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Started January 17, 2019 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

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Update: I've officially lost all my confidence when it comes to speaking/typing/words/etc, but other than that I seem to be doing better.
Just don't expect me to talk as much-

That's alright, Ella, I love ya, y'know, and you're a saint in my book!

Thank you, Shuri…

i explained to the boys who freddie mercury was and one of them was like "wait didnt he die from aids" and another one said "serves him right" and everyone laughed hhhaha don't mind me i'l just fucking die ig

Adklsbx our music teacher played another one bites the dust footage the other day and all the guys laughed at his outfit and were saying we could be better than him and i just nO NO YOU COULDN'T

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He's so unappreciated by the younger generations it makes me sad. He's was sincerely a music genius

I feel that 100%.

honestly

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My dad got sent an Email I'm not turning in homework assignments and he told me to fix it and of course his phone had to go and send the same text twice. I responded saying I will work on it immediately and that there was no reason to send the same text twice. He immediately said to not talk to him that way and to get rid of my attitude. I didn't have one. This is why I hate texting sometimes because you can't really give context. Though now thanks to all that I keep thinking, and I. That kinda made me annoyed and it was only one assignment. Thanks to my low self esteem and confidence already I am having quite negative thoughts. Though I already know no one on this site really cares or can really help anything. I know that some of these thoughts probably have truth behind them and are just facts. I can't stop crying, and I know it was one message. But I just can't handle the pressure at times I just don't know. There is so much pressure to pass and succeed but I don't know if I can at times. I'm just not sure. People say that school shouldn't be everything but how can it not when you get so much work piled on you. It probably isn't a lot but I just feel so behind. At times I feel really alone and don't know. I'm just not sure.

hugs I know the feel…

We do care and we're here for you no matter what.

Thanks Ella

ur dad sounds annoying and i feel ur pain w all my heart

I'm sorry to hear that man, I have worked piled up from two months ago and haven't done anything because I haven't had the motivation and am constantly in a state of depression. I've been absent for 24 days this semester- that's a whole fucking month and there's nothing i can do about it because my appointments are necessary. I decided that today I would force myself to work and sometimes it helps but other times, like today, it makes me feel even more like crap, especially when I have the pressure of my parents on me for not doing better when they full well know what I go through because they drive me to the clinic :/

I would be happy to provide academic support if you I want. I really know the field man, my dad was the same way. Also school was a pain in the ass too.

(substance/drug ment; sorry to interrupt)
anyway i was in the back of our pantry looking for smth and i found where my parents put the homemade alcohol and
my dumb bitch self-destructive brain: :)))))))))
me: hey let's not
my brain: let's do it when ur parents leave home there's like 3 2-litre bottles here and they're all half full
me:

update:
me, hitting my self-destructive thoughts w a broom: how did u get into my house

oh shit don't let those thoughts win, they suck ass. Just blast Nirvana or something lmao

Overall I would probably be the same way 😂

I would be happy to provide academic support if you I want. I really know the field man, my dad was the same way. Also school was a pain in the ass too.

I would actually love this a lot. If you don't mind (and have the time) that is.

oh shit don't let those thoughts win, they suck ass. Just blast Nirvana or something lmao

Overall I would probably be the same way 😂

thx man, altho rn i'm highkey into grandson, hella good singer, same level of angry

honestly my problem is that i've been so sheltered and emotionally abused and helicoptered my whole life that i tend to overcompensate when i find a way to do something i'm not Supposed To

oh shit don't let those thoughts win, they suck ass. Just blast Nirvana or something lmao

Overall I would probably be the same way 😂

thx man, altho rn i'm highkey into grandson, hella good singer, same level of angry

grandson is the best, I love all his songs, they're so energizing and it makes you want to punch something (at least in my case)