”Serena, stop your crying,” Serena blinked when the rough voice filled her ears. She blinked again, looked up, and found her father’s stern face staring back at her, but he looked like a giant. He was so tall.Looking at her hands, Serena realized one thing; her father hadn’t turned into a giant.
No, she was just a little child. She’d gone back in time. She remembered this moment.
“But—but I can’t kill it,” her little, sobbing voice filled her ears, and Serena felt tears running down her cheeks. She had no control over her actions or her words, but she knew everything that happened next in great detail. “I’m not strong!”
Her father’s face turned harsh and he forced her to hold the knife, directing it towards the squirming rabbit. Serena’s eyes filled with tears again.
”Please, dad,” she said weakly, trying to fight him off, but failed. Her father was stubborn, just like her. “I don’t want to! I don’t want to be a killer!”
”The Fae are all killers! What will you do when your mother and I are no longer here to protect you? How will you eat if you can’t even hunt!”
”Darling, she’s just a child,” her mother tried convincing her father as Serena sobbed harder, desperately wishing the rabbit would escape. But it didn’t. It couldn’t. It was trapped. “She can’t do this.”
“Yes, she can,” her father said harshly, shrugging off her mother’s hand and addressing Serena again. “Do it, Serena, or next time, you’ll have to skin it, too.”
Serena knew what happened next. She’d squeezed her eyes shut, and killed it. She could still feel its warm blood on her fingers. She could still remember the rabbit looking straight into her eyes. And she could still hear her father’s next words.
”I’m sorry, Serena,” he said softly, rubbing her head as she cried. “The Fae will never be merciful. You need to learn how to survive, and for that, you need to know to hunt. One day, it’ll get easier.”
He had been wrong. The killing never got easy. To prove her point, as little Serena cried, the rabbit’s face shifted into a human face. Eyes wide, mouth bloody, lifeless. It was her father, dead after what Scythe did to him.
Serena’s eyes snapped open as she shot up with a gasp, then gasping as pain struck her. She groaned, wrapping her arms around herself, whimpering, hoping the pain would lessen.
“Shit,” she cursed breathlessly, her world spinning slightly. She stopped breathing, hoping it would calm the pain, but it didn’t. Why did she have to get that dream right now? She wanted a peace of mind, but she knew she would never have it unless she avenged their deaths and protected Alec. She needed to. She had to. There was no other choice.