"Okay.."Bael said reluctantly. "Just, uh…promise not to laugh, okay?"
He was genuinely anxious at this point, but he slowly, painfully spread his wings, revealing them in all their lack of glory. They were ragged and dirty, missing huge chunks of feathers and crusted in dried blood. There were a couple places that were crooked, indicating old broken bones that hadn't healed properly, and they were peppered with burns. Underneath the dirt they were a soft grey, but it was almost impossible to tell. They were really quite hideous, hardly wings at all. But Bael stretched them out around him closing his eyes as he worked out the kinks and stretched them to their full extent. Their full extent wasn't very far; one of them only unfolded halfway before it stopped, his muscles straining to stretch it further, and the other one seemed to catch at a certain point, twitching downwards awkwardly.
“I think they look great! You should be afraid of them. They’re amazing! Honest.” Yuki tried to sound as genuine as possible. I mean, I do think they look great. I wonder why he’s afraid of showing them? They make him look stronger.
Bael grimaced, pulling out a couple dead feathers. "Relics of the Fall," he growled, looking at them with dislike. "They hurt all the time, and I can't fly, so what's the point? Might as well just rip 'em off."
He stopped talking then, remembering what his wings used to be. That memory, though distant, of soaring through the clouds, was the only thing keeping him from doing as he threatened. Even now, the sun soaking into the damaged feathers felt so good, easing the aches and sores that constantly plagued him in Hell.
"Useless pieces of junk," he muttered, looking away. "I'd much rather look at yours."
Yuki looked somewhat upset. He knew he was bothered, so he hid his wings. “I feel like I’m just showing off now… I’m really sorry I brought it up… you alright?”
"Nah, I wanted to stretch them. Some punks down in Hell thought it'd be funny to try and mess with them today, look, they cut open the muscles back here." He twisted to show Yuki two ragged, still bleeding cuts on his wings close to his back. "I got rid of them, of course, but it still hurts. I'll be okay though." He eyed Yuki through the corner f his vision. "Was looking forward to getting up here to talk to you. You're a welcome distraction from pain, that's for sure."
Yuki looked worried and tilted his head. “Why don’t you treat it? It could get really infected.”
"What's the point?" Bael shrugged. "Nothing stays clean in Hell, and it's not like it could really hurt me. That's the joy of it all, innit? I can get hurt as much as you please, and still be alive to take more. Might as well just let things take their course, and not worry about it. They'll heal, eventually."
(To any RPers, I have been recently having a lot of mind grains that have been pushing me away from everything. I have been light headed a lot and haven’t been able to think properly. I will be pausing out of RPs, or if necessary, leaving all of them. I’m sorry for this. I haven’t been 100% able to do anything, my anxiety is building and I need breaks. Sorry.)
(Oh, no, no worries at all!! Take all the time you need, I totally get it. <3 I hope you feel better soon :)
(Thanks, I hope we can continue when I feel more in check. Thank you soooo much for your understanding.)
(Me too, I really am enjoying this one. And of course! It's the least I can do <3)
(I’ll check in tomorrow if I feel better, I’ve been improving.)
(Woohoo, that's awesome to hear! <3)