half open blue eyes. "I do, Sabbas. I enjoy your presence." this was a strange feeling, sure, but not an unwelcome one. Never an unwelcome one, though he wondered if he would still feel the same later, in his chambers that night, alone in the darkness with only the weight of God's eyes on his heart. Would he still feel the same about it then?
(lmao. i thought it would be cute if Sabbas called Edward "Eduardo" in Spanish)
He did ask the same question, didn't he? Sabbas hid his face in Edward's side. A wave of heat flowed through his face. Once he had taken a deep breath, he moved away to gaze up at him. "You did, and I thank you for answering it twice," He laughed gently. "I do not know why I asked such a question twice." Sitting up a bit, only to stroke the side of Edward's face.
(it is! I'm just Dumb sometimes lmao)
He hummed faintly, closing his eyes as Sabbas's touch grazed against his skin. "I do not know either." he replied softly. He was trying so hard to let himself enjoy this moment, but doubts and worries were already creeping into the edges of his mind, already beginning to make him think. Did he have any meetings he needed to attend? Would anyone be looking for him? Would anyone think to look for him here, and if they did…what could happen?
Sabbas looked over his shoulder at the door then returned his gaze to Edward. His eyes squinted then softened. "Seems like you are not enjoying yourself in this moment…or at least you were." He let his fingers trace along the edges of Edward's jaw. In a rather rash decision, he stood up from the chair only to gently get on Edward's lap while facing him. From there, he returned to caressing. "What is the matter, my dear? Something seems to be clinging onto your mind, I can only imagine."
Edward inhaled as Sabbas settled in his lap, going almost impossibly still. "I am…only worried again." he replied in a soft voice, leaning into Sabbas's touch and closing his eyes, shaking his head minutely. "This is…if we are caught…" he cleared his throat quietly, opening his eyes to study Sabbas. "I am only worried." he repeated. "I am sorry that I am ruining the mood again."
The corners of his lips dipped into a faint frown. Worry is such a terrible thing in the way that sometimes it seeps into everything. Getting caught is a fear that hangs over both of their heads. "You will be alright regardless of what happens," Sabbas promised. Smiling softly, he cupped Edward's cheek. "Oh Eduardo," He cooed. "It is fine. I am here for you no matter the state of the mood. I worry for you. I care for you."
(sorry for the wait!)
Edward leaned into the hand on his cheek, exhaling faintly. "Alright." he said softly. "I am still sorry, though. I am…I am worrying when there is no need of that, and it is not helpful or necessary for me to do so." he watched Sabbas, studying the way Sabbas's hair fell, the way his eyes caught the light and the line of his jaw, the swell of his Adams apple. This man that sat in his lap, touching him in a way precious few had ever done before.
There is something about Edward's eyes that captivate Sabbas. They glisten in a light of their own. They speak when his tongue is still. Sabbas could see a glimpse of worry in them, but he looked away momentarily once he realized that Edward was staring him. A light shade of pink rose on his face. "Worrying, it is natural for us to do," He whispered. "It is quite dangerous on its own, but I know you will be alright." His finger delicately traced along the edges of Edward's lips and jaw. The softness underneath his fingertip left him sighing.
Edward was still, a faint breath leaving him as Sabbas's finger traced along his jaw, across his lips. No one touched him like this. No one. The sensation was…a strange one, but welcome all the same. More than welcome, really. He almost didn't know how to process it, didn't know how to respond to it other than to lean into that gentle little touch.
Oh how Sabbas envied his fingertip. The thought sounds absolutely strange. It gets to take in how soft Edward is. It gets to trace along and feel his features. He feels Edward leaning into this. Just thinking about it all makes Sabbas's lips tremble. He couldn't help but think about what if it were his lips instead. He wants it to be his lips. To just incessantly kiss every single inch of Edward, just thinking about it made him shiver.
He couldn't. As much as his heart began to yearn for it, he did not want to force Edward and make haste. "Eduardo, I wish you could see the way you look right now. You are so breathtaking," Sabbas smiled. He held Edward's cheek. "I just want to caress and hold you all day and night. You are divine."
Edward's mouth pulled in the faintest twitch of a smile, and he kept leaning into Sabbas's touch. "Mm, well. Thank you." he said faintly. "I…would like the same." it was not possible, of course, but it was a beautiful dream. A beautiful dream to hold onto, when he was alone in his bed tonight, alone, as he was every night. But those were melancholy thoughts, that he did not wish to entertain. He wanted to stay in this moment, in this time, where Sabbas held onto him and they were oh so close together.