forum The tired, gay, sad, and confused chat

Started December 04, 2018 by @basil_

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Damnit did I do it? Fuck sorry…

I had this friend (an internet friend) and my parents took all my social media away and so I had to stop talking to her. I didn’t, though. I got in trouble a second time for it. But I did it again anyway. I did this because I thought I loved her. I thought that we’d go to college together and be friends irl when we were old enough (ie 18). Then I said something (not even about her) that I didn’t really mean and she blocked me knowing full well that it was my only way to contact her. I lost my fucking mind because it was devastating to me. It sent me into a huge panic and I was fucked up for weeks after. Eventually, I deleted my account and said she isn’t worth it. But I still on occasion go back to her insta just to see what she’s up to, mostly just to given,self another reason to hate her because I just want to shamelessly hate on her to no one but myself.
BUT TODAY I went on her page for the first time in about a year. The second most recent post mentioned missing friends that you’ve grown apart from after a fight, and how she misses a certain aesthetic bitch (me—she’s referencing my [frankly, iconic] username). I know for a fact she’s talking about me and now I’m panicking because I dont know if deep down I want confrontation or not and I’m literally shaking. I’m really freaking out.

I had this friend (an internet friend) and my parents took all my social media away and so I had to stop talking to her. I didn’t, though. I got in trouble a second time for it. But I did it again anyway. I did this because I thought I loved her. I thought that we’d go to college together and be friends irl when we were old enough (ie 18). Then I said something (not even about her) that I didn’t really mean and she blocked me knowing full well that it was my only way to contact her. I lost my fucking mind because it was devastating to me. It sent me into a huge panic and I was fucked up for weeks after. Eventually, I deleted my account and said she isn’t worth it. But I still on occasion go back to her insta just to see what she’s up to, mostly just to given,self another reason to hate her because I just want to shamelessly hate on her to no one but myself.
BUT TODAY I went on her page for the first time in about a year. The second most recent post mentioned missing friends that you’ve grown apart from after a fight, and how she misses a certain aesthetic bitch (me—she’s referencing my [frankly, iconic] username). I know for a fact she’s talking about me and now I’m panicking because I dont know if deep down I want confrontation or not and I’m literally shaking. I’m really freaking out.

You know what? You’ll never feel great if you don’t try, it sounds weird but contact her again, see what she says, you’ll feel really guilty if you don’t.

I quit once I can do it again.

If it doesn’t work the second time then they are jousting messing with you, it might be hard but try your best to move on if they are just trying to get attention. Wish you luck @Overdoneyanoveltropeyesplease

I quit once I can do it again.

Is this about the smoking?

Guys, I am so done with life and everything, my life just went downhill, it seems like nothing is going right for me, I give up.

I'm so sorry, I hate moving so much, it sucks and it's left me with only three long-term friends, one of whom is an internet friend. I hope everything turns around soon for you, though, and I also hope the place you move to ends up being cool.

I quit once I can do it again.

Is this about the smoking?

Mhm.

I quit once I can do it again.

Is this about the smoking?

Mhm.

Shuri, you CAN do it again, but it’s not a great choice to do so… if you are going to smoke anything smoke weed…

@Overdoneyanoveltropeyesplease Damn it if that doesn't sound familiar. I think you should let it be, and do your best to forget about her. Stalking her online won't fix any problems, it'll just bring old ones back up. I know what I'm saying is different from other's advice, but I've been through situations like this and it was only after I let those relationships and the pain they brought me go that I got any relief.

Guys, I am so done with life and everything, my life just went downhill, it seems like nothing is going right for me, I give up.

Hey, hey. I'm here for you to talk to if you need. Just remember to never give up no matter how bad it gets. We love you. If you need any help, I'm here.

Shuri it's not that we don't believe that you can, we're just worried for you.

I quit once I can do it again.

Is this about the smoking?

Mhm.

Shuri, you CAN do it again, but it’s not a great choice to do so… if you are going to smoke anything smoke weed…

I do.

Shuri it's not that we don't believe that you can, we're just worried for you.

That's fine. But don't be worried, I'm always fine…

Well weed is better at least, it doesn't mess with your lungs as much, and not as bad for your brain as nicotine, but it's still addictive.

Alright, but I'm not holding you to that statement.

I know.
I'm in the process of ditching the cigarettes.
Give me a week.

I quit once I can do it again.

Is this about the smoking?

Mhm.

Shuri, you CAN do it again, but it’s not a great choice to do so… if you are going to smoke anything smoke weed…

I do.

Oof well… don’t be like my dad and do both. He did it so much that he had a heart attack at the age of 39… at least some people weren’t as bad as he was, he smoked about a pack a day. He had to start vaping just to stop it, and he has to take 8 pills a day to stay alive…

That's fair.

hello,
im tired gay(bisexual) sad and confused
i don't have much to offer but i thought it would be fun to talk to someone because I have no friends

Hey fellow bisexual!

HI

Hello and welcome!

Yo, wassup?

howdy existant being