I am right here to talk you through whatever you are going through.

ella, talk to us. whats going on?

I'm very late to this but still.
Ella hon
what's up?

We all want to know…

Hey Ella, I know I'm late to this feeling like crap party, but we're always here for you.
I mean, just look at this amazing support group ^^^
It's an amazing support group for and amazing person.

I feel like I am flipping dying.

what’s doing on

Well for one, I'm tired as crap. Two, stress is killing me. Three, I can't stop shaking and I don't even know why. Four, I feel like there is nothing that I can do anymore. I', completely powerless and I hate it. I just wish that I could do something to make someone feel better, say something even. But no, I can't I just sit behind the screen, a disappointment, my words as useless as the rest. I want to help everyone feel better, but I fear that it's dragging me down. I feel like I should stop, but I think that's selfish. There are obviously people who need me, right?

_{I just don't want to lose anyone. Not again. The last time hurt too much.}

i get it. my pm’s are always open if you want to talk <3

Thanks… I just don't even know anymore. I feel like I whine about my problems too much.

Everyone's problems seem to be so much more serious than mine. I guess I just feel like a jerk for even saying anything now.

please, if you need to talk to someone you can always talk to me.

It's alright. I'll be fine. Soon enough. But for now, that is not important. I must keep making sure that everyone else is too. Thanks for the support though, I appreciate it. <3

inhales

I am bored.

help
someone
i’m so scared…

i would go to the venting space with this but with the current conversations, i don’t feel safe there
i don’t feel safe anywhere
everywhere I go
i just feel like i’m being watched-

_please

_anyone

_{help me}

it’s so alone and dark in here
i can’t breathe
I can’t see
i think i’ve made myself sick with all the panicking
my head hurts
i can’t sleep
i don’t know what to do-

i just want to vanish completely
stop existing forever and ever
i don’t want to wake up tomorrow, i don’t want to do this again
please-

okay so my mind must’ve completely malfunctioned last night cause I don’t remember typing this-

i remember crying a lot and being unable to sleep but that’s it

inhales

I am bored.

hi bored. I’m Ella.

Yes! Dad jokes!

help
someone
i’m so scared…

i would go to the venting space with this but with the current conversations, i don’t feel safe there
i don’t feel safe anywhere
everywhere I go
i just feel like i’m being watched-

_please

_anyone

_{help me}

it’s so alone and dark in here
i can’t breathe
I can’t see
i think i’ve made myself sick with all the panicking
my head hurts
i can’t sleep
i don’t know what to do-

i just want to vanish completely
stop existing forever and ever
i don’t want to wake up tomorrow, i don’t want to do this again
please-

okay so my mind must’ve completely malfunctioned last night cause I don’t remember typing this-

i remember crying a lot and being unable to sleep but that’s it

Also, I've totally been there before. I totally understand. But I am still concerned nonetheless.

But, for now, I will leave it alone. But only for now.

How are you today, Ella?

Not good
Better than last night
But not good
You?

I don't know how I'm doing. I guess distressed is the word for it.

Or maybe uneasy.

eating jello with your fingers is surprisingly fun

Or both.

eating jello with your fingers is surprisingly fun

Ummmm, okay.