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@Elise_Married_Five_Hargreeves

TvT thx

and not in Texas. bc we're forced to have babies, and we have no right to our reproductive systems even tho my birth control helps my periods by making them happen every month and be less painful. :D

Could you mind if I go on a rant here?

(It's spoilered for a reason)

Sorry. Just needed to get that off my chest.

Mate I'm so sorry, that must've been horrible to watch someone go through

@Cackla-the-Phantasma group

I wish I was born a guy ;-;

As someone who was born male, I kinda wish that I wasn't.

Don't want to change my biological sex/gender or anything like that, I just want to be free of it all IMO.

So many silly archetypes that people assign to whether you're a boy, girl, both, or neither.

I'm so tired of hearing something along the lines of "Be strong. Don't be weak and enjoy doing what you love. You need to be manly and muscular or an Ubermensch."

Idk what this is called, but I just want to be me y'know? Not tied to any of these archetypes.

@Cackla-the-Phantasma group

TvT thx

and not in Texas. bc we're forced to have babies, and we have no right to our reproductive systems even tho my birth control helps my periods by making them happen every month and be less painful. :D

Could you mind if I go on a rant here?

(It's spoilered for a reason)

Sorry. Just needed to get that off my chest.

Mate I'm so sorry, that must've been horrible to watch someone go through

Tbh, there's so many days where I just feel like I can't carry on anymore.

But somehow, I keep on going. So that's something at least.

I'm trying to not fall into that pit of sadness again, at least for a while.

She probably wouldn't want me to be sad. Both for my friend and I.

@Elise_Married_Five_Hargreeves

I wish I was born a guy ;-;

As someone who was born male, I kinda wish that I wasn't.

Don't want to change my biological sex/gender or anything like that, I just want to be free of it all IMO.

So many silly archetypes that people assign to whether you're a boy, girl, both, or neither.

I'm so tired of hearing something along the lines of "Be strong. Don't be weak and enjoy doing what you love. You need to be manly and muscular or an Ubermensch."

Idk what this is called, but I just want to be me y'know? Not tied to any of these archetypes.

Fuck gender stereotypes!!!!!

It's honestly so sad to see these toxic masculine standards, especially when little kiddies repeat them.

My brother is only 9, but he's incredibly emotional. He'll cry on a daily basis or get sad alot, and I can see how my dads trying to implement a more "hardened alpha catholic" mindset into him already, and its horrible (so whenever he does it i respond back with a religious quote that contradics him ❤️)

I hate how especially in religions (more under the catholic/islam umbrella) there's such a stigma around independent women or men who cry or people who don't want to be neither, and i die every time I see people twist religious texts to bring others down cause it gives EVERYONE a bad stereotype. I'm a catholic myself and everything people say to reinstate "traditional gender roles" is either taken out of context of changed entirety, like let people be man

Anyway that's my long slightly-went-off-track-blabble lmao

@Elise_Married_Five_Hargreeves

Tbh, there's so many days where I just feel like I can't carry on anymore.

But somehow, I keep on going. So that's something at least.

I'm trying to not fall into that pit of sadness again, at least for a while.

She probably wouldn't want me to be sad. Both for my friend and I.

It's the fact that you do still keep trucking on tho that's good <3
If you do ever need to vent you can always pm me ^^

@Eli-the-transboi group

TvT

oh lets not forget the insomnia, but only at night. during the day (today literally) I couldn't sleep until 1-2 am, woke up at 6 for school, drank half a monster energy, listened to heavy metal, bus didn't come so I went back home and instantly passed out the moment my head hit the pillow. but I try to sleep at night? NOPE depressive episode instead! YAY
oh and my sleep isn't restful. I could get 12 hours and feel like I ran a marathon. and yeah also chronic nightmares.

Don't we love it when our body just sucks at its job??

Weeeeee!

On a more serious note.

Me too.

yup. this is what mass amounts of trauma, feeling unsafe 24/7, severe anxiety, depression, undiagnosed autism and ADHD and maybe even some possible developed ocd does to you! :D and they wonder why I wanna off myself so much. eye roll I'm still pissed that they just wanna medicate me instead of tryna fix the issue of my life being so bad. like at least get me therapy. I'm just lucky that I managed to get into a group home when I did.

@Avhira-The-Eldritch-Horror group

TvT

oh lets not forget the insomnia, but only at night. during the day (today literally) I couldn't sleep until 1-2 am, woke up at 6 for school, drank half a monster energy, listened to heavy metal, bus didn't come so I went back home and instantly passed out the moment my head hit the pillow. but I try to sleep at night? NOPE depressive episode instead! YAY
oh and my sleep isn't restful. I could get 12 hours and feel like I ran a marathon. and yeah also chronic nightmares.

Same. I never get any rest. One of my meds in the morning helps me feel more awake (not the intended purpose, a side effect). If I forget my morning meds, I tend to pass out whenever I lay down. But still not restful. And I have to take medication to be able to sleep at all at night. And it's still not a restful sleep. What's even worse? I don't get depressive episodes most nights. Or anything else. My insomnia is unexplainable.

Axel

Okay… now, the real question. How does one get back into the void? I have been away from my homeland for far too long.

@ElderGod-Winter-The-Renegade-Legionnaire book

TvT thx

and not in Texas. bc we're forced to have babies, and we have no right to our reproductive systems even tho my birth control helps my periods by making them happen every month and be less painful. :D

I don't know if this is any help, but there is now a fully over the counter birth control. It's cheaper than I thought it would be. 20 dollars for one month and fifty dollars for three months. DM me if you would like to know more. I don't know the age of people here, so I don't feel like advocating medication to a crowd I don't know the age for. But I've been doing research into it, and it looks promising.

@Eli-the-transboi group

TvT thx

and not in Texas. bc we're forced to have babies, and we have no right to our reproductive systems even tho my birth control helps my periods by making them happen every month and be less painful. :D

I don't know if this is any help, but there is now a fully over the counter birth control. It's cheaper than I thought it would be. 20 dollars for one month and fifty dollars for three months. DM me if you would like to know more. I don't know the age of people here, so I don't feel like advocating medication to a crowd I don't know the age for. But I've been doing research into it, and it looks promising.

yeah I saw. but I'm broke and homeless so I cant afford anything that doesn't come with food stamps.

Axel

You can't. I stole the void. Am using it as a nice comfy blanket.

…WHAT.