forum The Miracle family!!
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@The-Magician group

I think one more sip of wine and I will be emotional. I'm not drunk by any means, but I'm so tired, and I ache, and my stomach is growling like mad and just ugh..

@The-Magician group

Yeah, but you don't drink I presume?
I have 4 hours to finish cleaning my room, I have been cleaning it for the past 2 days already.. I'm so tired. Last night I slept on the floor and it was unusually uncomfortable, tonight I don't think I am getting any sleep. This isn't helping my insomnia.. The risks I take to leave my house..

@Shuri-the-Floof-Doggo

I think one more sip of wine and I will be emotional. I'm not drunk by any means, but I'm so tired, and I ache, and my stomach is growling like mad and just ugh..

Want a coddle?

@The-Magician group

I'm so tired of young children saying that they have had enough with life. Your life has only just begun, and of course it's going to be too much at the moment because you're a freaking teenager. Yes, there are other factors that make your life that bit harder than someone else's life, but you're young, you have no idea how great your life could be when you get older. You just need to work through these bad times and come out the other side having the experience that could one day help someone in your position.

When I was 7 years old I said goodbye to my dad for the very last time, not knowing that it was the last time. I remember the last words I said to him were "I miss you.", but now, 10 years later, I realise he didn't miss me.
When I was 9 years old I almost lost my mind because I didn't know how to handle having a sibling that required my mum's attention. I did some things that I'm not proud of, things that have caused someone at my college to be genuinely scared of me. That same age I found my first kin, without having any guidance through what Atria was and why she was there I was left to believe that I was going insane and that effected my social life at school and at home.
When I was 11 I moved from the North of the country to the very South. No friends, no school for a month, no real knowing of how I was going to fit in down here.
When I was 13 I cut myself (not where you expect) because my parents didn't, and still don't, give me the freedom that other people my age have. It isn't fair, why should other people my age get to go out whenever they want while I have to run everything past my parents?
With the discovery of more kins over the years I decided to tell someone about it. My mistake. I was the laughing stock of my year, so many people judged me for it because they thought I was "pretending" and they didn't understand. I had no one to turn to when I had kin related issues, not even my boyfriend, because he wouldn't know how to help. He never did.
I started my exams at 14, and at first they were really easy, but by the time I was 16 I told my parents that I wanted to die. I told them that I couldn't deal with the stress that they and the exams were putting on me, and how I never asked to be here. None of us were, really. I remember crying so many nights because that was the only way I knew how to express my emotions. That same age (16), I was diagnosed with depression, insomnia, social phobia, and possibly Aspergers (they're still assessing me).

Now, I'm 17, one of my great-grandma's passed away three weeks ago, and things are still tough on the academic and parental sides. However, I have friends who take the pain away, who make me forget all my worries just by being there. I work,, surrounding myself with staff and customers alike who are amazing people, who are there for me when times are hard, who don't get angry with me when I break down (yeah it's frustrating but they understand that I'm young and only trying to do my best). I ended my 3 year and 5 month relationship because it wasn't doing me any good. Now, I'm free to focus on what makes me happy, and what I want to do with my life.

The point is, things are going to be hard. For some people, it may only take a sort amount of time for things to become right again, whereas with others it will take longer. If you give up now, you'll never know the great direction your life will take. You just have to hold on for a bit longer, and I know the wait is painful, but you can do it. I did.