@AloeVera groupMentallyImInACottage
That's amazing thank u,
That's amazing thank u,
you guys those are all so good!
I'm still here
I'm still here
lying in the shadows
shedding silent tears
Crying out my worst fears
that no one seems to hear
They've all forgotten the girl
they teased beyond control
Giving me anxiety
that refused to let me go
But I'm still here
In a hell of their own making
I think I'm gonna end it all
because I'm tired of the smile I'm faking
They think that I've forgotten
the horrid names said
directed right me
They never let it end
So now while their monsters are sleeping
I'll take my revenge
get rid of their plaything that happened
to be my head
those last two lines oh my god
Agreed
Here's some spur of the moment bullshite.
Depression,
is a funny little thing.
You're "cool" for having it
and its portrayed as angst
But you see,
when I was told
that my boyfriend tried to
kill himself
I felt nothing
I didn't even feel
as if I was breathing
nothing
Sitting upright in bed,
barely able to feel your soft blankets
your head not even there
you feel nothing
and you know its not right
They pressure you to be normal
They push you to be happy
You see their smiles
you copy them, but it's not the same
You cry silently,
fearful
that they will find you
and mock you
they mock you, for being a
"snowflake"
they mock you, for
locking yourself alone
the smack you, to get your attention
when all you want to do
is drown out
that constant emptiness
They ignore your pleas
your few gasps for help
because they are above you
and you are nothing
"You're not normal!
You do nothing,
you will become nothing
but a mere janitor." They taunt
"Open up to me." One cries,
as they push duct tape
over your mouth…
but you don't struggle
"What are you doing?" Another asks
as you write down
all their wrongdoings
that you'll never tell
because you don't want to hurt them
You become a void
you become empty
you cannot feel
because depression is a funny little thing….
I'm still here
I'm still here
lying in the shadows
shedding silent tearsCrying out my worst fears
that no one seems to hear
They've all forgotten the girl
they teased beyond controlGiving me anxiety
that refused to let me goBut I'm still here
In a hell of their own making
I think I'm gonna end it all
because I'm tired of the smile I'm fakingThey think that I've forgotten
the horrid names said
directed right me
They never let it endSo now while their monsters are sleeping
I'll take my revenge
get rid of their plaything that happened
to be my head
a m a z i n g
You become a void
you become empty
you cannot feel
because depression is a funny little thing
Holy shit this is amazing
I'm trying
Your failing
at school
at home
at life I know
I…I'm trying
these are the words that circle my brain
some are fleeting yet they're all the same
I can't escape
They say that I'm lazy
That I can't focus
They're screaming
screaming I can't get away
But I swear to you I'm trying
Breaking down crying
you say that I'm lying
But I'm not
I've been trying
everyday I'm trying
Trying not to fall apart
trying not to lose my heart
like everybody else did
Kids I've known all my life
suddenly strangers overnight
Smoking crack smoking weed
on everything in between
I just don't understand
how they don't see
that out of everyone
I'm
The only one still trying
beautiful…
Whoaa
i'm working on one currently sorry to leave you guys hanging
i forgot the notebook in my locker and am waiting for passing period to go snatch it
also sorry but i gotta rant
so i saw a girl walking in the hallway with a hoodie that had my crush's last name on it
i don't know if it's his sister or girlfriend and am low-key triggered, confused, and depressed rn
bruh that poem's amazing
oof here's one from awhile ago
I’m centuries old
Just a toddler in your mind
But you are much too cold
And somehow just so blind.
The problem is that I’m stuck
Until you find a solution
So isn’t that just my luck?
And your own self pollution
I’ve decided to walk around
And acquaint myself with your world
Do you even hear a sound
Of those voices that I’ve curled?
The mountains are quite pretty
Your sunsets are wonderful
Yet why is it so deserted?
It should be so colorful
This is why I want to leave
Just like everyone else
Your very soul makes me grieve
My hardened heart, it melts
Broken beauty, and so on it goes
Justifying its deception
Don’t you see that nothing grows
In such a misconception?
Please let me be, I want to go
I’ll never return to haunt you
Just take your heart and turn to stone
I don’t know why anyone would want you
Our world
is so corroded
How far we have
Fallen! How did we get
from the wide-eyed, innocent children we
once were to the fire-breathing, clawed demons
that dominate our twisted culture today?
This injustice swirls inside me.
Aerosol in a can
The pressure and
heat here
makes
me threaten
to violently explode
break each other and
use their bones as building
blocks to claw your way to
the top. The earth is human flesh;
Our rivers are crimson, metallic-smelling blood
Tyrants rake the earth to
Plant their wrathful seeds
Blood waters the
seeds, producing
a
cycle of
torturous, murderous, pointless,
controlled, overlorded, endless, blood-filled,
dehumanizing, terrible, horrifying, wretched, loathsome
terrifying, detestable, vile beastly, atrocious, repulsive
abhorrent, appalling, petrifying, gruesome, harrowing, dire, unnerving
apostacy
Withered
Shifting in the light breeze, a blossom bloomed
Her colorful leaves gently opened
Frightful but curious
Looking at the world around her she deemed it beautiful
Other blossoms bloomed around her
Many colors sizes and shapes
They laughed with joy amongst themselves
The blossom tried to join them in their joy
But soon she was outcasted
The young blossom grew with time
Her petals flourished yet scars marked them
Noticing these blemishes, the others left her
There was no place in the world for the blossom
With time people came by, taking the flowers they deemed beautiful
Others were chosen in front of her eyes
Joy and love were met with those lucky enough
But the blossom was never chosen
Hiding within her petals she shut the world out around her
Echoes of perril
No escape
Her petals grew black
Her world became dark
Her heart cold
No one would love her
No one would care
The color disappeared, her beauty fading
Giving up, a single decision
Down into the shadows below
She fell, shifting in the light breeze
So edgy
She's gone
The girl who's smile wasn't faked
the one who still believed it would be a good day
She acted like sun would never set
And the light would never leave
That's what she was told the world would be
But their lies quickly faded as the truth finally showed
The earth is cruel bitter and cold
no one is safe from the real world
the one that causes scars
Where people get off at causing others harm
So take a good look parents
do you like what you see
just remember this is what happened
because you weren't honest with me
Dad you didn't warn me about how boys only wanted one single thing
and weren't above using their force on me
Mom you never said how girl could be so mean
how your imperfections were what got you teased
You both said I was perfect oh how much bullshit that was
cause now I'm insecure
about things that I had never noticed before
You should have told me
what would lay before In the world of anorexic models
and guys calling girls slutty whores
So thanks for all your lies
and your stupid "protection"
cause now I'm depressed and wanna die
AH these are amazing!!!
(a song for English, now I need to actually use instruments) (I have no idea how to write the music for a song halP)
Ruler
(chorus)
I ran through the mountains down to the red sea
I called to the waves and said oh, oh, oh, I make myself the king
I said oh, oh, oh, I make myself the king
(verse 1)
They still only see who they thought I would be
I told them who I knew I was going to be
Now I kicked through the sand, I was breaking their chains
They’d given me more than enough of their pain
I called to the great predators of the air
I searched for the beasts still asleep in their lairs
I found them too numb to even try to move
The ocean was frozen, my fears had been proved
I ran through the mountains down to the red sea
I called to the waves and said oh, oh, oh, I make myself the king
I said oh, oh, oh, I make myself the king
(verse 2)
Looking for smoke and a still-water sea
When they found one, replaced it with their dreams
I hated their songs and dry waves and fake care
I knocked down their dreams clothed in my nightmare
Rebellion woke up, taking my small hand
Whispered in my ears ways to the promised land
I took one more step and I fell to the waves
Knowing there were still people left to be saved
I ran through the mountains down to the red sea
I called to the waves and said oh, oh, oh, I make myself the king
I said oh, oh, oh, I make myself the king
(verse 3)
They wrapped round my neck, moaning my first name
Gripping my face and crying without shame
I shut my eyes tight so I could see the crown
Floating above as they dragged me deep down
My new name was sounded, they came to a halt
A note and we were found without a fault
I pulled off their hands, surfacing in the storm
It passed with a nod and the water was warm
(bridge)
I said oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
I’d run through the mountains down to the red sea
I swam in the waves and made myself their king
I said oh, oh, oh, I make myself the king
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
I crown myself my king
(a song for English, now I need to actually use instruments) (I have no idea how to write the music for a song halP)
oh oof
(I can play piano, guitar and ukulele, KiNd oF) (but I've only actually composed 1 song and it's bad so plees any ideas??)
Dunno. Maybe try singing it in your head, just to come up with ideas for a melody, and then put that on piano? And then, like, add chords and stuff? I've never written a song before lmao
(i reaaally like this song if you can write on sheet music it i guess i can sing it for you)
Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
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