@RedTheLoveless
I felt like I wasn't quite clear about why I left and how it seemed so sudden but for me it was building up for a while. I don't want anyone to think it was specifically their fault for making me leave, as that's not it at all. So to clear up any confusion, here goes:
- I started it as a joke in a thread where kids were complaining about their horrible parents. I didn't mean for or want what it has become now.
- I only wanted to make people smile, not create an entire family cult.
- There was a rising pressure with each new member to join for me to be good and not feel any negative emotion and to just bottle it up inside and never say anything about it ever.
- I am currently headed towards a downward spiral that will end with me hitting rock bottom and staying there for quite some time. There is nothing I can do to avoid this. So instead of subjugating everyone to my horrid mood swings and anger I thought it best for me to leave to avoid doing any more damage than I had already done.
- I am stressed the fuck out enough as it is. I didn't need that and just the General Chat drama in general adding to it.
- I may leave Notebook for good at one point so best not to get attached to someone who won't even be here. If you're really that concerned, I'll give you my email if you ask for it for the intent purpose of keeping in contact with me.
I'm probably going to delete this thread after a day or so. This is meant to spread information, not gain self-attention and pity points.
