Honestly I don't know what to say other than my writing is pretty shit, My grammar is awful, I sometimes get asked if English is my first language (it is), don't know how to describe things, hardly updates my character page and I'm generally find it hard to be productive and spend more time researching than writing, I don't want to abandoned my project and leave it in development hell like Yandere Simulator, What to do
Read.
Like, so much.
leave it in development hell like Yandere Simulator
This was funnier to me than it should have been
Do little writing prompts!
There are different places you can find short little prompts to write with, it's good practice. Especially if you struggle with descriptions and such.
Also World building, You have to fall in love with your world with your project. Once you love it describing it is a lot easier because you'll want to show them off, in a "Look at my son!" Kind of way.
Another thing is that some elements of my story feel a bit cliche, eg. The plucky heroine saves boys from their magical predicaments with not much depth other than somewhat of black and white moral compass
hey, maybe you're just at that art stage where you have better taste than ability, if that makes sense? like you know enough about writing to know what good writing looks like, but you haven't worked on it to the point where what you do meets your own aesthetic standards.
I don't have a magic fix to that other than what it sounds like you're already doing? you're looking at where you are and where you want to be and pointing out small specific things that you think you need to work on. so all that's left is to tackle those points - find resources on specific ways of doing that and then implement them.
so for example, you said you struggle with your descriptions. maybe a starting point would be to research what makes a description effective, then to practice with small individual unrelated paragraphs, and then go back to your main project with what you've learned and see if it works better?
writing is a skill that requires effort just like anything else, so it's perfectly reasonable that you're not immediately capable of everything you want to be.
hey, maybe you're just at that art stage where you have better taste than ability, if that makes sense?
Yes yes yes! I hate this feeling and it has killed my creative motivation for everything at least once! One thing I've learned in all the years ive been creating is that when you're learning rapidly and developing more taste and standards, you will feel like you suck, but it is because you're learning so fast. Developing standards is so much quicker than developing skill so your skill will fall behind, but it is not your fault! Best way to balance it out again is to just fail a few times. Don't get too attached to what you're working on that time and work on small mini projects that you can view as a personal tool rather than a product. Maybe short stories about your favorite character; disposable if it flops, but still personal enough to make the practice personal, interesting and fun for yourself.