@Masterkey
CHEESINESS ALERT:
I've recently been struggling with this feeling of not being fulfilled.
I don't know if there's ONE specific reason, but I know it has a lot to do with my going through a phase (that I'm mostly over now) of not being happy with who I was. Meaning, I felt like I wasn't doing the right thing.
I've gotten over that phase because I've gotten closer in my relationship with God, but I feel like there's MORE than just "obeying God" and "reading your Bible." What I'm about to say I think applies to everyone, whether or not you believe what I believe.
I've been feeling more fulfilled the more I see beauty. And by beauty, I don't necessarily mean conventional, societal beauty, but it's fine to appreciate that, too. I think beauty is so much more than just the way something looks. It's about things having an inherent value, therefore being beautiful. And there's beauty everywhere. In everyone. (Obviously, there are horrible things in this world that I don't have to think are beautiful. Certainly, not EVERYTHING is beautiful, but there is beauty EVERYWHERE.) When I look at the world and nature, I see a wonderful world where I used to see the plain old green and grey and brown that I see every day. Heck, I look at a parking garage and I still see something beautiful in what people have created. The aesthetic is nice, I guess. XD
And in every person there's a beating heart just like mine. We all may have made mistakes, we all may have done wrong, but I believe we were all MADE to be good. We were all MADE to be beautiful. Our destiny is to be good and beautiful. We all have infinite value. Everyone has a story, so I can't judge who they are or what they've been through. When I look at people through that lens, it makes me want to be kind to everyone. It makes me love human beings–everything that we are is messy, but there's beauty in us, too. And then it's not just about seeing beauty, but letting that mindset shape my actions.
I definitely don't have all the answers or the definitive solution for curing sadness or pain or whatever, but I do know that seeing the beauty in everything is making me feel more and more fulfilled.
OKAY I'M DONE, CONTINUE WITH YOUR BEAUTIFUL LIVES, YOU BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE