forum Another rp // one on one // closed

Started December 17, 2019 by @saor_illust school

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“Just bad dreams. That’s all.” He mumbled rubbing his eyes with a sigh. “Nothing to worry about.”

"What kind of bad dreams?" Lilith looked at Adam with kind of a concerned look but at the same time a stern look.

"It was nothing really." He said attempting to hide the one drawing. "Just something I didn't care for." Adam attempted to push away the topic.

"What's that?" LIlith asked, pointing to the drawing that Adam was obviously trying to hide.

"Nothing." Adam said a little to eagerly. "I just don't like the way it looks…" He slid it from under his arm and folded it so she couldn't see it.

LIlith didn't push it any harder, she didn't want to lose the only friendship she had. "Okay… tell me when you're ready, okay?" she said, sighing a little.

"Ready for what?" He asked tossing the paper in the small trashcan.

"To tell me about whatever it is you're hiding. I'm not going to pressure you so… yeah I guess tell me when you're ready…" Lilith looked around the small room.

Adam looked to the ground. "You really don't have to worry about it Lilith…" He mumbled, toeing the ground.

"'Course I do, you're my friend!" Lilith chirped. "Besides that…" she was cut off by a small breeze from an unknown source filtered into the room, and she shuddered a bit, but shrugged it off. Her own fears weren't important right now, though fear flickered briefly in her eyes. It was an irrational fear, she knew that. But she couldn't help it. Not really. "Besides that," she started again. "Friends look after friends. It's what friends do."

"Then why won't you tell me what's bothering you when I ask?" Adam frowned, crossing his arms. "It doesn't seem fair, whatever it is, I can handle it Lili." He yearned to know why she seemed scared, he felt protective over her. Wishing to help her, but he was unable. She never would tell him.

"Sorry…" Lilith gave him a half-grin, although it didn't show happiness it it. But rather, a hint of sadness showed. "It's… complicated. Adam, have you ever had a family member die before?"

He nodded. "Oh yeah, my sister died at birth, and my father died. My older brothers' never around, so it kinda feels like he is dead…" He trailed off looking to her. "Why do you ask?"

"Uh… okay this is going to be a little weird…" she laughed nervously. "Well, uh…" Curse you! she thought to herself. Just spit it out already! Get it over with! Lilith took a deep breath and prepared to start over. Then she realized that the problem wasn't that it was weird, but rather… she didn't want to talk about it. She didn't want to remember. She shook her head slightly, mostly to herself though. Get it together. Just get it over with. He deserves to know. "Ah, uh…" she started again, finally spitting it out in a quiet mumble, looking away. "I'm dead…"

"You-you're… dead?" He asked a little bewildered at this. "But, you're imaginary. I thought…" He wasn't sure what to think, she just told him- what exactly? A ghost? A spirit? "What does that make you, technically?"

Lilith clenched one of her fists tighter, she still had that paper, the paper that still kept her going. She didn't like talking about this anymore. Why did she need to tell him again? "I- I don't know…" she whispered, a lump forming in her throat. She didn't like where this conversation was going. All she was doing was- No. She couldn't. She was real. Real as ever. But you need to accept this. You're dead. Get it over with. It's not a big deal, a small voice inside her whispered, and she tensed up, squeezing her eyes shut.

Adam nodded gently, turning away from her. "I'm sorry- I'm pushing it too far. Aren't I?" He asked with a whisper of a tone, making his way over to his bed. "Don't lie to me Lilith. I know I did."

"No…" she started to say, but then shook her head. She wanted just to shake it off and pretend everything was normal. But she couldn't, there was an unknown force holding her back, and she couldn't understand it.

“Are you sure? I don’t want to upset you.” He replied to her trail off response. She was his only good friend, he didn’t want to loose her. If he messed things up, he wouldn’t forgive himself. Probably ever.

"I'm fine," she whispered, though her voice was extremely quiet. "I'm fine," she repeated, her voice a little stronger now. I'm fine, I'm fine, she repeated to herself inside her head, hoping that if she told herself that enough times then eventually it would be true.

“If you say so…” He mumbled watching her carefully. He didn’t want her to be upset, but what could he do besides listen? And if she wasn’t ready to talk, there was nothing to do.

Lilith stayed silent for awhile, regaining her composure. She straightened up, her eyes a little colder than she would've ideally liked, but she couldn't change that. It made it easier to pretend that everything was fine. "So," she started in a fake happy voice. "Have you had breakfast yet?"

Adam looked at her and just tried to get back to their comfortable state. “No, not yet.” He mumbled, hugging himself around the waist in an awkward way. “I was waiting for you to get here.”

"Come on, you should go eat," Lilith said, as she walked towards the door, glancing briefly at the clock in Adam's room to see that it said 7.13. It didn't mention whether it was in the morning or afternoon, but judging by the weather and level of brightness outside, she could easily tell that it was still morning.

“Ok, I’m coming.” He perked up some, shuffling after her. “I don’t know if my mother is awake or not.”