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Started January 17, 2019 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

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You can hate the world, but love the people in it.

That's a very astute observation, dearest!

That is why people say the world is beautiful. Because the broken is unseen.

That's also why people see the world as terrible, you physically cannot tell if someone's smiling to hide their depression or if they're genuinely happy. It depends on your perspective. I have a very positive outlook on the world, mostly because I have witnessed so many miracles that I've almost forgotten what the black hole of depression feels like.

I haven't forgotten. I admire you.

That is why people say the world is beautiful. Because the broken is unseen.

That's also why people see the world as terrible, you physically cannot tell if someone's smiling to hide their depression or if they're genuinely happy. It depends on your perspective. I have a very positive outlook on the world, mostly because I have witnessed so many miracles that I've almost forgotten what the black hole of depression feels like.

I can get behind that. In fact, even though my entire life has been wrought by tragedy and death and loss, and shaped by dark forces so do I.

You guys want to hear a quote of mine that relates to it? I said this to my best friend in the world.

I haven't forgotten. I admire you.

Note my use of almost. I've only been outside of that dark hole for a few months

You guys want to hear a quote of mine that relates to it? I said this to my best friend in the world.

Yes.

I haven't forgotten. I admire you.

Note my use of almost. I've only been outside of that dark hole for a few months

I've recently entered it.

Here it is.

"If you're going to be cynical about the world, at least be optimistic about your ability to change it."

I'm not cynical towards people. I just think that there is too much bad.

I'm not cynical towards people. I just think that there is too much bad.

The quote still stands. You have the ability to change the world.

Right now isn't the time. I like to do volunteer work. Nothing big though. I want to do something good.

Right now isn't the time. I like to do volunteer work. Nothing big though. I want to do something good.

Good. I do too.
And you know, that's wise. You've got enough on your plate as it is. Don't go out and try to do anything brash yet. Wait til' you're comfortable.

I don't really feel accepted on this site anymore… After what I did back in October - November I feel so outcasted. All month I was at a state of constant loneliness, wanting to be comforted, forgiven. And… no one did. I got yelled at by a user that will remain nameless, someone I considered a friend… basically told me to stop complaining about wanting to kill myself and do it already, and no one cared about what they said .
I was ignored, abandoned, and hated for one thing I said… for months… For stating that I didn't want to be controlled. People I considered my friends.
It got a little better, then it collapsed one month later when i misinterpreted something… and it started all over again.

One of them who was ignoring me for months, came back after I talked with another friend who he was close with and had to audacity… to tell me this…

"You may think your friends are annoyed, wrong, or hate you, but they're your friends. More often than not, they're just trying to help you or they just have a different view. And don't be afraid to ask them! Just face the problem, and don't react too quickly when they reply."

Is ignoring me… is treating me like shit, is nearly driving me to suicide… what friends do…?
I love them.
I'm sorry I just need to vent… If you're one of the people in this situation, im sorry… but I need to get what you've done to me off my chest…

Hey, I know I'm not really part of the situation you're dealing with Connie, but I'll totally be your friend. Truly I think you're actually a very cool person. And no matter what I'll welcome you with open arms.

I don't really feel accepted on this site anymore… After what I did back in October - November I feel so outcasted. All month I was at a state of constant loneliness, wanting to be comforted, forgiven. And… no one did. I got yelled at by a user that will remain nameless, someone I considered a friend… basically told me to stop complaining about wanting to kill myself and do it already.
I was ignored, abandoned, and hated for one thing I said… for months… For stating that I didn't want to be controlled. People I considered my friends.
It got a little better, then it collapsed one month later when I misinterpreted something… and it started all over again.

One of them who was ignoring me for months, came back after I talked with another friend who he was close with and had to audacity… to tell me this…

"You may think your friends are annoyed, wrong, or hate you, but they're your friends. More often than not, they're just trying to help you or they just have a different view. And don't be afraid to ask them! Just face the problem, and don't react too quickly when they reply."

Is ignoring me… is treating me like shit, is nearly driving me to suicide… what friends do…?
I love them.
I'm sorry I just need to vent… If you're one of the people in this situation, I'm sorry… but I need to get what you've done to me off my chest…

Just remember that I'm here for you, I may not know what you did but honestly, it can't get much worse than some of the things I've done in the past. You're an amazing person and I love you beyond words. Please don't forget that.

I'm sorry Connie. I'm especially sorry if I was a part of this. I hope I am a true friend of yours. You don't deserve to be treated like this. Whatever they have said to you is wrong of them. You are not an outcast in my eyes. You belong here. If you want to leave I get that, but I will miss you. You are a really kind and cool person. I enjoy talking to you.

That's right Connie. You mean a lot to all of us, and we'd love to have you around to talk to, and be friends with.

I'm sorry Connie. I'm especially sorry if I was a part of this. I hope I am a true friend of yours. You don't deserve to be treated like this. Whatever they have said to you is wrong of them. You are not an outcast in my eyes. You belong here. If you want to leave I get that, but I will miss you. You are a really kind and cool person. I enjoy talking to you.

You're not one of the people involved in this hon, it's okay. We aren't that close as of right now, but yes, i consider you a friend. ^~^

I'm sorry Connie. I'm especially sorry if I was a part of this. I hope I am a true friend of yours. You don't deserve to be treated like this. Whatever they have said to you is wrong of them. You are not an outcast in my eyes. You belong here. If you want to leave I get that, but I will miss you. You are a really kind and cool person. I enjoy talking to you.

You're not one of the people involved in this hon, it's okay. We aren't that close as of right now, but yes, i consider you a friend. ^~^

Thank you! I'm glad that you are my friend.

I'm sorry Connie. I'm especially sorry if I was a part of this. I hope I am a true friend of yours. You don't deserve to be treated like this. Whatever they have said to you is wrong of them. You are not an outcast in my eyes. You belong here. If you want to leave I get that, but I will miss you. You are a really kind and cool person. I enjoy talking to you.

You're not one of the people involved in this hon, it's okay. We aren't that close as of right now, but yes, i consider you a friend. ^~^

Thank you! I'm glad that you are my friend.

I'm glad too. I don't really think anyone involved was in this chat, so that's good.. ish… idc anymore xD (laughing the pain away, amiright?)

I hope things will get better for you. Do what makes you feel better. If you want to stop being friends with them then do so. If you want to reunite with them then try that.

I'm sorry Connie. I'm especially sorry if I was a part of this. I hope I am a true friend of yours. You don't deserve to be treated like this. Whatever they have said to you is wrong of them. You are not an outcast in my eyes. You belong here. If you want to leave I get that, but I will miss you. You are a really kind and cool person. I enjoy talking to you.

You're not one of the people involved in this hon, it's okay. We aren't that close as of right now, but yes, i consider you a friend. ^~^

Thank you! I'm glad that you are my friend.

I'm glad too. I don't really think anyone involved was in this chat, so that's good.. ish… idc anymore xD (laughing the pain away, amiright?)

Well I think we'll all be here to laugh with you and support you through it! It means a lot to me that you're back on here!

I hope things will get better for you. Do what makes you feel better. If you want to stop being friends with them then do so. If you want to reunite with them then try that.

I really don't think they will ever take me back. They're… pretty popular on this site if you kinda get what im talking about… I'm just scum under their shoes at this point. I want to start over, I really do, but they… won't acknowledge me. I'm scared to pm them, they might attack me.

That's not good! They are not real friends! You are not scum under their shoes at all!